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September look back

Happy October! (not sure where Summer went)!

Here’s my look back on my intents and goals for the year and how they went last month:

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- had some aspects of all three.

cook more-  no

to have new experiences and visit new places- gave part 2 of Munay Ki for the first time (wisdomkeeper, daykeeper and earthkeeper rites) and they were amazing! Went to Epping Forest

step fully into my role as a healer- see above, plus one womb healing and blessing, and I stepped onto the Shamanic Medicine Wheel!

activism- none

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- a little

update on giving up the pill- nothing new to say really, am waiting to see how long this cycle is…

make more time for creativity- wrote one or two poems, being drawing a menstrual mandala everyday, mandalas that represent how I feel each day of this cycle

to live to my cycle and educate others- still trying as much as possible.

What else I got up to:

had the last two lessons of the Foundation Shamanism course I’ve been doing the last 9 months. We made a despacho and had an amazing fire ceremony in Epping Forest for the last session. I am going to miss it a lot!

Last weekend I did the first of the Medicine Wheel training weekends, so I am now on the South, working with the energy of Serpent- about releasing the past and what no longer serves us. I am now a mesa carrier 🙂 and I got to walk the Saffron Walden labyrinth again!

This month as it stands: more munay ki, Goddess circle, Red Tent

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August 17 Look Back

a bit late this time (nearly 2 weeks later than I planned to write)! but I am here now!

Here is how I did with my focus and intents for the year during August

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- did a lot more ‘happy’ things this month, carried on with all the divine feminine work I’ve been doing and generally over the month things were fairly balanced.

cook more- I did cook chilli once or twice lol

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to the Victoria Albert Museum to see a Pink Floyd exhibition and also went to a vegan restaurant hadn’t been before ‘Temple of Seitan’

step fully into my role as a healer- started more people on the Munay Ki path

activism- again none sadly

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- few bits ticked off again

update on giving up the pill- now 5 months, and it hasn’t settled yet like I thought last month, I had a really long cycle this time of 41 days!! This made me really stressed that probably didn’t help. I’ve now switched to a Red Moon cycle (bleeding with/near the full moon)

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- did still try to live to cycle and I did the Red Tent this month and we talked about cycle tracking

What else happened and what I got up to:

Shamanic group of course! (which is now ending 😦 ) I think the sessions were crystal healing and the other one Sarah and I did a healing ceremony for the group and we worked with oracle cards.

I met up with my friend Sherry for the first time in ages and we had a few drinks in a local pub and had a really good catch up.

I went to a Goddess circle on the full moon with my friends Maria, Carina and Vicky, more friends I hadn’t seen for ages and it was a lovely night. There was a share, we did a ritual outside under the full moon, made clay goddesses and received drumming healing.

I started my shamanic group sisters Martina, Sarah and Tahlee on the Munay Ki path (it got better the more I did it)

It was Miguel and I’s anniversary, 8 years married and 15 years together ❤ so that was the day we went to the Pink floyd exhibition (which was very cool) and the vegan restaurant was more a fast food place really, but all seitan ‘fried chicken’ it was really good!

I did the Red Tent, sadly only one person came but we had a good time and she enjoyed what I taught her about.

 

September we’re already half way, but in a week I’m stepping onto the medicine wheel proper- eeeeeeppp!

 

 

 

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July 2017 look back

hello august…!

here’s how I did with goals and intentions during July..

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- with regards to happiness, I did more in July so that made me feel happier.

Divine feminine still a lot of the same work I’ve been doing (it’s just so much a part of me now it just comes naturally) and I also read an amazing book during July called ‘Love Your Lady Landscape’ by Lisa Lister, which has even given me even more beautiful and powerful work to do. I really recommend this book to ALL women, it’s very powerful work but also written in a very light hearted and down to earth way which is so reassuring and comfortable, making it easy to understand even if you have never done anything spiritual related before.

