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March 2018

Another Month gone, so how did I get on with my focus and intentions for the year during March?

Love/Energy/Prosperity- carried on with the energy things I started doing (vitamins, more water etc), prosperity I actually managed to raise enough to do my Advanced Moon Mother training this year through my crowdfunding page but also by my own saving, so not only have I paid a deposit, I’ve also booked a room!

healing work to the next level- see above! So in June I’m going to Glastonbury to do Level 2 of my Moon Mother training! I’m really excited, as not only am I doing the next part of my training, I’ve never been to Glastonbury and I’ve also wanted to go, (I’m going a day early and leaving a day late so hopefully I get a chance to see some of it)! and I’m also going away for the first time on my own so scary and exciting.

to be more empowered in more areas of my life- just goes back to the moon mother thing really for March as I did set an intent and managed to do it!

to be more visible- did a few social things

to create new beginnings- nothing specific yet

to let go and allow flow more- every week it’s getting easier..

what I actually got up to in March:

went to my monthly witchy circle, my favourite yet, as not only did we celebrate spring equinox, we took part in a ceremony called a blessingway for one of the sisters who is pregnant, so a blessing for her basically. We could all paint symbols on her belly, and each got a candle to light when she goes into labour, and a bracelet that we cut when the baby is born to represent the umbllicol cord being cut, and we all wrote positive messages for her, and some of her friends read poems, it was really beautiful and very special.

I held a small circle for women’s day (not on the exact day but that week) with just two women but it was really powerful with some very deep sharing 🙂

did a womb blessing for someone

went to Red Tent Rayleigh, had a great evening doing partner yoga and yoga nidra.

There was a special event at AHO studio where we do a lot of our London work, a well known shaman came to do a blessing on the studio and on London and it was all filmed, and we took part.  you can watch it here- https://www.facebook.com/daren.ellis.1969/videos/10156253147798767/?fref=mentions

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Hormone Helps and Handy Resources

About a year ago now as some of my regular readers will know, I gave up the contraceptive pill, because I wanted to live by my natural cycle rather than an artificial one and felt after over 10 years of being on it that it was time for me to come off! (This is a personal choice for all women, and whilst I would urge you to go other routes if possible, I am also aware for some women this may be helping them a great deal and I hold no judgement for this, every woman is different after all)! So in the last year it has been a great learning curve as I get to know my body and learn how it all works! So I wanted to share for those women who may be thinking of doing the same, or just want some advice for balancing hormones/working with cycles, things I’ve used that I’ve found helpful and books/websites that have been useful for me.

Food/Supplements

Maca Powder- maca is a Peruvian root that has many benefits including hormone balancing, but also helps energy, mood and is rich in antioxidants. I started using this as a lot of the hormone balancing supplements I found to be quite expensive (Evening Primrose Oil etc) and even though Maca can be as well, I found it in The Grapetree to be pretty reasonably priced. It also helped I like the taste of it! I know not everyone does but I love it. I’d say it tastes a bit like digestive biscuit! I mix two teapoons in with my oats in the morning, and occasionally  I put in with my hot cacao (chocolate digestive drink)! or make a Maca drink rather than a coffee. I’ve also used it in capsule form. I’ve personally found that my periods have been much more regular when I’ve been taking it then when I haven’t been taking it. I was very lucky that my first few natural periods were not a lot longer than my 28 day pill cycles. (I’ve had longer cycles too but I wasn’t taking as much Maca in those times). So not sure if a coincidence but it seems to work for me, and I like the taste so I don’t mind!!

Magnesium and B Vitamins- I recommend these to all as there are so many benefits to these two anyway, but they are particularly helpful in this area for stress you may get from PMS and a Magnesium salt bath is really relaxing!

Books

Love Your Lady Landscape by Lisa Lister– really down to earth book about getting to know your lady parts, building a loving relationship with it and working with your cycles.

Red Moon by Miranda Gray– the book that begun my journey! This is more a spiritual book about our connection to our cycles and the female archetypes.

Female Energy Awakening by Miranda Gray– a lot about womb blessings, but also has a really good 28 day activity process which is great for working with your cycle and honouring it how it should be.

Websites

Red School

Nicole Jardim

hope this helps!

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The Circle

Once upon a time there was a girl called Rosa. Rosa was very sad. Rosa was sad because she felt lonely. She felt like no one loved her because although she did have some friends she hardly saw them and this made her feel like she wasn’t very important to them or to anyone really.

