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May 17 Look Back

Half way through the year already…not quite sure how that’s happened, and I haven’t even done that much! (although Summer looks busy)

How I did with my goals and intentions through May

Happiness/Balance/Divine Feminine- mostly doing the same as previous months, although think I am finding a bit more balance.

still haven’t cooked more…

to have new experiences and visit new places- I did my first Red Tent in Hackney Wick so that was a new experience (more info later in post), and also did the first part of a ‘city vision quest’ which I was set as homework for the shamanic group.

step fully into my role as a healer- One person who had a womb healing and a blessing. I’ve started offering my 5 free Munay Ki Initiations, part of my promise of getting the rites, it’s only taken me 2 years to consider giving them!

Activism- well I did at least email The Animal Justice Project as I saw a post on Instagram that they were looking for bloggers, and after a few emails I’ve agreed to help write up news for them. So at least it’s a small bit of activism that I can do around work!

be better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- still very slowly ticking things off..

update on giving up the pill- it’s now been just over 2 months since I stopped the pill and I’ve had my second natural period. The first one was after 29 days (1 day longer than before) and the second came after 30 days, bang on the New Moon! Both times only lasted three days and were very light. There are still cramps but they seem less intense. The only difference I noticed this time was some harder emotional days beforehand, having a few days where I felt on the edge of crying all day but for no good reason. I am noticing my cycle is changing and the archetypes are moving and evolving to the difference.

make more time for creativity- not lots, but did watch a few creative videos, made a couple of small collages and two ‘found’ poems

to live to my cycle and educate others- very much so, you still can’t shut me up about this! I can’t remember if I said before but I now have a Divine Feminine altar I change every week to reflect the archetype I’m in, and I have set up a folder for my cycle tracking so that all my entries go together, so I’ll be able to look back all at ‘Day 1’ for example in one place and notice the similarities/differences straight away

What I got up to in May:

I had a few days holiday but I can’t remember what I did, mostly stuff at home I think, and visited my parents.

I had my first Red Tent in Hackney Wick and it was a hard start, as the overground wasn’t working that day, thanks to West Ham football being on, then only 2 women showed up so I couldn’t even pay half the room hire fee. But one of the women was someone I hadn’t seen for five years so that was nice, and we had a really lovely time I think. Next one is June 11th

I helped Miguel with a Munay Ki session by giving the 13th rite, the rite of the womb

I met up with my old Holland and Barrett manager Nathan for a coffee, he’s now a teacher and doing really well

Obviously I’ve been to shamanic group too, the last session we went to the woods and did journeying with the trees, and before that we learnt how to do extractions.

So not a very busy month but June and July look to be different.

June is looking like this so far: voting, next Red tent, a friends birthday party, shamanic group social, my birthday 🙂

 

 

 

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April 17 Look Back

how my goals and intentions went in April:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine- not too much change on this, still doing the same things balance/divine feminine wise, and haven’t done much to make myself happy really

still haven’t cooked more!

to have new experiences and visit new places- well I experienced an energetic ‘funeral’ and visited a park in Hackney Wick I hadn’t seen before.

step fully into my role as a healer- I did two womb healings and one womb blessing

activism- still not possible unfortunately

be better at birthdays- no major birthdays this month

finish my lists- ticked a few more small things off!

give up the pill- I’d done this last month but a brief update- now been just over a month and I had my first natural period after 29 days! so only a day later than normal, and then it was only 3 days instead of 5! It was also less painful, interestingly. I had a few up/down days but not many really, so the transition has been surprisingly easy 🙂

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- yes still doing my best to do this but it’s changing a little because I no longer take hormones, so I’m kind of relearning.

 

What I got up to in April:

I hosted my final Southend based women’s circle, and had 5 women show up! (isn’t that just typical lol) it was actually really beautiful and emotional, as we all expressed gratitude for what the group had given us. and it felt the right and honourable way to close the circle, so I was really happy with that.

Obviously still been going to the shamanic circle and we are in the West direction at the moment which is all about facing fears, and it’s been very interesting so far, and not at all what I expected in how it’s decided to play out in my life! At one of the sessions I took part in an energetic ‘funeral’ which was surreal, and made me realise how I will have no control in reality of what happens or what people feel at my funeral.

I also socialized with one of the other women from the group last week before the session, and we had a cup of tea and she showed me a big local park near by and we had a good chat so that was really nice.