Balance- think I was generally a bit more balanced than during June, emotionally and also between doing nothing and doing things.

still not cooked more (not doing well on that one oops)

to have new experiences and visit new places- I went to Blackjacks which is kind of near to London one weekend for a retreat, I had never been there and it was a very beautiful place with a river, geese roaming around, beautiful trees, parakeets and dragonflies ❤ it was to take part in a ceremony called The Long dance. Half the night you dance anti clockwise to release negativity from yourself and the earth, and the other half you dance clockwise to bring positivity in to yourself and the earth. It’s incredibly powerful and started a deep healing process in me.  I also gave Munay Ki for the first time.

step fully into my role as a healer- no clients, but I did one womb healing at the Long Dance weekend, and 6 womb healings at another retreat I went to. also gave munay ki for first time so that comes under this as well.

activism- none unfortunately

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- a few odd bits done

update on giving up the pill- it’s now been 4 months, I felt maybe my cycle is starting to settle a bit as I was back to 28 days.  so far they have been 29, 30, 33 and 28 days. I’m also resonating more deeply with the archetypes now. I can only describe it as somehow feeling more ‘real’

make more time for creativity- we made a banner of painted prayers for the long dance but other than that I didn’t really

to live to my cycle and educate others- thinking I am doing more so. sadly I had to cancel the Red Tent as I wasn’t sure anyone was going to turn up and it was a bit much to go to London without knowing for sure. I did a lot of womb healings during the two retreats I went to.

what else happened and what I got up to:

in shamanic course we learnt an icaro (medicine song) and burnt away roles we have taken on, and a journey called the spirit boat journey which is quite an active meditation, as you are literally imagining you are on a boat and using paddles

went to the Long Dance (as well as doing one healing myself, I also had 4 on myself, it brought up a lot for me)

did my first part one of Munay Ki for one of my free gift ones which went well i think, but think I will get better

another weekend retreat in St Osyth, the magical garden, a very epic weekend of healing myself and others

So August….facebook and twitter break (other than red tent promotion and keeping up to date with shamanic group work), more munay ki, more shamanic group work, worldwide womb blessing, wedding anniversary, red tent…so let’s see how it goes!

 

 

 

 

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May 17 Look Back

Half way through the year already…not quite sure how that’s happened, and I haven’t even done that much! (although Summer looks busy)

How I did with my goals and intentions through May

Happiness/Balance/Divine Feminine- mostly doing the same as previous months, although think I am finding a bit more balance.

still haven’t cooked more…

to have new experiences and visit new places- I did my first Red Tent in Hackney Wick so that was a new experience (more info later in post), and also did the first part of a ‘city vision quest’ which I was set as homework for the shamanic group.

step fully into my role as a healer- One person who had a womb healing and a blessing. I’ve started offering my 5 free Munay Ki Initiations, part of my promise of getting the rites, it’s only taken me 2 years to consider giving them!

Activism- well I did at least email The Animal Justice Project as I saw a post on Instagram that they were looking for bloggers, and after a few emails I’ve agreed to help write up news for them. So at least it’s a small bit of activism that I can do around work!

be better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- still very slowly ticking things off..

update on giving up the pill- it’s now been just over 2 months since I stopped the pill and I’ve had my second natural period. The first one was after 29 days (1 day longer than before) and the second came after 30 days, bang on the New Moon! Both times only lasted three days and were very light. There are still cramps but they seem less intense. The only difference I noticed this time was some harder emotional days beforehand, having a few days where I felt on the edge of crying all day but for no good reason. I am noticing my cycle is changing and the archetypes are moving and evolving to the difference.

make more time for creativity- not lots, but did watch a few creative videos, made a couple of small collages and two ‘found’ poems

to live to my cycle and educate others- very much so, you still can’t shut me up about this! I can’t remember if I said before but I now have a Divine Feminine altar I change every week to reflect the archetype I’m in, and I have set up a folder for my cycle tracking so that all my entries go together, so I’ll be able to look back all at ‘Day 1’ for example in one place and notice the similarities/differences straight away

What I got up to in May:

I had a few days holiday but I can’t remember what I did, mostly stuff at home I think, and visited my parents.

I had my first Red Tent in Hackney Wick and it was a hard start, as the overground wasn’t working that day, thanks to West Ham football being on, then only 2 women showed up so I couldn’t even pay half the room hire fee. But one of the women was someone I hadn’t seen for five years so that was nice, and we had a really lovely time I think. Next one is June 11th

I helped Miguel with a Munay Ki session by giving the 13th rite, the rite of the womb

I met up with my old Holland and Barrett manager Nathan for a coffee, he’s now a teacher and doing really well

Obviously I’ve been to shamanic group too, the last session we went to the woods and did journeying with the trees, and before that we learnt how to do extractions.

So not a very busy month but June and July look to be different.

