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April 17 Look Back

how my goals and intentions went in April:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine- not too much change on this, still doing the same things balance/divine feminine wise, and haven’t done much to make myself happy really

still haven’t cooked more!

to have new experiences and visit new places- well I experienced an energetic ‘funeral’ and visited a park in Hackney Wick I hadn’t seen before.

step fully into my role as a healer- I did two womb healings and one womb blessing

activism- still not possible unfortunately

be better at birthdays- no major birthdays this month

finish my lists- ticked a few more small things off!

give up the pill- I’d done this last month but a brief update- now been just over a month and I had my first natural period after 29 days! so only a day later than normal, and then it was only 3 days instead of 5! It was also less painful, interestingly. I had a few up/down days but not many really, so the transition has been surprisingly easy 🙂

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- yes still doing my best to do this but it’s changing a little because I no longer take hormones, so I’m kind of relearning.

 

What I got up to in April:

I hosted my final Southend based women’s circle, and had 5 women show up! (isn’t that just typical lol) it was actually really beautiful and emotional, as we all expressed gratitude for what the group had given us. and it felt the right and honourable way to close the circle, so I was really happy with that.

Obviously still been going to the shamanic circle and we are in the West direction at the moment which is all about facing fears, and it’s been very interesting so far, and not at all what I expected in how it’s decided to play out in my life! At one of the sessions I took part in an energetic ‘funeral’ which was surreal, and made me realise how I will have no control in reality of what happens or what people feel at my funeral.

I also socialized with one of the other women from the group last week before the session, and we had a cup of tea and she showed me a big local park near by and we had a good chat so that was really nice.

I also made the decision to go on the ‘big’ wheel. that is, the ‘full’ proper version that Miguel has done, so I’ll be starting that in September, which will be  big thing, as I’ve been getting a lot of stuff come up from the ‘mini’ version so it could be very emotional and hard! but I’m sure it will be worth it. I think I will need it to help me clear things, before I can take what I think will be my next step on my path, to become a priestess.

that’s it for this month, in May I start the Red tent!

 

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March 17 Look Back

How can it be that we are already entering month four of the year??

here is what my March was like.

First how I’m doing with my goals and intentions for the year:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine- balance was a bit better (most of the time) as I tried to live to my cycle but was not always possible due to other factors. Happiness, I did more that made me happy like going on a retreat and going to the cinema for the first time for years, but my moods have been all over the place to be honest. Divine feminine- have been carrying on with doing the womb healing on myself everyday, I went on a women’s retreat and I had a few clients for womb work.

To cook more- nope.

to have new experiences and visit new places- only experiences of a spiritual kind, like going on a rebirth journey at the retreat.

to do more of what makes me happy (see above)

to step fully into my role as a healer- I did one womb healing and two womb blessings. I have two blessings and a healing booked so far for April too! (I seem to be getting two womb blessings to do every month at the moment)

to do more activism- still no as actions seem to be when I’m working mostly 😦

be better at birthdays- there was no major birthdays but I took my mum to the cinema for Mother’s Day 🙂

finish my lists- ticked off a few more things 😉

give up the pill- I’ve done it! I’m now 9 days pill free. Still early days as obviously I would have had 7 days off anyway, my withdrawal bleed lasted about the same time it usually would but now I won’t when my first ‘proper’ bleed will come. So far I have had a lot of bloatedness and felt emotional today. I’ve been taking Maca powder to try and help balance my hormones.

make more time for creativity- I did write a few meditations this month

live to my cycle and educate others- yes still trying my best but hasn’t always been possible. For instant last week I was in my crone (bleeding) but I had to run the shop all week as my manager was away, so I couldn’t rest as much as I really needed 😦 damn life stuff getting in the way! now as I’ve come off the pill I’m going to have to relearn my cycles as I readjust to life without hormones.

What I got up to in March:

I booked time off the first weekend in case I could afford to go a women’s retreat a fellow moon mother was hosting in London alongside a female shamanic practitioner, and as fate would have, it was made possible for me to go! It turned out to be an amazing weekend, much more powerful than I had anticipated.

On the first day we worked with Maya the shamanic lady who led us through a rebirth journey, helped us to cleanse away old outworn feelings, and we spoke about our first menstruation and honoured each other. We made crowns and declared our ‘queendom’. On the Sunday, Mel, the moon mother led us through a day of working with the archetypes including a sound bath journey through each of the seasons which was amazing. The weekend was amazing, powerful and I made new friends and gained so much insight. So glad I went, I really needed it!

I’ve still been attending the shamanic circle and it has been great, really powerful work and making new connections too.

I took my mum to see the new Beauty and the Beast film which was brilliant, i cried several times!

Now to see what April will bring..