I also made the decision to go on the ‘big’ wheel. that is, the ‘full’ proper version that Miguel has done, so I’ll be starting that in September, which will be  big thing, as I’ve been getting a lot of stuff come up from the ‘mini’ version so it could be very emotional and hard! but I’m sure it will be worth it. I think I will need it to help me clear things, before I can take what I think will be my next step on my path, to become a priestess.

that’s it for this month, in May I start the Red tent!

 

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Late again! (sorry)! January 2017 look back

Sorry it’s so late but here is my January blog (and I still have a backlog of other blogs to write)…

So first how I’m doing so far with my goals and intentions for this year..

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine: I’ve been working a lot with balance and divine feminine. I’ve been tracking my cycle and learning what is better for me in each week of my cycle, it’s been a bit out of balance but through regular self womb healing, listening to my body and working with on rotation a 28 day routine that’s in Miranda Gray’s book ‘Female Energy Awakening’ I’ve been slowly bringing back balance again. Also on the divine feminine part, I did two womb blessings for others in January and my circle was about working with your cycle and the archetypes.I also did two womb healings and gave the 13th rite. As for happiness, so far the year has been a bit slow and ‘meh’ but I’m sure things will pick up again soon.

To cook more- not done this yet

to have new experiences and visit new places- nothing as yet

to do more of what makes me happy- not really yet

to step fully into my role as a healer- did two womb blessings, booked two others. all gift or donation but at least it’s a start! I also did two womb healings

to do more activism- nothing yet

be better at birthdays- well it was Miguel’s birthday and I organised him a surprise shamanic fire ceremony with a few select friends, so I think that was good!

finish my lists- haven’t had money to tick off much but ticked off a couple lol

give up the pill- not yet, 2 months to go…

make more time for creativity- not yet

live to my cycle and educate others- yes as I mentioned earlier. I’m a bit obsessed with this stuff at the moment!

What I got up to

Beginning of the year was really hard, as grief was still hitting us quite hard with the loss of our cat Roxie, and that unfortunately went into anger, and extreme arguing..but eventually it died down and some normality started to come back.

I had my first women’s circle of the year which was our planning meeting, but only a small group.

I started attending the shamanic course that Miguel runs with his friend Gareth. I’m helping out with money etc, but also actually taking part. It’s every two weeks on a Tuesday evening. So far there was the introduction to the course, and last time everyone got to receive a shamanic healing, and witness what that looks like. I didn’t need that much healing apparently so that was nice! and I was told that my womb was glowing and clearly on a mission…lol.

celebrated Miguel’s birthday with a surprise fire ceremony…a very nice day

did the final part of my “redoing” of the munay ki, and as part of that I did the 13th rite- the rite of the womb for the women alongside two other women taking part. It went very well!

that’s it for now x

 

 

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A look back on 2016 and a look forward to 2017

In 2015 I was a bit early in posting this post, and now I’m late posting 2016. The truth is I have lots of blogs I need to write at the moment, but this is the first chance I’ve had and felt okay to do it. The last week of 2016 and the first week of 2017 have not been good to me. The light is starting to slowly coming back but the last two weeks have been really hard, and for the first time in a long time I’ve not been okay. We had to have one of our cats put to sleep so it started with grief which then morphed into a deep depression and even anger. I felt really alone. However I am now ready to admit I was in a bad place and now is time I can pick myself up again, as the only one who can really do this is me. I have to accept things won’t always be good but they won’t always be bad either. Life is slowly on the up again and one thing I can do to help me is write! So I will slowly start to catch up on my blogs again, as I have lots to say.

let’s start with a look back on 2016..

Music

still not as prominent as it has been in the past, I don’t think I made it to any gigs this year apart from one local one- seeing my friend Ruth’s band T Bitch at their Halloween show at the Railway Hotel, which was really awesome! (it involved one member arriving in a coffin and me standing on a chair in order to see)!

I didn’t buy any new music in 2016 although I did listen to Spotify a lot and tried to diversify my listening a bit by keeping an eye on new releases and checking out their recommended playlists. I don’t think I can really pinpoint anything new in this area.

Books

I set my challenge on Good Reads to read 50 books again, but I still didn’t quite reach it, I think I read 45 or 46 so I have set it for 47 this time.

I think the best books I read were at the end of the year after my Moon Mother training. I read both Red Moon and Female Energy Awakening by Miranda Gray (who trained me). They are about women’s cycles and how to live in harmony with them. They are helping me to change my life! But I will talk more on this in another blog, but I highly recommend them to all women!