June is looking like this so far: voting, next Red tent, a friends birthday party, shamanic group social, my birthday 🙂

 

 

 

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April 17 Look Back

how my goals and intentions went in April:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine- not too much change on this, still doing the same things balance/divine feminine wise, and haven’t done much to make myself happy really

still haven’t cooked more!

to have new experiences and visit new places- well I experienced an energetic ‘funeral’ and visited a park in Hackney Wick I hadn’t seen before.

step fully into my role as a healer- I did two womb healings and one womb blessing

activism- still not possible unfortunately

be better at birthdays- no major birthdays this month

finish my lists- ticked a few more small things off!

give up the pill- I’d done this last month but a brief update- now been just over a month and I had my first natural period after 29 days! so only a day later than normal, and then it was only 3 days instead of 5! It was also less painful, interestingly. I had a few up/down days but not many really, so the transition has been surprisingly easy 🙂

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- yes still doing my best to do this but it’s changing a little because I no longer take hormones, so I’m kind of relearning.

 

What I got up to in April:

I hosted my final Southend based women’s circle, and had 5 women show up! (isn’t that just typical lol) it was actually really beautiful and emotional, as we all expressed gratitude for what the group had given us. and it felt the right and honourable way to close the circle, so I was really happy with that.

Obviously still been going to the shamanic circle and we are in the West direction at the moment which is all about facing fears, and it’s been very interesting so far, and not at all what I expected in how it’s decided to play out in my life! At one of the sessions I took part in an energetic ‘funeral’ which was surreal, and made me realise how I will have no control in reality of what happens or what people feel at my funeral.

I also socialized with one of the other women from the group last week before the session, and we had a cup of tea and she showed me a big local park near by and we had a good chat so that was really nice.

I also made the decision to go on the ‘big’ wheel. that is, the ‘full’ proper version that Miguel has done, so I’ll be starting that in September, which will be  big thing, as I’ve been getting a lot of stuff come up from the ‘mini’ version so it could be very emotional and hard! but I’m sure it will be worth it. I think I will need it to help me clear things, before I can take what I think will be my next step on my path, to become a priestess.

that’s it for this month, in May I start the Red tent!

 

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Feb 17 look back

How the 2nd month of the year went for me..

first my goals and intentions:

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine: now I’ve been tracking my cycle for a few months I’m getting to know well what’s better for me in each week, and mostly I’ve been good at giving myself the space to live to this cyclic nature. Divine Feminine- I carried on with my daily energy exercise and self womb healing. I did two womb blessings and one womb healing. My circle in feb was about working with the archetypes. I also took part in the Worldwide Womb Blessing (and Miguel did The Gift)

To cook more- not done this yet

to have new experiences and visit new places- can’t think of anything specific

to do more of what makes me happy- well not that much really but been doing a lot more healing work

to step fully into my role as a healer- yes! did two womb blessings and a healing (only one on a gift or donation basis), I’ve booked another womb blessing and have replied to two other women that have contacted me about it

to do more activism- nothing yet

be better at birthdays- nothing special but I did message anyone I cared about who had a birthday in Feb!

finish my lists- haven’t had money to tick off much but ticked off a couple lol

give up the pill-1 month to go, but have been doing a lot of reading to prepare myself

make more time for creativity- yes! I made both my vision board and action board at last!

live to my cycle and educate others-ran a circle about it! as well as continuing my personal tracking and been mostly better at living to this

What I got up to:

another small group for my women’s circle but it was a good one I think learning about the archetypes of the women’s cycle

been going to the shamanic circle still and I’ve been starting to connect a bit more with the other people going, the last sessions have been about shamanic tools and plant medicine

I helped out at a Shamanic Healing Day with some of the money we made going to the Q’ero community in Peru to help towards building a community centre. We managed to raise £80

Our friend Rae visited after over a year, it was good to see them again!

We went to our friend maria’s for lunch, it was so good, and she is a lovely friend 🙂

 

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My Moon Mother/Womb Blessing Journey so far

You may remember I mentioned in a previous blog that I wanted to write a full blog about what has happened with me since becoming a Moon Mother in November, well I’ve had more and more to write as time has gone on, and now feels the time to start writing this out!

Firstly for those who may not know I will describe what a Moon Mother is. A Moon Mother is a woman initiated by Miranda Gray to be able to give personal womb blessings and womb healings. Miranda is a healer and a writer who has wrote lots of books about the female cycle and how to work with it. Eventually she channelled the gift of the Worldwide Womb Blessing, which is a free long distance version which works with the group of women as a whole, whereas the personal one works with that specific woman. The Worldwide Womb Blessings take place five times a year on a full moon with thousands of women around the world. Take a look and consider registering for the next one in May. Click here!

