Hayley- Moon and Womb Medicine Woman

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Drum Birthing

Recently after a few years of saying it was something I wanted, and that I wouldn’t anyway because I am a vegan…I made a drum. I had always thought I would get an artificial drum and not make it myself if I ever really wanted a drum, but then I changed my mind. I met the wonderful Melonie when we both did our Level 1 Moon Mother Training together back in 2016…soon after that I attended another one of her personal workshops which was a weekend of sharing with women, with another woman who has become a good friend of mine- Maia. Anyway. From there on I have been following Melonie’s work for some time. She does a lot of amazing things- workshops for women, educating younger people about puberty and menstruation, womb massage, drum circles and making drums….check her drum making stuff out here.

From following her social media channels I could see Melonie is a really good soul, and puts a lot of thought into what she does. I read about how she really cares about where the materials for her drums come from, so she gets the animal skins as ethically as possible. Currently she gets them from culling programs, from animals who would have been burnt. Whilst I don’t agree with culling in itself, it does feel more honouring for the animal for the skins to be used this way, and the difference between this for me and wearing fur, is during the session we truly did honour every part that we used. I don’t expect other vegans to agree with me (I expect a lot probably will not) but this was how I felt, and that’s why I thought I would write about my experience with Melonie (I’ve not made drums with anyone else ever so maybe not all work in this way) to give the full picture of what it felt like a vegan to do this.

We were originally supposed to do the drum birthing day at a friends house, but then my friend had to self isolate, and it looked like it wasn’t going to go ahead. Then one of the other ladies who was attending, told a friend of hers, and that friend then offered her space, so all was on again, and this was literally the day before.

It took me a while to get there (hour and half) and then in our small group I only knew Melonie (there was supposed to be 3 people there I actually do know) so my discomfort was rising. Already I knew I was going to be out of my comfort zone but this was even more so.

Tea was made, altar set, table set up, then Melonie opened the circle for the day with a beautiful heart opening/ connection meditation and a quick share about each of us and our intents.

We then could choose our hoop. She had brought several and encouraged ourselves to pick up each one and really feel into which was the one for our drum. As it turned out each of us picked a different size and each one was really significant for each person. Mine is willow wood, which is the wood of my favourite tree! Then Melonie got us to ask the hoop how it could be honoured, and she had kindly brought lots of items (smudging bits, glastonbury water etc) we could use. Mine wanted fire, so I used the candle we had on the altar and I also drew moon mother symbols onto it with my fingers to imbue it with the energies of radiance, love, hope and peace.

Then it was time to see the animal hides, the bit I was dreading. As it were, all of us were a little nervous, one of the other ladies was also a vegan, and the other just hadn’t thought about the fact she would be working with animal hide! Mel very gently got ourselves to touch it, and get in touch with the energy of it. The first we looked at was a stag hide. I could feel the sadness rippling off it, and tears were coming to a few of us. Then Mel told us to ask the hide how it would like to be honoured. This hide wanted love, and we gave love by singing a song to it (I wasn’t familiar with the song so I can’t remember what song it was) I think there was something else we did too but I can’t remember what that was now). I really noticed the change of energy after we sang, as it now felt much more peaceful. then we moved onto the reindeer skin (the one I chose to work with). This one needed to be shaken (like when you ‘shake it off’ if you like)! then needed smoke, and I wanted to use the rose petals so we used a rose as a smudging tool.

Now here’s the part where I start to get a bit fuzzy as it was a few weeks back now, but it was an interesting day. For some reason I was surprised how much weaving was involved! At times I got frustrated and impatient, as it felt like the others were speeding along with ease but at some point I caught up and we were ready all together to each ‘cut the cord’ and birth our new babies.

Afterwards we made our beaters and did a journey to our drums to find the spirit of the drum. Mine was a rose. The same as we smudged the drum with.

The interesting thing was that Mel had said at the start that often the birthing process reflects our own birth or a birth of a child. My birth was long (8 hours) and I had to be pulled out with forceps. I got impatient with my drum as I thought I was taking too long and it felt awkward as I was tying it together knots kept appearing that refused to come out of the hole – like me having to be pulled out!