Films and TV

I didn’t see any films at the cinema this year. I’m sure I must have watched some good films but I can’t recall any!

TV Wise- Humans was still very good and Black Mirror. Also enjoyed more nature documentaries like Planet Earth.

Photos/Moments/Things I did in 2016

attempted to write a poem a day, which was half successful as a lot of days I didn’t feel inspired by the prompts in the book I was working with!

Passed my Advanced product advisor test for work

Went to see Vampires Rock!

Took part in the first round of the ‘associate of the year’ for work

went to my first Buddhist ceremony

did a meditation workshop at the EDEN conference

Poetry reading at an allotment day twice

Went to Holland

took part in ’30 Days Wild’ in June

helped out at Tower Hill Sanctuary on my birthday

attended 3 Pig Save Vigils

became the supervisor for the Rayleigh store

held my first fire ceremony

went to Whitstable beach in kent

went to a sheep sanctuary

Restarted the Munay ki

went to the Retreat animal sanctuary

became a Moon Mother

went to Portugal

walked the Saffron Walden labrinyth

held my first worldwide womb blessing group, started giving womb healings

did healing at a shamanic weekend

Miguel surprised me with a shamanic wedding blessing ceremony

took part in a free hugs weekend

 

the most popular blogs I wrote in 2016

  1. 2016 Focus and Intentions
  2. dancing barefoot may 16
  3. Essex Pig save
  4. belated post: april poems for #shewritespoetry2016
  5. 30 Days Wild Week 2 (and a bit)

how I did with my goals and intentions in 2016:

learn more about nature- nature was a big theme of 2016 so a big fat yes. 30 days wild in June really helped too!

heighten my spiritual related work- yes although not in the way I hoped, still didn’t have regular clients (mostly I had none) but I did healing work at a retreat weekend and also can now more healings as I became a Moon Mother so can now do Womb Healings and Blessings, in addition to crystal healing.

get to Peru- not yet!

honour seasons and moon more fully- not to the extent I would have liked.

cook more- nope!

go to yoga classes- yes! apart from when I had the change of jobs and couldn’t go, I have been to a lot of classes in 2016.

walk more often- beginning part of the year yes but once changed job location not so much as no longer walking distance!

better self care- I think overall I was better at resting when I needed to, and I also went to the dentist, the optician and had my well overdue smear test

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- better with no expectations but still can be very affected by other people’s stories.

harness manifestation- yes, I went from a part time to a full time job and managed to manifest a lot of the ideas I had for my women’s circle this year too.

my focus was: Knowledge, health, magic and self care. I think there was a lot of all those things!

Now finally to move forward to 2017. (a week into it, lol)

My Focus this year is: Balance, Happiness, Divine Feminine

My intentions for this year (including those I set back in October on the witches new year)

  1. To Cook more- carrying this one over as I would like to do more with this when I can
  2. to have new experiences and visit new places
  3. to do more of what makes me happy
  4. to step fully into my role as a healer – reworded as still important to me. I love doing the healing work but I need people to come to me to heal!
  5. To do more activism again -would be great to fit in where I can for causes I feel passionate about
  6. be better at birthdays- I’ve had this before too, last year partly because of lack of money part of the year I wasn’t very good at it. This year I’d like to be more organised and thoughtful
  7. finish my lists!- I am a list hoarder and that won’t ever change. However I have lists on my phone with stuff that’s been on there for ages (things to buy etc) so I want to start getting rid of those things!
  8. Give up the Pill- I’ve been on the pill for about 18 years, I’ll go into this on my blog about womb healing/cycles more but now is the time to come off and change contraception method.I’ve got 3 months left so I will use those first, and that gives me time to explore my options
  9. Live to my cycle and educate others- as I’ve already briefly mentioned (and will go deeper in another post) I’ve been learning more about women’s cycles and it is really helping me to understand myself and other women better. I want to be able to live with this cyclic nature in mind. I also want to help other women to understand the nature of their cycle
  10. make more time for creativity- whatever that is- writing, colouring, collaging…just time to create, even if just for myself.

 

 

 

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Purity and Grace- November 2016

Sorry for such a delay in posting this, I was on holiday last week and this is the first chance I’ve had to properly post!

My key words for the year: Knowledge, health, magic and self care.

In November, I finally completed my Moon Mother training, so I am now able to do womb healings and blessings (more info further in post) so this certainly counts towards ‘Magic!’ and ‘Knowledge’. I’ve been going to yoga regularly again too so ‘health’ also applies.