 

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Feb 17 look back

How the 2nd month of the year went for me..

first my goals and intentions:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine: now I’ve been tracking my cycle for a few months I’m getting to know well what’s better for me in each week, and mostly I’ve been good at giving myself the space to live to this cyclic nature. Divine Feminine- I carried on with my daily energy exercise and self womb healing. I did two womb blessings and one womb healing. My circle in feb was about working with the archetypes. I also took part in the Worldwide Womb Blessing (and Miguel did The Gift)

To cook more- not done this yet

to have new experiences and visit new places- can’t think of anything specific

to do more of what makes me happy- well not that much really but been doing a lot more healing work

to step fully into my role as a healer- yes! did two womb blessings and a healing (only one on a gift or donation basis), I’ve booked another womb blessing and have replied to two other women that have contacted me about it

to do more activism- nothing yet

be better at birthdays- nothing special but I did message anyone I cared about who had a birthday in Feb!

finish my lists- haven’t had money to tick off much but ticked off a couple lol

give up the pill-1 month to go, but have been doing a lot of reading to prepare myself

make more time for creativity- yes! I made both my vision board and action board at last!

live to my cycle and educate others-ran a circle about it! as well as continuing my personal tracking and been mostly better at living to this

What I got up to:

another small group for my women’s circle but it was a good one I think learning about the archetypes of the women’s cycle

been going to the shamanic circle still and I’ve been starting to connect a bit more with the other people going, the last sessions have been about shamanic tools and plant medicine

I helped out at a Shamanic Healing Day with some of the money we made going to the Q’ero community in Peru to help towards building a community centre. We managed to raise £80

Our friend Rae visited after over a year, it was good to see them again!

We went to our friend maria’s for lunch, it was so good, and she is a lovely friend 🙂

 

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My Moon Mother/Womb Blessing Journey so far

You may remember I mentioned in a previous blog that I wanted to write a full blog about what has happened with me since becoming a Moon Mother in November, well I’ve had more and more to write as time has gone on, and now feels the time to start writing this out!

Firstly for those who may not know I will describe what a Moon Mother is. A Moon Mother is a woman initiated by Miranda Gray to be able to give personal womb blessings and womb healings. Miranda is a healer and a writer who has wrote lots of books about the female cycle and how to work with it. Eventually she channelled the gift of the Worldwide Womb Blessing, which is a free long distance version which works with the group of women as a whole, whereas the personal one works with that specific woman. The Worldwide Womb Blessings take place five times a year on a full moon with thousands of women around the world. Take a look and consider registering for the next one in May. Click here!

So what is the Womb Blessing and what is Womb Healing?

The womb blessing is a divine feminine attunement which deepens your connection to the Goddess and her healing energy. If you have a personal womb blessing, afterwards you enter a 28 day ‘rebirth’ cycle (and so does the Moon Mother giving the blessing) which helps you to release old patterns and thought patterns that no longer serve you and helps you to discover your true authentic self. The rebirth can be very subtle or it can be very strong and bring up emotions and old memories that need to be released. This is a transformative process.

Womb healing is done in person and is a nurturing process. A womb healing brings balance and healing energy to the three female energy centres of the body, and also to the four female archetypes of the cycle. As a result your cycle may find more balance and you may also find more balance in your everyday life.

Both of these can be given to all women from first menstruation, and it doesn’t matter if they have a womb or a cycle. Women in menopause and beyond, and women who don’t have a womb for medical reasons, and women who don’t have a cycle due to medical or contraceptive reasons, all can receive these healings.

If you are in the UK area and this resonates with you, then please visit our website for more information and to book http://thehealingpathways.co.uk/

Anyway enough plugging now, I want to tell you my personal journey since becoming a Moon Mother. During the weekend of becoming one, I went through many emotions as the very first womb blessing I had from one of the other trainee Moon Mothers affected me almost immediately. I must have had all the emotions there is over that weekend! We were advised not to give any womb blessings for 28 days so that we could integrate the work and our own womb blessing. During that first rebirth and integration, mostly I felt okay  but I did feel more tired and towards the end I did have some feelings come up regarding my relationship which I worked with and got through. I marked the finish by walking the labyrinth in Saffron Walden which was a beautiful way to finish and properly start my path as a Moon Mother.

In December I started to give womb healings on a gift or donation basis as a practice before fully charging. I think I did four during December and I was astounded by the results that people were reporting! One lady with suspected endometriosis had more pain the day after, but was pain free for a while afterwards. Another woman who is almost in menopause, had a period the following day after several months without. and another who had very irregular cycles  and had even had surgery to help this, noticed a big improvement after receiving the womb healing. I was, and am still pretty dumbfounded! The power of the divine feminine through this work has been amazing and what an honour to be doing this. I also noticed that by giving the healing, it also benefited me, if I was on my period, it would also help my pain! Moon Mothers can also do this healing to themselves so I have given this to myself almost every day since the training. I gave another two womb healings in January (including my first fully paid one)! and have done one this month.