As someone who is not only vegan, but has always struggled with craft, this was an amazing experience. Mel holds it with such love and consideration for both the people attending and the materials (the animal and the tree) she allowed us each free rein to feel exactly what we wanted to create and help us to make that happen with patience and grace. I highly recommend her!

 

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Poetry Dowsing Week 6

*Please note this follows on from my previous blogs about a creative program I am following. You can read more about the project by reading my blog about Week One

The theme for this week was ‘Uncovering a sense of resolve’, focusing on our creative work. With the suggestion that if we can be so easily distracted by small things taking us off track, then maybe small steps can also put us back on track. With this in mind, I revisited my book, to see how far I have actually got, and remind myself of what I have wrote so far. My book is a collection of short stories based on my own personal spiritual experiences through journeying and other methods. So I’ve been starting to look back through my notebooks, to find ideas for the next stories to write. I haven’t wrote another story for it yet, but at least I have started looking again, and remembering that my book even exists lol

For the exercise this week we needed to look around our neighbourhood and note 5 things that are interesting about it, as if we were going to write a poem based on it. I found this quite easy, as I love to look for things in the world around me and I have been told that I am good and seeing messages from the everyday world. Then if we felt inspired we could write a poem using at least 3 of those details. I managed to write one, which is about a pigeon I see nearby on a daily basis almost, the pigeon is the most brown pigeon I’ve ever seen, she’s so recognizable I’ve named her Henrietta (although I am assuming it’s a she)! I’ll share the poem at the end of this post.

The weather has been awful recently with a lot of storms. So I haven’t really been able to go for a walk in nature, but yesterday we went to Brick Lane to celebrate Valentine’s Day, so we had a walk around there. It was much quieter than usual and the market wasn’t present sadly due to the storm, but I still love walking around that area, soaking it in. I love the quirky vibe and the street art. There also seemed to be something going on for London Fashion Week, so there were some interesting fashion types walking about as well.

For my artist date this week I thought of last week’s exercise which I hadn’t managed to do. I didn’t do a binge watch, but I sat and watched the final episode of a series that really makes me laugh- the IT Crowd. and laugh I did ๐Ÿ™‚

I also did my morning pages everyday.

The poem that I wrote:

Every day when I step out of my bright pink door
I walk towards the bridge
And I see my pigeon friends having a feast
From a mysterious stranger I’ve never seen
But one pigeon stands out the most
I’ve named her Henrietta
She’s the brownest pigeon of Forest gate
Henrietta, leader of the gang
Guardians of the arches
Feathered messengers gathering
Under her watchful eye
As they eat their sacred offerings
In exchange for their protection
Keeping the darkened corners safe.

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How November 2017 was…

focus for the year: Divine Feminine, Balance and Happiness

Divine Feminine- as usual I did a lot towards this, as well as all my daily work, I went to quite a few women’s groups, I won a Skype Womb Ceremony (well basically we talked about red tents, periods and yonis for an hour lol) and did one womb healing.

Felt I was a bit more balanced as I started to go out a bit more than I have been for most of the year! and because of this I was also doing more things that made me happy ๐Ÿ™‚

Intentions

Cook more- did cook a few times

Make more time for creativity- did write a blog, and attempted crafting at one of the circles I went to…

Be better at birthdays- no

Finish the lists- no not really

Live to my cycle and educate others- yep

and my new intentions that I created on Witches New Year..

to be empowered in all areas of my life- in a way yes as I made myself go out more even when I thought we couldn’t really afford it..but also I started to get the influx of bookings for healings! I’ve already had two clients in December and I’ve still got another 3 booked in!

to be more visible- Yep! I went to three events.

to create new beginnings- well I’m slowly tying loose ends to make it easier when the time is right to be able to move…

to learn to let go more and allow FLOW into my life- it’s a slow process as I do love my lists and being organised, but I have been slowly letting go week by week of different lists and different things that stop me from being in the moment. It’s just finding the balance of being in the moment but also making sure things do get done!!