Rosa knew a very wise man who lived in the jungle. She decided she would go visit him for help because she didn’t want to feel sad anymore. To get to the jungle, she needed to go further down the river, so she left her village and went to the river where she found her trusty canoe. She rode as fast as she could, because she couldn’t bear these feelings anymore.

Because the wise man was wise, he always knew exactly when Rosa would visit him, so when she arrived in the jungle, he was there waiting for her. “Hello Rosa” he said and offered his hands to help her out of the canoe.

“There is pain in your heart, what caused this?” he asked, looking concerned. Rosa began to cry. The wise man let her finish crying, because he knew crying was very important as it helped the emotion to be released. After a few minutes Rosa spoke of her pain of feeling alone and not important. The wise man put a blanket around her and led her into the jungle where he walked her to a clearing, where there was a big fire burning bright.

The wise man sat Rosa next to the fire. Pointing at the fire he said, ” This is Taita Wari, the Great Transformer, he will help you.” then he walked away leaving Rosa on her own in front of the fire. Rosa didn’t know what she was supposed to do but she trusted the wise man so she sat and just stared into the flames of the fire.

The longer she stared, the more hypnotised she felt. From out of nowhere, she found herself getting up and dancing around the fire. She kept dancing, and colours exploded around her, so she could no longer see the fire or even herself, just the bright colours of orange, red and yellow.

Then the colours changed and she was no longer dancing around a fire, but she was now dancing around a huge ancient oak tree, with dewy grass under her feet and she was no longer alone. Dancing with her, were animals of all shapes and sizes, dancing in a circle around the tree. Even though some of the animals were predators and some were prey, they were still dancing around the tree happily with no fear or threat of violence.

Soon the tree faded away again and Rosa was dancing around the fire once again, but now she was dancing around the fire with people from her life- some friends, some family members, some work colleagues, and some acquaintances.  She felt really happy as she continued to dance.

The dance began to slow and the people began to fade away, and in their place were large rocks. The dance stopped and Rosa felt a sense of peace, as she stood in this circle of stones.

The wise man came back smiling.  “Now you understand Rosa, everything and everyone is connected. Every person, every plant, every animal, every stone, and not one is more important than the other. We are all part of the web of life and everyone is equal. Even if we sometimes feel alone, we are never truly alone. All you need to do is be yourself and remember you are part of everything. Nothing else matters.”

 

For All My Relations ❤

 

 

 

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How November 2017 was…

focus for the year: Divine Feminine, Balance and Happiness

Divine Feminine- as usual I did a lot towards this, as well as all my daily work, I went to quite a few women’s groups, I won a Skype Womb Ceremony (well basically we talked about red tents, periods and yonis for an hour lol) and did one womb healing.

Felt I was a bit more balanced as I started to go out a bit more than I have been for most of the year! and because of this I was also doing more things that made me happy 🙂

Intentions

Cook more- did cook a few times

Make more time for creativity- did write a blog, and attempted crafting at one of the circles I went to…

Be better at birthdays- no

Finish the lists- no not really

Live to my cycle and educate others- yep

and my new intentions that I created on Witches New Year..

to be empowered in all areas of my life- in a way yes as I made myself go out more even when I thought we couldn’t really afford it..but also I started to get the influx of bookings for healings! I’ve already had two clients in December and I’ve still got another 3 booked in!

to be more visible- Yep! I went to three events.

to create new beginnings- well I’m slowly tying loose ends to make it easier when the time is right to be able to move…

to learn to let go more and allow FLOW into my life- it’s a slow process as I do love my lists and being organised, but I have been slowly letting go week by week of different lists and different things that stop me from being in the moment. It’s just finding the balance of being in the moment but also making sure things do get done!!

What I got up to during November- I went to the Rayleigh Red Tent, I went a few years ago but hadn’t taken the time for myself to go again even though the venue is literally across the road from where I work! It was quite good, we had a share and then got to try Chakra Dance, which I never done before but it was really good, and we had blindfolds on so it was even more liberating!

I went to the Sisters of the earth Goddess circle I’ve been attending the last few months. We did a guided meditation to the Goddess Freya and made crone dolls. I wasn’t very good so mine is still sitting here unmade 😦

It was transgender day of remembrance on the 20th so I called on others to join and light a candle and send a wave of love at 8pm on that day.