My goals/intentions

To cook more- still not really

To go to Yoga classes- I went to two classes, as on week I had to work earlier and the other Monday left I was away!

walk more often- did a fair bit while away!

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- not so good at first part but not too bad at not having expectations

manifestation skills- finally got to the Moon Mother workshop 🙂

new intentions set on Samhain

to step fully into my role as a healer- now have completed Moon Mother training, which I’m hoping will be a big thing for me

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to see some new things while in Portugal, did the Moon Mother training, went to a different animal sanctuary, went to the St Matthews meditation group for the first time.

to do more activism- took part in a volunteer day at an animal sanctuary

to do more of what makes me happy- went to a meditation group, did yoga classes, went to an animal sanctuary, Moon Mother training, went to Portugal, ran my circle

What I got up to

There is a monthly meditation group that takes place at a local church I’ve been meaning to go for ages and in November our friend Gareth was doing a crystal meditation with clear quartz, so I went along to that.

I went with my friend Rosie and her boyfriend, and another new activist friend I met on that day called Matthew to the Retreat Animal Rescue in Kent for a volunteer day. It was quite a cold, dirty and hard work day but also filled with beautiful animals, so it was very rewarding and special. Can’t wait to visit again one day!

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The Moon Mother training I did was a full weekend in London which I had booked in to do over a year ago and it finally arrived. The training is done by Miranda Gray, who does the Worldwide Womb Blessings. It was the first time she has taught in the UK for four years so it was very special to get to be there and become one of many Moon Mothers around the world. Moon Mothers can help to send the energy during the Worldwide Womb Blessings as well as conducting personal womb blessings and healings for others. I am the moment running through a few ‘practice’ sessions of the womb healing and then I will be offering to the public for a set price, and then I will be doing the same with the Womb Blessings. It was a very special and emotional weekend, and I really felt this is something I am meant to do. Have a look at the links I have provided (clickable on selected words in this paragraph) to find out more or you can contact me directly and I will tell you all you need to know. If anything, I would highly recommend taking part in the Worldwide Womb Blessing, it’s free and deepens your connection to the Divine Feminine.

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I went to the 2nd part of my ‘redoing’ of the Munay Ki initations, and I did feel the energy a lot more this time.

I ran my circle, which was a small one in November with only 2 women attending, and was on the theme of ‘Emotional Sensitivity and Empathy’ and went very well.

We went to Portugal on the 28th, so we were there the remaining days of November and the beginning of December. On the Monday we stayed with Miguel’s dad, so it was a fairly relaxed day as we had a very early start, and then from Tuesday onwards we went and stayed in an apartment we rented from Air BnB which was small but well equipped. On the Tuesday, Miguel met up with a baby sitter from his childhood and then we met his sister and got to see her new jewellery studio which was very nice and had a coffee. We were still quite tired so there wasn’t much time to do much else.

Wednesday we got up really early so went out and walked by the river and saw lots of stone statues which were pretty cool, it was raining but we visited the Tower of Belem, and briefly saw the outside of a chapel called the Monastery of Jeronimos but it wasn’t quite open when we got there and there was a lot of gypsies trying to sell umbrellas so we didn’t stay long! We then went to a famous cafe where they make the traditional portugese cake Pastel de Nata,(and have been for years and years) which obviously I couldn’t have but Miguel did. We then met Inge (Miguel’s sister) for lunch at an organic supermarket place with a restaurant attached. We went back to the apartment for a bit before going back out later and it was like the centre had come alive, it was busy, lots of street performers, and even though we don’t celebrate Xmas, we enjoyed the lights and even did some silly photos! Then we went to a restaurant called Jardim das cerejas which was an all vegan buffett, which was nice but could have been a little warmer.

Will tell you the last 2 days of Portugal in my next month round up! 😉

Poems in November

A Beautiful Candle Dances Eternally Faithful gathering Hope in Joy Kisses Like Mountains Never Opening Pages Quite Right Sunshine Time Universal Very Whimsical yet Zealous

A cauldron of possibility, fresh like the stars, cinnamon and spice, dreams of something nice, Lunar landscapes, hiding within diamond shaped rooms, welcome to what’s in my head, or at least that’s what she said…

When the rain clears, I will be able to see you again, for now I cannot face the pain, of what that might bring, the fears, the tears, of what might happen when you are near, I don’t want to be hurt, I need the sunshine to come, to know it’s okay, and it will happen one day..