What I got up to during November- I went to the Rayleigh Red Tent, I went a few years ago but hadn’t taken the time for myself to go again even though the venue is literally across the road from where I work! It was quite good, we had a share and then got to try Chakra Dance, which I never done before but it was really good, and we had blindfolds on so it was even more liberating!

I went to the Sisters of the earth Goddess circle I’ve been attending the last few months. We did a guided meditation to the Goddess Freya and made crone dolls. I wasn’t very good so mine is still sitting here unmade ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

It was transgender day of remembrance on the 20th so I called on others to join and light a candle and send a wave of love at 8pm on that day.

I met up with my friend Lauren and we went to leigh, where I got some crystals and we went had vegan cake at a bookshop that has a coffee shop inside with a vegan menu!

I had a womb healing client and I finished someone else on their Munay Ki Path.

I went to an anti fur protest in Leigh

I went to an evening event which was an hour of gentle yoga and a sound bath, very relaxing!

December so far seems to be all about the healings! (and I did actually pick the card ‘The singer of healing’ as my card for this month on my year reading) I don’t do Xmas but will be going to the work xmas meal which is at ASK this year (I’m looking forward to it as another venue that has a vegan menu now) and we will be celebrating the Winter Solstice. I’m also hoping to go to Red tent Rayleigh again and go out for new year.

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Why I’m not an Angry Vegan…

Recently I have felt inspired to write a blog about this.

I am a vegan and I have been vegan for eleven and a half years now. I am vegan primarily for animal rights reasons, as I truly believe animals are not here for our use, and all beings should be treated equally.

In all my time of being vegan I have met a lot of other vegans, vegetarians, and of course many many meat eaters, some who take pleasure in making sarcastic comments or asking what I would do in hypothetical scenarios which are extremely unlikely to happen. I’ve also met people who are simply curious and ask genuine questions and try to understand the choice I’ve made.

There is a certain type of vegan, some would say ‘militant’ย  , I would say ‘angry’.

An angry vegan often tends to have a very bitter world view, perhaps despising the human race, quite possibly may have cut all ties with anyone in their life who eats meat. Yells obscenities at anyone who doesn’t agree with them.

Now don’t get me wrong. They have got a right to be angry. The world is cruel. Animals suffer. Badly. and in all sorts of ways, from the meat and dairy industry, to animal “entertainment” to animal testing on cosmetics and medicine, to fur farming, hunting, I could go on and on. and Yes, all those things make me angry too.

I have been on many protests about almost all of those things and more. I haven’t so much recently but not because I don’t want to. I do believe protests and actions can make a huge difference, even if simply a passer by notices and it sparks something in them. To me, that is a small but great step to bringing a bit more compassion in the world. Protests are a great way to express the anger we feel.

I choose to protest but I choose not to be an Angry Vegan as part of my everyday life.

Why? Because for me veganism is about compassion.

Compassion is for ALL. So that means other humans as well as animals. I don’t believe that I will convince anyone else to be vegan by being angry with them. I want to show that you can be happy and healthy as vegan and I want to show that with my actions and my words. Yes I’ll certainly promote veganism where I can and I’ll discuss my points of view on my choices and animal rights issues. But there is no need for me to shout others down for not making the same choice as me. I’d rather show my choices by perhaps sharing food or talking about good organisations, by showing the positive sometimes not always the negative. That doesn’t mean I won’t share a petition or a video once in a while. I just choose to show compassion for ALL. Okay so maybe some of those people don’t show that same compassion. But my hope is that by always showing compassion to others, we can teach others to do the same, even if it does take time. There’s no need for me to fight.

so yes I’m very proud to be a non- angry, happy hippy vegan ๐Ÿ™‚

 

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June 2017 Look back

beyond the half way point of the year and have to admit I am finding this year hard…So many things have happened and my emotions have been running high…I hope I can find some solace soon…

but anyway here is here I got on with my goals for the year during the month of June..