I met up with my friend Lauren and we went to leigh, where I got some crystals and we went had vegan cake at a bookshop that has a coffee shop inside with a vegan menu!

I had a womb healing client and I finished someone else on their Munay Ki Path.

I went to an anti fur protest in Leigh

I went to an evening event which was an hour of gentle yoga and a sound bath, very relaxing!

December so far seems to be all about the healings! (and I did actually pick the card ‘The singer of healing’ as my card for this month on my year reading) I don’t do Xmas but will be going to the work xmas meal which is at ASK this year (I’m looking forward to it as another venue that has a vegan menu now) and we will be celebrating the Winter Solstice. I’m also hoping to go to Red tent Rayleigh again and go out for new year.

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The Importance of Ceremony for Transitions

The other day, shortly after completing giving someone the final Munay Ki rites, I was browsing on the internet and I came across a page about Red Tent End of Life Doulas. I’d never heard of this, so with intrigue I watched a few of their videos. They are people that help people to deal with their end of life upcoming transition of death. In the videos, they speak a lot about how people are scared of death and we tend to avoid it as much as possible and we don’t really honour it.

This got me thinking about the transitions we have in life and how we mark them. When you think about it, there’s not that many that most people will honour with a ceremony or celebration. The ones we have are: marriage, births, birthdays, christenings, graduation….death is not generally honoured until it’s gone, with a funeral, which usually will be quite sad, and a time of grief not celebration….We don’t honour when a girl has her first period, when a woman reaches menopause, when a boy comes of age (in most belief systems), the spiritual side of death…some very important life rites that every single person has. Of course there are some exceptions to the rule but they are not in the mainstream or only in certain religions. We spend so much time when we know someone is going to die, to prepare ourselves to lose this person in our lives but not always so much to help prepare them for this final transition in their lives.

I really feel that we should honour these life transitions more. We might all have different ways of honouring, some more complex than others, but why are natural things that happen to everyone made taboo? The conversation is opening up more about menstruation, but has a long way to go, as does menopause. We spend so much time trying to push it all away, not saying no one should use methods of relief for painful symptoms, but we also need to see the amazing side of what our bodies can do. Maybe if we honour our bodies more, our bodies will be kinder to us? If we had a special celebration say when you got your first period, don’t you think you would have a bit of a different view than what you do now?

I hope this ramble of the thoughts in my head make some sort of sense! It’s something I definitely would like to help people with, I’d love to do menarche ceremonies and more, what an honour that would be to create something so special for someone 🙂

Let’s honour the life cycles more and celebrate them, not just focus on the shadow side of them….

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Look back at October 17 and now Witches New Year!

My usual end of the year combined post!

First to look back at how the Witchy month of October has been for me.

Focus for the year: Divine Feminine/Balance/Happiness- carried on with all the Divine Feminine work I’ve been doing and did a few social things that made me happy 🙂

Goals/Intentions:

cook more- cooking once a week at moment, usually a chilli but also did a casserole recently too

to have new experiences/visit new places- did a Goddess Yoga Kundalini class and also tried Goddess Qi Gong, did my first Munay Ki Part 3 and it was beautiful

Step fully into my role as a healer- Munay Ki giving and one Womb healing (as part of an exchange)

activism- none 😦

better at birthdays- none

finish my lists- a little

update on giving up the pill- last cycle was 31 days so a lot better than the previous one! Think I am starting to recognise when I’m ovulating but still learning as it really helps to know how your body works!

make more time for creativity- not lots, but I did write a blog yesterday which was flowing through me…

to live to my cycle and educate others- just the usual stuff really.

what else I got up to-Went to the Goddess circle and made a Samhain Wreath! (with lots of help),Red Tent, this time held by Sarah, only 1 person turned up again 😦  went to a local MBS fair, I didn’t buy anything but I heard part of a talk about veganism, took part in a kirtan and tried Goddess Qi Gong invented by my friend Stella. Went to see my friend Sherry and her animals..and went to a Vegan and Yoga festival on the Sunday just gone, did Goddess Kundalini Yoga, got a pink salt tealight holder and some vegan baked goods. Saw quite a few friends I hadn’t seen for ages at both events.

So as regular readers will know, I am pagan so today is extra special to me as it is Witches New Year! The last year has been good but challenging. I’ve been really working with shamanic energy with the courses I’ve been attending which has been amazing and powerful, but I’ve also been a lot less social and not seen as many of my “regular” friends. There has been a lot of struggle, and more death, as we lost both our cats over the past year, I also lost two uncles. I did a lot of retreat work! I did do a lot of healing work for others to start with but that has dwindled again but the focus has mostly been on myself. I became a Moon Mother and I also started on the Shamanic Medicine Wheel.