So what is the Womb Blessing and what is Womb Healing?

The womb blessing is a divine feminine attunement which deepens your connection to the Goddess and her healing energy. If you have a personal womb blessing, afterwards you enter a 28 day ‘rebirth’ cycle (and so does the Moon Mother giving the blessing) which helps you to release old patterns and thought patterns that no longer serve you and helps you to discover your true authentic self. The rebirth can be very subtle or it can be very strong and bring up emotions and old memories that need to be released. This is a transformative process.

Womb healing is done in person and is a nurturing process. A womb healing brings balance and healing energy to the three female energy centres of the body, and also to the four female archetypes of the cycle. As a result your cycle may find more balance and you may also find more balance in your everyday life.

Both of these can be given to all women from first menstruation, and it doesn’t matter if they have a womb or a cycle. Women in menopause and beyond, and women who don’t have a womb for medical reasons, and women who don’t have a cycle due to medical or contraceptive reasons, all can receive these healings.

If you are in the UK area and this resonates with you, then please visit our website for more information and to book http://thehealingpathways.co.uk/

Anyway enough plugging now, I want to tell you my personal journey since becoming a Moon Mother. During the weekend of becoming one, I went through many emotions as the very first womb blessing I had from one of the other trainee Moon Mothers affected me almost immediately. I must have had all the emotions there is over that weekend! We were advised not to give any womb blessings for 28 days so that we could integrate the work and our own womb blessing. During that first rebirth and integration, mostly I felt okay  but I did feel more tired and towards the end I did have some feelings come up regarding my relationship which I worked with and got through. I marked the finish by walking the labyrinth in Saffron Walden which was a beautiful way to finish and properly start my path as a Moon Mother.

In December I started to give womb healings on a gift or donation basis as a practice before fully charging. I think I did four during December and I was astounded by the results that people were reporting! One lady with suspected endometriosis had more pain the day after, but was pain free for a while afterwards. Another woman who is almost in menopause, had a period the following day after several months without. and another who had very irregular cycles  and had even had surgery to help this, noticed a big improvement after receiving the womb healing. I was, and am still pretty dumbfounded! The power of the divine feminine through this work has been amazing and what an honour to be doing this. I also noticed that by giving the healing, it also benefited me, if I was on my period, it would also help my pain! Moon Mothers can also do this healing to themselves so I have given this to myself almost every day since the training. I gave another two womb healings in January (including my first fully paid one)! and have done one this month.

Also during December I hosted my first Worldwide Womb Blessing group with a small amount of women from my women’s circle. It went really well and it was the first time I had taken part and been able to send the energy as well as receive, and that felt so powerful! I’m looking forward to hosting bigger groups later in the year.

Last month I started doing the personal womb blessings on a gift or donation basis, again to get the practice before charging properly. I did two that were one day after the other, so the cycles for those two women have now come to a close. Both experienced a lot of tiredness, and one had a lot come up emotionally also. Despite being in two rebirth cycles, again, I was mostly okay but excess tiredness and some small things came up to be dealt with. I’ve done another two this month (one fully paid)! but they have only just begun, so it’s a bit early yet to know how it’s affected them, but the common theme for me is tiredness, and I have definitely had some small things coming up again so far. I also took part in the Worldwide Womb blessing for this month but not in a group this time, but Miguel joined me and took part in ‘The Gift’ which is a gift of divine feminine energy but for men.

Now I’m sure this all sounds a lot already, but actually there is more! I found out about Moon Mothers through taking part in Worldwide Womb blessings for about a year before, but I had never read any of Miranda Gray’s books. While I was at the workshop, there were of course some of her books for sale. On the first day, I bought ‘Red Moon’ , mainly because there was a third day of the workshop for a separate fee which I wasn’t attending but was based on this book, and Miranda had mentioned briefly about the archetypes that are used in the womb healing but said she would go into detail of those on that day, so I thought I would get the book, so that I could get this knowledge even if it wasn’t in the workshop format. I actually started reading it on the way home and it’s been life changing since! On the following day I decided I would buy another book, it was a heard choice as they all looked so good but I decided to get her newest book ‘Female Energy Awakening’ which also has become part of my every day life!