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- did do a few small things that made me happy but it’s never for long at the moment..

still haven’t cooked more..

to have new experiences and visit new places- I went on an organised butterfly walk and I hadn’t done that before..

step fully into my role as a healer- no clients at all ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

activism- started sending news bits to Animal Justice project. My first news article is here

be better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- no

update on giving up the pill- it’s now 3 months since I stopped, this time I got quite stressed as I didn’t bleed until after 33 days. It’s still very light but not very painful. I think partly stress made me start later but also I turned 33 a few days before so maybe there’s something in the number…

make more time for creativity- sort of. I did ’30 Days Wild’ again this year so I was posting a photo every day on Instagram.

to live to my cycle and educate others- I had the 2nd red tent, which went better, I had 4 women turn up, I gave them ‘cauldron energisers’ (womb energiser), we did womb journalling questions, and a meditation for empowerment.

What else happened and I got up to:

I think I mentioned last month that I had some ‘big’ homework from the shamanic group I’m in to do city vision quests, where you had to walk in each direction and have certain questions in mind to find the answers to. I did the last 2 directions of those so that was very interesting.

I voted…

Red Tent..

had a whole horrible situation with our cat Mitzi…I wrote in previous blog so I won’t go over that again…but no longer have any cats ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

I had organised a social here in Southend for the shamanic groups only a few days later but sadly only one person showed up…although it was a nice day..

I had some time off as it was my birthday..My friend Lauren treated me to a meal at The oaktree which was lovely (I had a lasagne and an icecream sundae), I sorted out some bits at home I needed to do, I went to see my friend Helene’s choir at Leigh Folk festival, went to a summer solstice ritual at hockley woods and on my birthday I went for organised butterfly walk at Belfairs woods which was brilliant, we saw 14 species of butterfly โค also had a private yoga lesson.

so July…two shamanic weekends away coming and starting to give the munay ki…

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Mitzi

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It really saddens me that I am already writing another sad post. Nearly a week ago now we had to say goodbye to our other dear cat, Mitzi.

We got Mitzi probably about 6 months after we got Roxie and it seems they left us almost 6 months apart as well. Mitzi had been with us almost as long as Roxie. We picked her out of a friend’s litter as the slightly strange one.

Mitzi had a totally different personality to Roxie. Mitzi didn’t like to be picked up (apart from by Miguel and even that was fairly shortlived mostly) and was quite fussy about who could pay attention to her and about her food. She was a very healthy cat apart from having an allergy to fleas and having problems with too much wax in her ears for a little while.

As she got older, she mellowed out somewhat and liked more attention. When Roxie went, she became even more vocal (she was quite vocal before), didn’t mind being picked up so much anymore, would want a LOT of attention and would cry sometimes in the night. She had a funny personality as she occasionally would have a moment where she would just go crazy for a few moments, or do silly things like trying to chase a rock around on the balcony!

It was a totally different situation this time as it had been for Roxie, as Mitzi had been very healthy. Sadly she had an accident that turned out to be fatal in the end. She got her tail caught in our balcony door and part of her tail came right off. I was totally ignorant as I thought the vets would probably just bandage her up or something (she seemed totally okay other than the small bit of bone poking out at the end of her tail) but then he said she would need a tail amputation and because of her age (14 so classed as elderly) she would need quite a lot of other things to help her through the operation, he quoted me ยฃ1300! My face dropped as we had nowhere near that amount of money. He was very nice and called some other vets for me, but it was all too expensive. He saidย  he would give her a couple of injections and that I would have 24 hours to do something about it, to call round and see if I could get a cheaper quote or a payment plan (which wasn’t ideal for us right now either) as after 24 hours it would become an animal welfare issue. Or he said failing that he could do a cheaper operation which only uses a localised anaesthetic but there would be a very high risk attached of problems soon afterwards. I was a bit overwhelmed as I had gone on my own thinking it would be something simple.

so obviously I had to break all this to Miguel and we had to think really seriously about it, we didn’t want there to be more risks, and not only was a payment plan not possible for us right now but at Mitzi’s age it would have been very difficult for her to go through all this trauma and perhaps not be able to live her last remaining years to the fullest, so we had to speak to a few other people first to get other opinion’s but sadly in the end we had to make the hardest decision of them all to have her put to sleep, we had to put Mitzi’s comfort first. So the following day we spent a lot of time saying goodbye before we took her to the vets again. Our friend Roberta took us to Two Tree Island again and she is now with Roxie again.