So my new intentions for this new Wheel of the Year (more will come in January as they always do, but for now I will start with these)

  1. To be empowered in all areas of my life
  2. To be more visible (start attending more events, seeing people, but also doing the things I want to do, being louder and being SEEN)
  3. To create new beginnings (a new home and a new job are calling so that’s where I need to start)
  4. To learn to let go more and allow more flow into my life

This month so far, what it looks like right now is: attend Red Tent Rayleigh, go to Goddess circle, go to a social of the South students, a week running the shop, and possibly more events but let’s see where FLOW takes me 😉

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Honouring the Enchantress at Samhain

When it comes to Divine Feminine/Goddess energy, we often talk about the triple Goddess- Maiden, Mother and Crone. But in reality there are four aspects to the Divine Feminine. The aspect that often gets ignored and left out, is the third element (Crone being the fourth) is that of the Enchantress or Wild Woman.

Why is she left out?

Society is scared of her.

The Enchantress is powerful and full of great wisdom. She is the creatrix.

So why are we scared of her? She shows us our shadow. She shows us our triggers and makes us aware of what we need to release. This can be a scary process. We don’t always want to acknowledge our wounds.

The Goddess aspects also occur in a woman’s menstrual cycle. Unsurprisingly, the Enchantress represents the pre menstrual time. A very difficult time for many women as ‘negative’ emotions come up like anger, frustration or even sadness. This is the Enchantress bringing up those emotions so we can recognise our triggers and learn to deal with them, and release them during the crone phase (menstrual cycle) during the Crone phase, we can release those triggers as we can now understand them and accept them.

I have found the Enchantress challenging. I found her the most difficult aspect to embrace. I didn’t like that I would be impatient and get angry, anger has always been a difficult emotion for me to accept.

With time I am now starting to fully embrace my Enchantress and know the true magic she holds.

The Enchantress is a creatrix.

The Enchantress is a witch.

She is intuition and divine connection. She holds the keys to healing ourselves.

The Enchantress is daring.

She is challenging but empowering.

The Enchantress knows no boundaries. She only speaks the truth.

The Enchantress dares. She creates. She is a divine yet forgotten part of Shakti.

At this time the veil is growing thin, let us acknowledge the Enchantress in us all, whether female or male, the Enchantress in the Earth.

She is Autumn, both dark yet colourful at the same time.

I will no longer be scared of my inner darkness and allow the Enchantress to speak, to help me to create, to listen to my inner wisdom.

I urge you to do the same.

Vishwa Shakti Avaham…

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September look back

Happy October! (not sure where Summer went)!

Here’s my look back on my intents and goals for the year and how they went last month:

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- had some aspects of all three.

cook more-  no

to have new experiences and visit new places- gave part 2 of Munay Ki for the first time (wisdomkeeper, daykeeper and earthkeeper rites) and they were amazing! Went to Epping Forest

step fully into my role as a healer- see above, plus one womb healing and blessing, and I stepped onto the Shamanic Medicine Wheel!

activism- none

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- a little

update on giving up the pill- nothing new to say really, am waiting to see how long this cycle is…

make more time for creativity- wrote one or two poems, being drawing a menstrual mandala everyday, mandalas that represent how I feel each day of this cycle

to live to my cycle and educate others- still trying as much as possible.

What else I got up to:

had the last two lessons of the Foundation Shamanism course I’ve been doing the last 9 months. We made a despacho and had an amazing fire ceremony in Epping Forest for the last session. I am going to miss it a lot!

Last weekend I did the first of the Medicine Wheel training weekends, so I am now on the South, working with the energy of Serpent- about releasing the past and what no longer serves us. I am now a mesa carrier 🙂 and I got to walk the Saffron Walden labyrinth again!

This month as it stands: more munay ki, Goddess circle, Red Tent

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August 17 Look Back

a bit late this time (nearly 2 weeks later than I planned to write)! but I am here now!