 

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Diamonds and Guns..August 2016

Sorry for the delay in posting this. How can summer be coming to an end already??

How I’ve been doing with my goals and intentions during August..

KNOWLEDGE- I still regularly try to identify nature when I find something new but I haven’t had as much time as I would have liked.

HEALTH- a bit on the back burner really haven’t been able to do much of my usual exercise and lots of long hours means I get a bit lazy about what I eat too…

MAGIC- had a magical shamanic weekend in St Osyth 🙂

SELF CARE- this has also slipped because of work, really need to make more effort to make some relaxing time which doesn’t just involve sleeping!

To heighten my spiritual work- I had no clients this month 😦 however I was a healing assistant at the shamanic retreat I went to, so I did do some healing on people there.

To get to Peru- I think other smaller trips are being planned first!

To honour seasons and moon- did my usual new moon and full moon work, and as it happened my women’s circle fell on the festival of Lammas, and we did a fire ceremony.

To cook more- I did make some cakes for the first time in ages!

go to Yoga classes- went to one class but only because I was on holiday that week, still can’t go around my work hours at the moment 😦

walk more often- less than I used to but did go for a few on days off

Not to be affected by other people’s stories- mostly ok I think.

have no expectations- think I’ve been okay with this.

manifestation skills- manifested somewhere to host a fire ceremony and a dry evening for it!  also manifested some days of work hitting target etc

WHAT I GOT UP TO

I had a week off work so took the time to do a few things at home and relax a bit. I went to my yoga class, I had my women’s circle and I held a fire ceremony for the first time and it went really well! I went to see my parents and then to end the week it was my weekend in St Osyth for an amazing shamanic retreat. I worked as a healing assistant this time and I also had a lovely surprise from Miguel of a blessing of our handfasting as it was not long before our 7 year wedding anniversary.

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I went to see my grandad and his lovely dog Lulu one day.

It was a month of fire ceremonies as my friend Susan held a fire for a few friends although it wasn’t a really ceremony just a joyful get together and I also made a new friend on the night too who is interested in joining my women’s circle as well 🙂

It was our anniversary so on the Sunday before we went to The Railway Hotel for lunch and had a very tasty vegan ‘bacon’ polenta with avocado salad 🙂

We had a small circle social at another member’s house and it was a really nice evening.

I had to work one day at the Wickford store and it was horrible as it was sooo quiet as it’s a new store so people are still getting to know it’s there, and there was no other jobs to do either!

We had lunch again at the Railway a few days ago and this time I had a smoky tofu stir fry.

POEMS

hardly wrote any I don’t think, still not been very inspired by the daily prompts 😦

Amsterdam

A little house

Miguel and I were given

Seven years ago on our honeymoon

the hotel presented us with

endearing, they also gave us a clock

reminders of our stay

days of newly wedded bliss

adventures in amsterdam

married and in love.

Untitled and Unfinished

Long gone are my festival days

me and muddy fields have gone our separate ways

But the memories remain

of dancing in the rain

of not sleeping in our tiny tent

of all the pegs we bent

drinking premixed vodka and coke

meeting extremely random folk…

 

 

 

 

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Spirit Will Always Follow (Holland 2016)

Wherever you are
Spirit will always follow
What ever you do
Spirit will always follow
As you walk
Spirit will walk with you
If you run
Spirit will run alongside you
If you fall
Spirit will pick you up
If you cry
Spirit will wipe your tears
When you smile
Spirit will add that extra sparkle
when you laugh
Spirit will laugh with you
When you pray
whether it’s in a church or a forest
Spirit will listen
Spirit will guide
Spirit will show you the way
You just have to open your heart and allow her in
It’s not always easy
but it’s always possible
if you trust
it’ll all be all right in the end
a rainbow will appear
from the dark clouds
spirit will take care of you
if you also take care of yourself
Spirit will always follow
wherever you are
whatever you do
Spirit will always follow.

This poem is inspired by our recent trip to Holland. Let me explain why..

When you live a spiritual life, your eyes are always open to signs and divinity in everyday life. Before I went away I felt I couldn’t bring any of my spiritual items such as my spiritual journal, oracle cards etc, even though I usually do try to keep up my spiritual routine to some extent. This time I thought perhaps I felt like this because I needed to take a break. It became clear in less than 24 hours after landing that this wouldn’t be the case.