I have found it so hard as now the flat is empty and yesterday was the first day I hadn’t cried since last Friday but I know I’m not finished yet. But I am trying to comfort myself with my memories of what a lovely cat she was โค and that she is now able to run free on the rainbow bridge..

 

 

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Roxie

So it’s now been just over four months since our very dear cat Roxie went to the rainbow bridge. I’ve been wanting to blog about her for a long time since it happened, but it hit me hard and it’s taken me a long time to feel like I was at a space where I could write about her without feeling the pain. Don’t get me wrong, it still hurts, but the hurting is less as I’m now accepting that she is no longer part of our lives.

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I can’t remember the exact date we got Roxie, but I think I was about 20 years old when we got her (I’m nearly 33 now). She was a surprise. We were thinking of getting a cat but hadn’t really been looking properly just yet when my old school friend Leigh Anne one day turned up with this fluffy bundle at our doorstep and said she was ours. Roxie was a long haired tabby cat with an extremely fluffy tail that was like a squirrel’s. She didn’t have a name yet and Miguel let me choose. I was still doing my radio show ‘Pigtails and Army Boots’ at the time so I wanted to name her after a female musician, so I named her Roxie after the singer Roxy Saint.

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It was only a few months later that we got another cat, through a colleague of Miguel’s. Her cat had just had kittens and she was looking for new homes, knowing I would love a black cat, we went and picked one out. I remember her being a little shyer than the others, but we both decided she was the one. As I had named Roxie, Miguel could name this little bundle and she became Mitzi.

At first they didn’t get along at all! and we completely ignored the rule book and didn’t put them separate or anything. Eventually the scrapping died down and they became reluctant friends.

Roxie and Mitzi became part of the family.ย  If you wanted to be friends with us, you had to make friends with them too! Mitzi was (not so much now but more on that later) much her own cat, you couldn’t pick her up (apart from Miguel) and she rarely sat on laps, and was also very fussy about food. Roxie was the complete opposite. She loved attention, would jump on laps at any opportunity and loved her food!

I don’t know if it was because I named her or some coincidence but it always felt like somehow Roxie was more ‘my’ cat than Miguel’s. There was some bond there that I can’t explain.

Roxie and Mitzi were with us through all sorts of transitions, moving homes several times, difficult times, and good times including when we got married. I’ve never had children and this was the closest thing I’ve ever had.

A lot of people say that cats don’t care, are not very loving as so independent. My experience is different. Yes to some degree they are certainly independent and can take care of themselves, but our cats have always shown affection and love, and Roxie sure did.

It hit me so hard when she had to be put to sleep back in December, it really was like losing a family member. I’ve lost pets before, but this time it was different, Roxie was ‘mine’ not a family pet and we had watched her grow up, and unfortunately saw her get very ill right at the end. I’m so glad we could bury her in a lovely spot on Two Tree Island overlooking Hadleigh Castle. I’m also so grateful to our friend Sherry who helped us out so much that day.ย  I will always remember her for what a truly beautiful loving cat she was. Her chaos in the morning when food was imminent, her big fluffy tail and the many, many cuddles.

Mitzi is still with us of course and I think she misses Roxie somewhat still, she’s become much more of a lap cat now (although still not too fond of being picked up) and sometimes she cries in the night, (and is perfectly fine if we come to check). I’m not sure if it’s because she misses Roxie’s company (despite their love/hate relationship I think there was some level of love there) or whether she senses her spirit. She won’t sit in a certain spot where Roxie always used to sit, and sometimes we could swear we see her.