Also during December I hosted my first Worldwide Womb Blessing group with a small amount of women from my women’s circle. It went really well and it was the first time I had taken part and been able to send the energy as well as receive, and that felt so powerful! I’m looking forward to hosting bigger groups later in the year.

Last month I started doing the personal womb blessings on a gift or donation basis, again to get the practice before charging properly. I did two that were one day after the other, so the cycles for those two women have now come to a close. Both experienced a lot of tiredness, and one had a lot come up emotionally also. Despite being in two rebirth cycles, again, I was mostly okay but excess tiredness and some small things came up to be dealt with. I’ve done another two this month (one fully paid)! but they have only just begun, so it’s a bit early yet to know how it’s affected them, but the common theme for me is tiredness, and I have definitely had some small things coming up again so far. I also took part in the Worldwide Womb blessing for this month but not in a group this time, but Miguel joined me and took part in ‘The Gift’ which is a gift of divine feminine energy but for men.

Now I’m sure this all sounds a lot already, but actually there is more! I found out about Moon Mothers through taking part in Worldwide Womb blessings for about a year before, but I had never read any of Miranda Gray’s books. While I was at the workshop, there were of course some of her books for sale. On the first day, I bought ‘Red Moon’ , mainly because there was a third day of the workshop for a separate fee which I wasn’t attending but was based on this book, and Miranda had mentioned briefly about the archetypes that are used in the womb healing but said she would go into detail of those on that day, so I thought I would get the book, so that I could get this knowledge even if it wasn’t in the workshop format. I actually started reading it on the way home and it’s been life changing since! On the following day I decided I would buy another book, it was a heard choice as they all looked so good but I decided to get her newest book ‘Female Energy Awakening’ which also has become part of my every day life!

Before I read these books I did track the day of my cycle and what moon phase we would be in at each day but nothing else. Since reading them I have become cycle obsessed! In Red Moon, Miranda talks about how to track your cycle, in full depth about each of the archetypes, what kind of activities might be appropriate for those stages, and includes lots of little meditations and exercises to do at different times of the month. Since reading red Moon, I have made 3 moon dials ( a record of my full cycle, noting what archetype I’m in and more)so have figured out where the archetypes appear in my cycle and what suits me best at each time. I’ve done this by everyday recording what moods I’ve been in, any ailments I’ve experienced, what activities I’ve done, what clothes I’ve worn, when I’ve made love etc, and it’s really fascinating to see how it tallies up each month! I highly recommend you read Red Moon to get the full low-down but in brief the four archetypes of the cycle are the Crone (around menstruation) where you need to rest but is highly spiritual, Maiden (after bleeding finished roughly) more energised and social-able, Mother- around ovulation, where you are more caring to others, Enchantress, not long before bleeding, more self focused and can be a bit more impatient but again very spiritual

I discovered through doing this that my archetypes were not very balanced, (2 of them were taking most of the cycle up) so I’ve decided to make it my mission to make them more balanced through the use of womb healing on my self daily, doing the right things for my cycle and working with the female energy awakening book. Female energy awakening goes into depth about the womb blessing but also includes a 28 day guide for working with your cycle which is mainly aimed for after receiving the womb blessing but I have been using it daily and have been repeating it every month. This seems to be working as I noticed a difference with my last moon dial- hooray! All you need to follow the guide is 14 black stones and 14 white stones and 2 bowls. Everyday you either put a white or black stone in a bowl depending where you are at in your cycle, and make a pledge to do something that is good for that part of your cycle that day, then there are also other little exercises to do, like meditations or wearing a bracelet that week in a certain colour. Even if you don’t have a cycle, you can work with this by following the moon phases (and the book guides you to which archetype to which phase). again, it’s been sooo interesting to see how it varies each month and what comes up.

After I did the Worldwide womb blessing in December something very strong came up for me. That I need to change my contraceptive method, as I’m now craving to have my natural cycle. At the time I had 3 months of pills left, I now have one month to go and once they are gone, I won’t be getting more. I’ve been on them since I was fourteen (I’m now 32) so I’ve been on them a very long time so haven’t had a natural cycle for very long at all, I’m not sure how it will go, but I’ve made preparations for when that time will come, and I’m looking forward to getting to know the ‘real’ me underneath the hormone control. I am however grateful for all the years I was on them as I was lucky never to have any issues and they certainly have helped me and I have no judgement on other women who want to use them, but I feel it’s time for me to move on and try something new. So will be very interesting to see what happens to my cycle afterwards!

So finally I’ve wrote this long over due blog and it’s taken me over a hour to write! I hope you find it interesting and I’m always willing to discuss this if you want to find out more, it’s one of my aims to be able to teach women about working with their cycle, so I’m learning all I can right now so in future this will be something I can offer properly.

Now to see what will happen next on my journey as a Moon Mother….

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