The first night we stayed with my in laws, near Assen, a more country side area of the country. They are highly spiritual people so there was always going to be some element of it while we stayed with them. There was a lot very deep talking and clearing, which was mostly connected with my husband. But also they gave us both some very beautiful gifts, which were spiritually minded items so we ended up having spiritual ‘stuff’ anyway! It was on this day that I suddenly made the connection that I had been getting a lot of signs about unicorns, which had been topped off when they gave me a book about unicorns. I had an unicorn healing attunement quite some time ago now, and although I worked with it a little after that, I didn’t continue to do any more. Before we went away there had been connections with unicorns coming up, and it just kept coming, and it still is! On the day I got the book I read a small bit of the book that talked about unicorn signs, and how it’s a sign for you to work with them, so I have been working quite intensely with them since we got back. We also had a beautiful moment there when we went for a walk to the nearby pond and were delighted with seeing a coot and her babies!  What a divine moment!

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On day two, it was mostly travelling to The Hague where we were staying for the rest of our break and relaxing. We saw another beautiful area- the Palace Gardens.

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Day 3 was the best day! Miguel showed me where he used to live and then we went to Zuiderpark which was absolutely huge and beautiful. But before we even saw much of it there is a city farm there which Miguel used to go to as a child and I fell in love. It wasn’t a regular farm, no meat or dairy produced, but a free educational farm where children can go to learn about nature, taking care of animals and having respect for living beings. You could buy a cup of food to feed the animals so we had lots of fun feeding them, especially the cheeky goats who would practically jump over the gate! We then went into the main enclosure, where I cuddled a beautiful gentle one eyed cow and stroked lots of lambs, sheep, pigs and of course goats! I honestly feel so happy being around animals I had trouble being pulled away and I had tears in my eyes feeling emotional!

Afterwards we had a look at some more of the park, and Miguel showed me a special tree where his granddad used to tell him gnomes lived.

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We went back to the area near the hotel to have lunch and next door to our hotel was the church where Miguel’s parents got married, so we decided to go inside. I wasn’t sure how I would feel, as a pagan, I can feel a bit uncomfortable but actually when we walked in, it was beautiful and there people inside praying and I only felt calm. We both sat down and made a prayer ourselves. Then we saw a section where you could light a candle offering in front of a choice of saints/important Christian figures. Even though we both didn’t know anything about him, we both felt compelled to make an offering to St.Anthony. Before we left we cleansed our hands with holy water. When we left we looked up St.Anthony who turns out to have a strong connection with Portugal (which is important to Miguel as he is half Portuguese) but also is connected with animals and the vulnerable, which I felt was relevant to me and connected a lot to the prayer I had made!

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We also went into a shop with all Navajo and Hopi tribe items and then in the afternoon decided to go to the coast. The weather had been a mix of rain and sun, it was fine when we left but sadly turned when we got there, it was so windy and wet we didn’t stay as long as we had hoped. I wanted to go near the water and the wind was so bad, it was like we were getting blown away! But I got near a puddle, put my hand in it and felt energy run all through me.

So on that day we were in touch with all the elements- Earth- the park and trees there, fire- candles in church, water- the sea, air- the massive wind at the coast and Spirit- praying in a church.

Sunday was our last day, we went to see some of Miguel’s friends in Haarlem, then had a stop in Amsterdam which was mostly disappointing as was so busy and not much to look at, but we visited the Kuan Yin shrine again, which was still wonderful. We both made prayers there as well, made offerings to Kuan Yin and read a long prayer they had printed to use as well.

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Although short, was my favourite trip to Holland yet. No plans to be spiritual particularly, but Spirit will always follow…

 

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Witchfest 2015

This year was my third time attending Witchfest, an annual event that takes place at Fairfield Halls in Croydon and is essentially a celebration of all things witchy! There are workshops, talks, lots of stalls and music in the evening. This is how my 3rd year of attendance went..

I like to get to Croydon as early as I can, as the main joy of the event for me is taking part in the workshops and I don’t want to miss anything! So I was on a train around 7.30am to aim to get to the venue for about 10. After getting slightly confused at London Bridge, and then forgetting what direction Fairfield Halls was in, it was almost 10.30 by the time I got there, but as always there was a queue to get in. Usually there is entertainment while you are queueing, this year they had drummers, but unfortunately I must have missed them as there wasn’t any while I was outside, trying to keep dry as it was a very rainy day. I wasn’t going to let the rain or being late get in my way though!