Wherever you are now Roxie, know that we will always remember and love you โค

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Purity and Grace- November 2016

Sorry for such a delay in posting this, I was on holiday last week and this is the first chance I’ve had to properly post!

My key words for the year: Knowledge, health, magic and self care.

In November, I finally completed my Moon Mother training, so I am now able to do womb healings and blessings (more info further in post) so this certainly counts towards ‘Magic!’ and ‘Knowledge’. I’ve been going to yoga regularly again too so ‘health’ also applies.

My goals/intentions

To cook more- still not really

To go to Yoga classes- I went to two classes, as on week I had to work earlier and the other Monday left I was away!

walk more often- did a fair bit while away!

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- not so good at first part but not too bad at not having expectations

manifestation skills- finally got to the Moon Mother workshop ๐Ÿ™‚

new intentions set on Samhain

to step fully into my role as a healer- now have completed Moon Mother training, which I’m hoping will be a big thing for me

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to see some new things while in Portugal, did the Moon Mother training, went to a different animal sanctuary, went to the St Matthews meditation group for the first time.

to do more activism- took part in a volunteer day at an animal sanctuary

to do more of what makes me happy- went to a meditation group, did yoga classes, went to an animal sanctuary, Moon Mother training, went to Portugal, ran my circle

What I got up to

There is a monthly meditation group that takes place at a local church I’ve been meaning to go for ages and in November our friend Gareth was doing a crystal meditation with clear quartz, so I went along to that.

I went with my friend Rosie and her boyfriend, and another new activist friend I met on that day called Matthew to the Retreat Animal Rescue in Kent for a volunteer day. It was quite a cold, dirty and hard work day but also filled with beautiful animals, so it was very rewarding and special. Can’t wait to visit again one day!

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The Moon Mother training I did was a full weekend in London which I had booked in to do over a year ago and it finally arrived. The training is done by Miranda Gray, who does the Worldwide Womb Blessings. It was the first time she has taught in the UK for four years so it was very special to get to be there and become one of many Moon Mothers around the world. Moon Mothers can help to send the energy during the Worldwide Womb Blessings as well as conducting personal womb blessings and healings for others. I am the moment running through a few ‘practice’ sessions of the womb healing and then I will be offering to the public for a set price, and then I will be doing the same with the Womb Blessings. It was a very special and emotional weekend, and I really felt this is something I am meant to do. Have a look at the links I have provided (clickable on selected words in this paragraph) to find out more or you can contact me directly and I will tell you all you need to know. If anything, I would highly recommend taking part in the Worldwide Womb Blessing, it’s free and deepens your connection to the Divine Feminine.

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I went to the 2nd part of my ‘redoing’ of the Munay Ki initations, and I did feel the energy a lot more this time.

I ran my circle, which was a small one in November with only 2 women attending, and was on the theme of ‘Emotional Sensitivity and Empathy’ and went very well.

We went to Portugal on the 28th, so we were there the remaining days of November and the beginning of December. On the Monday we stayed with Miguel’s dad, so it was a fairly relaxed day as we had a very early start, and then from Tuesday onwards we went and stayed in an apartment we rented from Air BnB which was small but well equipped. On the Tuesday, Miguel met up with a baby sitter from his childhood and then we met his sister and got to see her new jewellery studio which was very nice and had a coffee. We were still quite tired so there wasn’t much time to do much else.

Wednesday we got up really early so went out and walked by the river and saw lots of stone statues which were pretty cool, it was raining but we visited the Tower of Belem, and briefly saw the outside of a chapel called the Monastery of Jeronimos but it wasn’t quite open when we got there and there was a lot of gypsies trying to sell umbrellas so we didn’t stay long! We then went to a famous cafe where they make the traditional portugese cake Pastel de Nata,(and have been for years and years) which obviously I couldn’t have but Miguel did. We then met Inge (Miguel’s sister) for lunch at an organic supermarket place with a restaurant attached. We went back to the apartment for a bit before going back out later and it was like the centre had come alive, it was busy, lots of street performers, and even though we don’t celebrate Xmas, we enjoyed the lights and even did some silly photos! Then we went to a restaurant called Jardim das cerejas which was an all vegan buffett, which was nice but could have been a little warmer.