Here is how I did with my focus and intents for the year during August

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- did a lot more ‘happy’ things this month, carried on with all the divine feminine work I’ve been doing and generally over the month things were fairly balanced.

cook more- I did cook chilli once or twice lol

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to the Victoria Albert Museum to see a Pink Floyd exhibition and also went to a vegan restaurant hadn’t been before ‘Temple of Seitan’

step fully into my role as a healer- started more people on the Munay Ki path

activism- again none sadly

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- few bits ticked off again

update on giving up the pill- now 5 months, and it hasn’t settled yet like I thought last month, I had a really long cycle this time of 41 days!! This made me really stressed that probably didn’t help. I’ve now switched to a Red Moon cycle (bleeding with/near the full moon)

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- did still try to live to cycle and I did the Red Tent this month and we talked about cycle tracking

What else happened and what I got up to:

Shamanic group of course! (which is now ending 😦 ) I think the sessions were crystal healing and the other one Sarah and I did a healing ceremony for the group and we worked with oracle cards.

I met up with my friend Sherry for the first time in ages and we had a few drinks in a local pub and had a really good catch up.

I went to a Goddess circle on the full moon with my friends Maria, Carina and Vicky, more friends I hadn’t seen for ages and it was a lovely night. There was a share, we did a ritual outside under the full moon, made clay goddesses and received drumming healing.

I started my shamanic group sisters Martina, Sarah and Tahlee on the Munay Ki path (it got better the more I did it)

It was Miguel and I’s anniversary, 8 years married and 15 years together ❤ so that was the day we went to the Pink floyd exhibition (which was very cool) and the vegan restaurant was more a fast food place really, but all seitan ‘fried chicken’ it was really good!

I did the Red Tent, sadly only one person came but we had a good time and she enjoyed what I taught her about.

 

September we’re already half way, but in a week I’m stepping onto the medicine wheel proper- eeeeeeppp!

 

 

 

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July 2017 look back

hello august…!

here’s how I did with goals and intentions during July..

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- with regards to happiness, I did more in July so that made me feel happier.

Divine feminine still a lot of the same work I’ve been doing (it’s just so much a part of me now it just comes naturally) and I also read an amazing book during July called ‘Love Your Lady Landscape’ by Lisa Lister, which has even given me even more beautiful and powerful work to do. I really recommend this book to ALL women, it’s very powerful work but also written in a very light hearted and down to earth way which is so reassuring and comfortable, making it easy to understand even if you have never done anything spiritual related before.

Balance- think I was generally a bit more balanced than during June, emotionally and also between doing nothing and doing things.

still not cooked more (not doing well on that one oops)

to have new experiences and visit new places- I went to Blackjacks which is kind of near to London one weekend for a retreat, I had never been there and it was a very beautiful place with a river, geese roaming around, beautiful trees, parakeets and dragonflies ❤ it was to take part in a ceremony called The Long dance. Half the night you dance anti clockwise to release negativity from yourself and the earth, and the other half you dance clockwise to bring positivity in to yourself and the earth. It’s incredibly powerful and started a deep healing process in me.  I also gave Munay Ki for the first time.

step fully into my role as a healer- no clients, but I did one womb healing at the Long Dance weekend, and 6 womb healings at another retreat I went to. also gave munay ki for first time so that comes under this as well.

activism- none unfortunately

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- a few odd bits done

update on giving up the pill- it’s now been 4 months, I felt maybe my cycle is starting to settle a bit as I was back to 28 days.  so far they have been 29, 30, 33 and 28 days. I’m also resonating more deeply with the archetypes now. I can only describe it as somehow feeling more ‘real’

make more time for creativity- we made a banner of painted prayers for the long dance but other than that I didn’t really

to live to my cycle and educate others- thinking I am doing more so. sadly I had to cancel the Red Tent as I wasn’t sure anyone was going to turn up and it was a bit much to go to London without knowing for sure. I did a lot of womb healings during the two retreats I went to.

what else happened and what I got up to:

in shamanic course we learnt an icaro (medicine song) and burnt away roles we have taken on, and a journey called the spirit boat journey which is quite an active meditation, as you are literally imagining you are on a boat and using paddles

went to the Long Dance (as well as doing one healing myself, I also had 4 on myself, it brought up a lot for me)

did my first part one of Munay Ki for one of my free gift ones which went well i think, but think I will get better

another weekend retreat in St Osyth, the magical garden, a very epic weekend of healing myself and others

So August….facebook and twitter break (other than red tent promotion and keeping up to date with shamanic group work), more munay ki, more shamanic group work, worldwide womb blessing, wedding anniversary, red tent…so let’s see how it goes!

 

 

 

 

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