Before I read these books I did track the day of my cycle and what moon phase we would be in at each day but nothing else. Since reading them I have become cycle obsessed! In Red Moon, Miranda talks about how to track your cycle, in full depth about each of the archetypes, what kind of activities might be appropriate for those stages, and includes lots of little meditations and exercises to do at different times of the month. Since reading red Moon, I have made 3 moon dials ( a record of my full cycle, noting what archetype I’m in and more)so have figured out where the archetypes appear in my cycle and what suits me best at each time. I’ve done this by everyday recording what moods I’ve been in, any ailments I’ve experienced, what activities I’ve done, what clothes I’ve worn, when I’ve made love etc, and it’s really fascinating to see how it tallies up each month! I highly recommend you read Red Moon to get the full low-down but in brief the four archetypes of the cycle are the Crone (around menstruation) where you need to rest but is highly spiritual, Maiden (after bleeding finished roughly) more energised and social-able, Mother- around ovulation, where you are more caring to others, Enchantress, not long before bleeding, more self focused and can be a bit more impatient but again very spiritual

I discovered through doing this that my archetypes were not very balanced, (2 of them were taking most of the cycle up) so I’ve decided to make it my mission to make them more balanced through the use of womb healing on my self daily, doing the right things for my cycle and working with the female energy awakening book. Female energy awakening goes into depth about the womb blessing but also includes a 28 day guide for working with your cycle which is mainly aimed for after receiving the womb blessing but I have been using it daily and have been repeating it every month. This seems to be working as I noticed a difference with my last moon dial- hooray! All you need to follow the guide is 14 black stones and 14 white stones and 2 bowls. Everyday you either put a white or black stone in a bowl depending where you are at in your cycle, and make a pledge to do something that is good for that part of your cycle that day, then there are also other little exercises to do, like meditations or wearing a bracelet that week in a certain colour. Even if you don’t have a cycle, you can work with this by following the moon phases (and the book guides you to which archetype to which phase). again, it’s been sooo interesting to see how it varies each month and what comes up.

After I did the Worldwide womb blessing in December something very strong came up for me. That I need to change my contraceptive method, as I’m now craving to have my natural cycle. At the time I had 3 months of pills left, I now have one month to go and once they are gone, I won’t be getting more. I’ve been on them since I was fourteen (I’m now 32) so I’ve been on them a very long time so haven’t had a natural cycle for very long at all, I’m not sure how it will go, but I’ve made preparations for when that time will come, and I’m looking forward to getting to know the ‘real’ me underneath the hormone control. I am however grateful for all the years I was on them as I was lucky never to have any issues and they certainly have helped me and I have no judgement on other women who want to use them, but I feel it’s time for me to move on and try something new. So will be very interesting to see what happens to my cycle afterwards!

So finally I’ve wrote this long over due blog and it’s taken me over a hour to write! I hope you find it interesting and I’m always willing to discuss this if you want to find out more, it’s one of my aims to be able to teach women about working with their cycle, so I’m learning all I can right now so in future this will be something I can offer properly.

Now to see what will happen next on my journey as a Moon Mother….

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Belated post: December 2016

yes I’m a bit backwards in my catching up but here is my post about the last month of 2016. (see my previous post for my look back on the whole year and look forward to the new year)

first how I did with my focus and intentions that month

key words: knowledge, health, magic and self care- magic was there for part of the month as was self care but later these took a back seat unfortunately

goals/intentions

cook more- did do some baking which is more than I’ve done in previous months!

go to Yoga classes- went to 3 classes, couldn’t go on Boxing day as I had to work earlier

walk more often- some walks, a long one on the day of the labyrinth!

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- part of month yes, partly no

manifestation skills- nothing specific

step fully into role as a healer- started doing womb healings on gift or donation basis (did 4 I think) and also hosted my first worldwide womb blessing group

to have new experiences/visit new places- part of holiday in Portugal went to places we hadn’t been before, went to my first gong bath, walked a labyrinth, took part in a ‘Free Hugs’ event

more activism- none

more of what makes me happy- did healings, went to most yoga classes, went to spiritual events, some vegan meals out

What I got up to

The last few days of our holiday to Portugal- on the Thursday we went to a big family lunch that Miguel’s sister had organised and the final day was very busy! We went out for a coffee with Miguel’s dad in the morning, had lunch out at the health food store, went to visit the Lisbon cathedral and the chapel of St Anthony which was so beautiful. We went to the Carmo Ruins, a church which was destroyed in an earthquake but is still partly up and has a museum inside which had loads of amazing artefacts inside including lots from the Inca. Had ‘Ginga’ (cherry liqueur) and ended the day with going to the best vegan restaurant I’ve been to, it was called the vegan food project. The service was brilliant and food so divine!