I was a bit too late to watch the opening ritual and I wasn’t interested in either of the 11am talks, so I took the opportunity to have a look around the stalls and have something to eat, as I had a lot packed in for the rest of the day. Somehow it didn’t feel there was as much choice with stalls this year even though they took the amount of space. (so I’m not sure why it felt like that). I did however buy a few crystals from the Geofossils stall which I love and usually buy something from every year. This year I got a garnet, tangerine quartz and yellow calcite.

The first workshop I took part in was a completely new experience for me- Laughter Yoga! (with a lady called Heike) I didn’t really know what to expect but I really wanted to give it a go. Well it was mad, and also hilarious! Activities included talking gibberish to each other and a lot of ‘pretending’ (riding a broom, housework and picking herbs for example) all the time laughing, and although maybe you were fake laughing to begin with, soon it all got so silly you found yourself REALLY laughing and soon EVERYONE was laughing. At times it really pushed me out of my comfort zone, but ultimately it left me with a smile on my face. If you’re looking for traditional yoga exercises, this was not it, but it did feel like good exercise too!

Then it was straight onto another workshop, ‘Faery Moon Magic’ with Flavia Kate Peters.

I had also been to her talk on ‘Faery Witchcraft’ last year which I really enjoyed and I always enjoy her work in FAE magazine. This talk focused a lot more on the Moon rather than the fae. Flavia spoke about how what starsign the moon is in at the time is also important to work with. At the time of the talk she told us the moon was just coming out of Capricorn and going into Sagittarius. She also spoke about items you can put on your altar. We also did a brief visualisation to bring more loving energy into our lives and there was a faery land journey at the end of the session too. There was a lot of info similar to the talk from last year, but also some new information and Flavia has such a lovely energy that you can’t help but be enchanted. I really wanted to speak to her, and I could have done as she had a stall, but I was too nervous! Maybe next year.

Then it was Bam! and onto the next workshop. Another practical one, I chose to try ‘Movement Meditation’ with Raegan Shanti.

To begin with, she gave us a brief rundown of herself (a dancer and an eclectic pagan like myself) and how she discovered movement meditation, and how to do it. The basic premise was this- she would lead us into a guided meditation but rather than sitting static (unless we wanted to), we would respond to her words with movement- however we felt. Then after a brief leading in, we were told to just move our bodies how we felt we needed to. Afterwards she took some questions from a few people and some people spoke about how they found the meditation. Everyone really got something out of it I felt. What was amazing too, that someone with limited mobility also gained out of it, as Raegan had said that if you can’t move, you can see yourself doing the movement you would want to do on the astral plane rather than physically doing it. This lady said that this felt really liberating for her, as doing it in this year made her feel she was actually doing it, and felt very freeing. I felt really peaceful afterwards and did really enjoy it, I think using it for magical work would be quite interesting.

I had planned to go to another talk after this, but I was feeling a bit tired so decided to take some more time out and look around some more. I wanted to bring Miguel a present home, so I got him some White Sage and a little bear made out of Sunstone.

Next up was what turned out to be my favourite workshop of the day, ‘Walking with the Ancestors’ with Barbara Meiklejohn-Free

I was gutted I didn’t go to her talk last year so I made a point of going this year and I wasn’t disappointed. It was another practical workshop, as although she spoke a bit about the ancestors and how important it is to honour them, she then led us into a ritual to honour them. As part of the ritual we received names of ancestors (although I didn’t pick up any myself) and the people who did had to stand up and say ‘I honour….” all at the same time with pride. There was definitely a shift in energy after that. Barbara is also a medium and she said how she could see all the ancestors with us from all sorts of traditions. Even though not intentionally, she started picking up a few messages, and one of them made a lady behind me cry. I was of course hoping I would get something too but I didn’t, but I did feel my nan was there. We did a journey where we saw flashes of all our ancestors past and future. We forgave all those that have ever hurt us in all our lives. I didn’t really know why but I did feel very emotional. We also asked one of our ancestors to be our ancestral guide. I know mine is there (it’s making me feel emotional again just thinking about it now). She cheered everyone up again afterwards by ending the session saying how we all should be who we are and shine bright. I left feeling emotional but also uplifted.