Will tell you the last 2 days of Portugal in my next month round up! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Poems in November

A Beautiful Candle Dances Eternally Faithful gathering Hope in Joy Kisses Like Mountains Never Opening Pages Quite Right Sunshine Time Universal Very Whimsical yet Zealous

A cauldron of possibility, fresh like the stars, cinnamon and spice, dreams of something nice, Lunar landscapes, hiding within diamond shaped rooms, welcome to what’s in my head, or at least that’s what she said…

When the rain clears, I will be able to see you again, for now I cannot face the pain, of what that might bring, the fears, the tears, of what might happen when you are near, I don’t want to be hurt, I need the sunshine to come, to know it’s okay, and it will happen one day..

 

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Essex Pig Save

 

I heard about ‘Pig Save’ through a friend who posted about it on social media. Intrigued, I wanted to know more. On the event I found on Facebook, it immediately drew me in. The idea was to go to slaughterhouses, hopefully stop the vans for a few minutes, provide comfort to the pigs either by giving water or/and a little love, but also to document what the reality really looks like by capturing them on film and photos which can then be shared widely to try to spread awareness. I’ve been to protests many times but not any as direct as this one. Part of what made me want to take part was they described it as a ‘love based’ approach. So, instead of getting angry (although of course we are), instead just focusing on the pigs. Comfort and awareness are the main aims as I understand it.

I knew it would be quite upsetting to see, but I just knew that I had to do this. The movement originally started in Toronto in 2010. Anita Krajnc, the woman who started it was actually charged for ‘criminal mischief’ for giving water to pigs suffering during a summer heatwave and so the slogan ‘compassion is not a crime’ was created.

The movement started to grow and the first UK based Pig Save was in Manchester. Inspired by this, Essex Pig Save was born.

I didn’t make it to the first event but I was determined I would make it to the 2nd event despite it being a little further afield from me. I liked that on the event they encouraged people that would struggle to get there to post so that lifts could be organised. I posted to say I would need some help getting there and it didn’t take long for a kind soul to offer myself and a few others in a similar area a lift as long as we could get to Rayleigh train station.

On the day I had to get up very early as I needed to be at the station by 7.15am as the vigil started at 8am. (on a Monday morning). I got in the car with 3 other vegan ladies and we made our way to Cheale meats. It didn’t take long to spot the slaughterhouse, as just looking it as we went past it, it looked somewhat creepy and there was a horrible energy about it, and that was before we knew for sure! When we got there we weren’t sure where to park so we tried to park somewhere and a man came out shouting at us until we were told where we could go, just a little more up the road. As where it was, was pretty much near a main road. I had felt okay about it all, but as soon as I had got to Rayleigh I had begun feeling a bit queasy and when we got out of the car I felt really sick and nervous.

It eased my mind a bit when I saw there was quite a few of us (about 20 I think) and a few familiar faces. We stood with placards with an image of a dog and a pig saying ‘why eat one but love the other’. There were two police and the owner just outside of the slaughterhouse. As the events are public on Facebook, they know when we will come. At the first event there were a lot more police but since they saw the group was quite peaceful they obviously realised they didn’t need so many.

demo

Then it was just a case of waiting for the trucks to arrive. I can’t remember how long it took for the first one to arrive, maybe about an hour. Annoyingly the slats were up so we couldn’t see the pigs. Clearly they had been instructed to do this. There was another one I think after that, again with the slats up. It was pretty frustrating. Then a much smaller van with only a few young pigs rolled in which we could have got to easily. We tried to get it to stop but there was no chance. We had a sign saying ‘Please stop for two minutes. we just want to see the pigs’ which someone would hold so the driver could see and some of us would go round the front to try and get the vans to stop.

With the next one, again the slats were up but a few of us were tall enough to get footage from the upper slat just about this time. I couldn’t see anything and did attempt to film but didn’t get any decent footage. We had been hearing pigs screaming now and again in the distance from the slaughterhouse but with this van just before it went in, we heard a blood curling scream come from the van. It sounded like pure pain. It was horrible. One of my friends I came with started to cry so I gave her a little comfort.