I booked two weeks off work for a change, so the following week I was home. In that week I did my first womb healing on a gift or donation basis for someone else, went to a gong bath, went to my friend Sherry’s ‘Soup’ event and it was my work Xmas meal which was at Prezzos in Rayleigh and although some mistakes wasn’t too bad although I don’t think I would choose to go there myself.

Then on the final day of my holiday I went to Saffron Walden and walked the labyrinth there, which was a great experience!

I had three more womb healings the week after, and hosted my first Worldwide Womb Blessing group for a small group of women from my circle. I also went to a Free Hugs event that Sherry also organised. I nearly dropped out at the last minute but I went and did an hour in the end, and think I hugged about 6 or 7 people!

We celebrated winter solstice, and then well the last week was not good as our cat Roxie had to be put to sleep and things went a bit downhill for a while.

But now onwards and upwards!

Poems I wrote

darkness is light

light is darkness

night is second sight

sight is the secret of the night

hidden in the trees

and that tingle in your knees

it comes forth into being

time to believe what you’re seeing.

Poem 2 (quite similar to the first one really)

Welcome the light

at the end of the night

it becomes second sight

there’s no need to fight

try as you might

the dark will not bite

everything will be alright

even when it seems tight.

For Roxie

I don’t want to believe it’s real

but I know by the way I feel

we really did have to say goodbye to you today

your time was up, you were no longer okay

thirteen years ago you came into our lives

a surprise gift from a friend

a beautiful tabby cat with the tail of a squirrel

we named you Roxie

you became an integral part of our family

you were there through thick and thin

you gave unconditional love without question

when food was coming, you’d come running

you would sit on our laps when we felt sad

you never judged us when we got mad

we went through the transitions of our lives together

now we’ve had to be there for your biggest transistion

onto the rainbow bridge

onto the summerland

at least you’ll listen to one hell of a band!

everyday we will miss you

and always remember every blessing you gave us

Goodbye Roxie

you were so special and you always will be

and we know one day, one lifetime

we will see you again.

Poem 4

beneath the moon I saw a shadow

a shadow, but it did not frighten me

as this shadow I needed to see.

 

because the day was rushed

I couldn’t see the finer details

the small print, the minor colours.

 

In my pocket I keep what remains of my soul

although now there is a big hole.

 

Some days disappear like they were just a dream

when you know it was more than what it seemed.

 

I want to be more like the colour red

at least then I wouldn’t dread

what’s been has been

but what’s yet to come

remains to be seen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A look back on 2016 and a look forward to 2017

In 2015 I was a bit early in posting this post, and now I’m late posting 2016. The truth is I have lots of blogs I need to write at the moment, but this is the first chance I’ve had and felt okay to do it. The last week of 2016 and the first week of 2017 have not been good to me. The light is starting to slowly coming back but the last two weeks have been really hard, and for the first time in a long time I’ve not been okay. We had to have one of our cats put to sleep so it started with grief which then morphed into a deep depression and even anger. I felt really alone. However I am now ready to admit I was in a bad place and now is time I can pick myself up again, as the only one who can really do this is me. I have to accept things won’t always be good but they won’t always be bad either. Life is slowly on the up again and one thing I can do to help me is write! So I will slowly start to catch up on my blogs again, as I have lots to say.

let’s start with a look back on 2016..

Music

still not as prominent as it has been in the past, I don’t think I made it to any gigs this year apart from one local one- seeing my friend Ruth’s band T Bitch at their Halloween show at the Railway Hotel, which was really awesome! (it involved one member arriving in a coffin and me standing on a chair in order to see)!

I didn’t buy any new music in 2016 although I did listen to Spotify a lot and tried to diversify my listening a bit by keeping an eye on new releases and checking out their recommended playlists. I don’t think I can really pinpoint anything new in this area.

Books

I set my challenge on Good Reads to read 50 books again, but I still didn’t quite reach it, I think I read 45 or 46 so I have set it for 47 this time.

I think the best books I read were at the end of the year after my Moon Mother training. I read both Red Moon and Female Energy Awakening by Miranda Gray (who trained me). They are about women’s cycles and how to live in harmony with them. They are helping me to change my life! But I will talk more on this in another blog, but I highly recommend them to all women!

Films and TV

I didn’t see any films at the cinema this year. I’m sure I must have watched some good films but I can’t recall any!