Next up is another person I had seen before (I’m not sure what pronoun she prefers so apologises if I am using the wrong one) Yvonne Aburrow

I saw her before at the Pagan Conference talking about gender and sexuality in witchcraft which was fascinating, so I was interested to hear about ‘Practical Inclusive Wicca’. I thought it was going to be just talking so I was pleasantly surprised when it turned out to be another practical workshop, she demonstrated techniques we could try to be more inclusive to ALL in rituals (all sexualities, all genders, all races etc etc) We did thinsg like sending energy around the circle and also a different way of calling in the divine- rather than the straightforward Cis Female and Cis Male. We tried it by dividing us up into those who love and hate marmite! We also did a chakra colour visualisation and called in the elements by visualising. (depending where you were in the room, then changing to the next element). A lot of it probably more relates to group rituals where being included may be an issue, but I did really like the techniques she spoke about and will be implementing some of them myself.

I had hoped to see one more talk, but sadly the one I went to I ended up leaving halfway through as it just wasn’t keeping my attention span at all. At this point I was exhausted and still had my 2 hour journey to do, so another year without catching any of the music! But really that isn’t what Witchfest is about for me.

Witchfest for me is all about new experiences, hearing new opinions, being in a community. I think this year was my favourite so far, the workshops were practical and I learned lots of new things. of course I’ll be back again next year!

 

 

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To The Earthkeepers

It’s time to make a stand

Time to protect our land

Defend our planet

pay off our environmental debt

Care for every living thing

or one day we will no longer hear the birds sing

Tread gently with care

before we rip her resources bare

Get up because you’ve been called

When you see abuse of her or her creatures, speak up and be bold

This is our fate

Stand up and be counted before it’s too late

There is no Plan B

If we destroy our home, there will be more than just a fee

Let us unite and work together

we won’t stop ever

to bring love, peace, harmony and beauty back

Trust, Hope and Kindness is what we’ll pack

We are the Earthkeepers

Look a little deeper

and you will see

It’s our destiny

Time to stand proud and be loud

This Earth is ours

let’s take care of her as she does of us

let’s take care of each other

after all, we are as one

then we might just change the world

One step at a time

we can bring the world back to it’s prime

Earthkeepers, stand up and take your place.

AHO!

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August Goddess Project- Week One- Sophia

Sometime ago I got given some Goddess cards. The cards themselves are very simple, they are only small, have no pictures, they simply have a name of a Goddess and then a little quote underneath to reflect on. I have to say as much as I tried, I couldn’t really connect with them. I use lots of cards, but I’m used to ones with images to interpret and understand. With these cards, I couldn’t do that.

A few months ago, I did one of my women’s circle’s meet ups on the theme of “Goddess Energy”. As part of this, we all picked a Goddess card. I said this Goddess would be able to help them in some way. They also had to go and research all they could about the Goddess they picked. I did the same with my card. I picked ‘Changing Woman’ and then went and learnt all I could about her. I found she deeply resonated with me.

Anyway, with this in mind, the last time I got the cards out to use for my daily card, (I pick a card everyday to guide me through the day) I thought this time I would do more than just simply pick the card. I researched everyday to find out where the Goddess was from and what she represented. I then prayed to that Goddess that day bearing this information in mind. Finally I felt a connection with the cards! Every Goddess was relevant to each day and I could feel her presence.

As a pagan of over 15 years, I thought I had a fairly good grasp on the different Goddesses. But as much as it shames me to admit it, I realised that although I work with Goddess energy, it has always been as all the aspects combined, not really looking more into her different names and guises. But now it’s time for me to learn a bit more about the individual aspects of the Great Goddess.

I have decided to do a special ‘Goddess’ project during August. I won’t be picking a card every day, but I will be picking one Goddess card out a week, and then on that week, I will be focusing on that particular Goddess. So I will find out all I can about her, where’s she from, what she represents. But I will also be praying to that Goddess, journeying to her, invoking, working with her in all the ways I can. And I will be writing all my experiences and sharing what I have learnt on here. I’ll write a main post on Saturdays which will tell you about the Goddess, then will add more blog posts during the week depending what comes up.

My Goddess I’ve picked for my first week, on the pagan festival of Lammas is ‘Sophia’

I found this interesting right away as my main spirit guide is called ‘Sophie’ and when I researched the name before I found out it means ‘Wisdom’

As such, Sophia is the Goddess of Wisdom. She is honoured in many religions aside from paganism. She is also honoured in some forms of Christianity, and is mentioned in the wisdom books of the bible.

Her symbol is the dove which represents Spirit, and she wears a crown of stars.

Her origins are impossible to trace, as she can be traced back to every era, culture, and society in some form.

sophia

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