The very last one I saw before we went, finally didn’t have the slats up so I could finally see although I still didn’t manage to catch footage but others did. We only managed to stop it for about 10 seconds as people were stood in front of the truck. It was so brief, but it was just long enough to feel and see the pain. In the moment it all happens so quick so all I could do was shout ‘I’m sorry’ to the pigs as they were driven in to the slaughterhouse.

Our group then had to leave so I didn’t see if there were any more. I didn’t manage to get any footage but lots of others did which show one van where the pigs had so little space they were standing on top of each other and they were dirty, and covered in cuts.

I can’t figure out how to post the videos here but you can see them and the photos on the Facebook Page- https://www.facebook.com/EssexPigSave/

I wrote a poem about my experience:

‘Moment’
Today I heard you scream
I saw the pain in your eyes
I smelt the fear
I tasted blood in the air
I felt your soul
if just for a moment…
it was heartbreaking
but I needed to see
I need to know
I wanted you to see a loving face
if just for a moment…
with no time to think it through
all I could say was “I’m sorry”
I couldn’t stop your fate
but I wanted you to know someone cares
if just for a moment..
maybe one day things will change
but for now all I can give you
is a moment….

 

I’ll be attending again as soon as I can. I don’t know who wouldn’t be affected even just hearing the screams. Please consider cutting meat from your diets. Ideally I’d love you all to go vegan but I know that won’t happen over night so at least take positive steps towards it, make yourself at least aware of what happens to begin with. Think about where your food comes from and how it’s been treated.

 

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Feeling so Bohemian Like You..June 2016

Time for my regular monthly update!

FOCUS AND INTENTIONS UPDATE

KNOWLEDGE (focus on nature)- 30 Days Wild! Look at my previous posts to see what I got up to with this.

HEALTH- been walking every day.

MAGIC- still havenโ€™t done much focus on this

SELF CARE-nothing in addition to what I’ve been doing so far.

To heighten my spiritual work-I saw 2 clients in June and booked one for this month.

To get to Peru- still a long way off (for now)

To honour the seasons and moon-did things on new moon and full moon, but didn’t do anything for Summer Solstice other than change my altar.

To cook more- still nope

go to Yoga classes-went to two during June.

walk more often- been walking every day at least half hour

not to be affected by other peopleโ€™s stories- not been too bad with this

have no expectations-getting better.

manifestation skills- still lots of meditation, affirmations, prayer etc. Maybe it’s working as I’m changing jobs soon. Staying with Holland and Barrett but moving to the Rayleigh store to be the supervisor ๐Ÿ™‚ Migs is getting more work in too.

WHAT I GOT UP TO

A friend of mine is doing a Holistic massage course and I got to be a case study for a full body massage!

I went to a ‘Southend Vegans’ meet up which was a picnic at Chalkwell park. Weather turned out lovely and tasty food!

went to the Southend ‘Essex feminist Collective’ meeting which was about the EU. I wasn’t sure about which way I wanted to vote so this really helped.

Helped a friend out with some cleaning of her flat, and got paid for it too! ๐Ÿ™‚

I went to the Southend Animal Aid meeting for first time in years!

Went to see my mum

Visited my grandad

went out for an early birthday lunch with Miguel as he was working away on the actual day. We went to the Railway and I had gnocchi which was delicious!

For my actual birthday I went with some friends to help out Tower Hill animal sanctuary. We painted a fence for them and got to see some of the animals too! I really connected with the horses there. It was a really nice day.

I went to Essex Pig Save. I’ll be writing a separate blog on this.

It was my women’s circle last night, I had 3 attendees and it was on Unicorn Magic. It was lovely ๐Ÿ™‚

so starting to be more busy now, now that summer is here!

So July…having a belated birthday get together tonight, got a sealife centre protest planned to go to, my circle and possibly a few other things.

 

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