TV Wise- Humans was still very good and Black Mirror. Also enjoyed more nature documentaries like Planet Earth.

Photos/Moments/Things I did in 2016

attempted to write a poem a day, which was half successful as a lot of days I didn’t feel inspired by the prompts in the book I was working with!

Passed my Advanced product advisor test for work

Went to see Vampires Rock!

Took part in the first round of the ‘associate of the year’ for work

went to my first Buddhist ceremony

did a meditation workshop at the EDEN conference

Poetry reading at an allotment day twice

Went to Holland

took part in ’30 Days Wild’ in June

helped out at Tower Hill Sanctuary on my birthday

attended 3 Pig Save Vigils

became the supervisor for the Rayleigh store

held my first fire ceremony

went to Whitstable beach in kent

went to a sheep sanctuary

Restarted the Munay ki

went to the Retreat animal sanctuary

became a Moon Mother

went to Portugal

walked the Saffron Walden labrinyth

held my first worldwide womb blessing group, started giving womb healings

did healing at a shamanic weekend

Miguel surprised me with a shamanic wedding blessing ceremony

took part in a free hugs weekend

 

the most popular blogs I wrote in 2016

  1. 2016 Focus and Intentions
  2. dancing barefoot may 16
  3. Essex Pig save
  4. belated post: april poems for #shewritespoetry2016
  5. 30 Days Wild Week 2 (and a bit)

how I did with my goals and intentions in 2016:

learn more about nature- nature was a big theme of 2016 so a big fat yes. 30 days wild in June really helped too!

heighten my spiritual related work- yes although not in the way I hoped, still didn’t have regular clients (mostly I had none) but I did healing work at a retreat weekend and also can now more healings as I became a Moon Mother so can now do Womb Healings and Blessings, in addition to crystal healing.

get to Peru- not yet!

honour seasons and moon more fully- not to the extent I would have liked.

cook more- nope!

go to yoga classes- yes! apart from when I had the change of jobs and couldn’t go, I have been to a lot of classes in 2016.

walk more often- beginning part of the year yes but once changed job location not so much as no longer walking distance!

better self care- I think overall I was better at resting when I needed to, and I also went to the dentist, the optician and had my well overdue smear test

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- better with no expectations but still can be very affected by other people’s stories.

harness manifestation- yes, I went from a part time to a full time job and managed to manifest a lot of the ideas I had for my women’s circle this year too.

my focus was: Knowledge, health, magic and self care. I think there was a lot of all those things!

Now finally to move forward to 2017. (a week into it, lol)

My Focus this year is: Balance, Happiness, Divine Feminine

My intentions for this year (including those I set back in October on the witches new year)

  1. To Cook more- carrying this one over as I would like to do more with this when I can
  2. to have new experiences and visit new places
  3. to do more of what makes me happy
  4. to step fully into my role as a healer – reworded as still important to me. I love doing the healing work but I need people to come to me to heal!
  5. To do more activism again -would be great to fit in where I can for causes I feel passionate about
  6. be better at birthdays- I’ve had this before too, last year partly because of lack of money part of the year I wasn’t very good at it. This year I’d like to be more organised and thoughtful
  7. finish my lists!- I am a list hoarder and that won’t ever change. However I have lists on my phone with stuff that’s been on there for ages (things to buy etc) so I want to start getting rid of those things!
  8. Give up the Pill- I’ve been on the pill for about 18 years, I’ll go into this on my blog about womb healing/cycles more but now is the time to come off and change contraception method.I’ve got 3 months left so I will use those first, and that gives me time to explore my options
  9. Live to my cycle and educate others- as I’ve already briefly mentioned (and will go deeper in another post) I’ve been learning more about women’s cycles and it is really helping me to understand myself and other women better. I want to be able to live with this cyclic nature in mind. I also want to help other women to understand the nature of their cycle
  10. make more time for creativity- whatever that is- writing, colouring, collaging…just time to create, even if just for myself.

 

 

 

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Purity and Grace- November 2016

Sorry for such a delay in posting this, I was on holiday last week and this is the first chance I’ve had to properly post!

My key words for the year: Knowledge, health, magic and self care.

In November, I finally completed my Moon Mother training, so I am now able to do womb healings and blessings (more info further in post) so this certainly counts towards ‘Magic!’ and ‘Knowledge’. I’ve been going to yoga regularly again too so ‘health’ also applies.

My goals/intentions

To cook more- still not really

To go to Yoga classes- I went to two classes, as on week I had to work earlier and the other Monday left I was away!

walk more often- did a fair bit while away!

not to be affected by other people’s stories/no expectations- not so good at first part but not too bad at not having expectations

manifestation skills- finally got to the Moon Mother workshop 🙂

new intentions set on Samhain

to step fully into my role as a healer- now have completed Moon Mother training, which I’m hoping will be a big thing for me

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to see some new things while in Portugal, did the Moon Mother training, went to a different animal sanctuary, went to the St Matthews meditation group for the first time.

to do more activism- took part in a volunteer day at an animal sanctuary

to do more of what makes me happy- went to a meditation group, did yoga classes, went to an animal sanctuary, Moon Mother training, went to Portugal, ran my circle

What I got up to

There is a monthly meditation group that takes place at a local church I’ve been meaning to go for ages and in November our friend Gareth was doing a crystal meditation with clear quartz, so I went along to that.

I went with my friend Rosie and her boyfriend, and another new activist friend I met on that day called Matthew to the Retreat Animal Rescue in Kent for a volunteer day. It was quite a cold, dirty and hard work day but also filled with beautiful animals, so it was very rewarding and special. Can’t wait to visit again one day!

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The Moon Mother training I did was a full weekend in London which I had booked in to do over a year ago and it finally arrived. The training is done by Miranda Gray, who does the Worldwide Womb Blessings. It was the first time she has taught in the UK for four years so it was very special to get to be there and become one of many Moon Mothers around the world. Moon Mothers can help to send the energy during the Worldwide Womb Blessings as well as conducting personal womb blessings and healings for others. I am the moment running through a few ‘practice’ sessions of the womb healing and then I will be offering to the public for a set price, and then I will be doing the same with the Womb Blessings. It was a very special and emotional weekend, and I really felt this is something I am meant to do. Have a look at the links I have provided (clickable on selected words in this paragraph) to find out more or you can contact me directly and I will tell you all you need to know. If anything, I would highly recommend taking part in the Worldwide Womb Blessing, it’s free and deepens your connection to the Divine Feminine.

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I went to the 2nd part of my ‘redoing’ of the Munay Ki initations, and I did feel the energy a lot more this time.

I ran my circle, which was a small one in November with only 2 women attending, and was on the theme of ‘Emotional Sensitivity and Empathy’ and went very well.

We went to Portugal on the 28th, so we were there the remaining days of November and the beginning of December. On the Monday we stayed with Miguel’s dad, so it was a fairly relaxed day as we had a very early start, and then from Tuesday onwards we went and stayed in an apartment we rented from Air BnB which was small but well equipped. On the Tuesday, Miguel met up with a baby sitter from his childhood and then we met his sister and got to see her new jewellery studio which was very nice and had a coffee. We were still quite tired so there wasn’t much time to do much else.

Wednesday we got up really early so went out and walked by the river and saw lots of stone statues which were pretty cool, it was raining but we visited the Tower of Belem, and briefly saw the outside of a chapel called the Monastery of Jeronimos but it wasn’t quite open when we got there and there was a lot of gypsies trying to sell umbrellas so we didn’t stay long! We then went to a famous cafe where they make the traditional portugese cake Pastel de Nata,(and have been for years and years) which obviously I couldn’t have but Miguel did. We then met Inge (Miguel’s sister) for lunch at an organic supermarket place with a restaurant attached. We went back to the apartment for a bit before going back out later and it was like the centre had come alive, it was busy, lots of street performers, and even though we don’t celebrate Xmas, we enjoyed the lights and even did some silly photos! Then we went to a restaurant called Jardim das cerejas which was an all vegan buffett, which was nice but could have been a little warmer.

Will tell you the last 2 days of Portugal in my next month round up! 😉

Poems in November

A Beautiful Candle Dances Eternally Faithful gathering Hope in Joy Kisses Like Mountains Never Opening Pages Quite Right Sunshine Time Universal Very Whimsical yet Zealous

A cauldron of possibility, fresh like the stars, cinnamon and spice, dreams of something nice, Lunar landscapes, hiding within diamond shaped rooms, welcome to what’s in my head, or at least that’s what she said…

When the rain clears, I will be able to see you again, for now I cannot face the pain, of what that might bring, the fears, the tears, of what might happen when you are near, I don’t want to be hurt, I need the sunshine to come, to know it’s okay, and it will happen one day..

 

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