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How 2018 started

One month has already passed!

So how did I get on so far with my focus and intentions?

I felt ill/run down for a lot of January so I wasn’t very focused really until towards the end of the month and I am only just now really thinking of how to apply them and steps to making them happen. But here’s how it was:

Love/Energy/Prosperity- my 3 words for the year, well other than going out for lunch for Miguel’s birthday, that’s the only thing I can relate to any of those words to be honest that happened in January.

healing work to next level- well no further training at this stage but I did have 3 womb healing clients.

to be more empowered in all areas of my life- the womb healing work and I helped to teach at one of the Introduction to Shamanism classes

to be more visible- went to a few events

to create new beginnings- nothing yet

to let go and allow flow more- letting go one thing at a time..

what I actually got up to:

For Miguel’s birthday we had lunch at Molo Lounge in Southend high street followed by going to the shamanic group that evening.

I went to Red Tent Rayleigh which had a focus on Womb healing, so we did some womb yoga, massaged our bellies with specially blended oils and then had a sound journey.

Unfortunately had to cancel my Red Tent as no one had paid so couldn’t take the risk of going all the way to London for no reason. I’m taking a break from it for a while so that I can focus on my self.

I went to the Goddess circle, we had an Imbolc ritual, did a Journey to the Goddess Brigid and then made Brigid’s Crosses.

The month ended with me hosting a small womb blessing circle for the Worldwide Womb Blessing day that took place on the same day as the super blue blood moon (powerful)!

I’m hoping this month will be better!!!

 

 

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New year 🎆

A bit late in posting, thanks to being ill during the first week of the year but happy new year!

I always add more intentions for the year ahead in January (I start setting them in October, at the witches New year)

I always pick three words, for 2018 I have chosen: love, energy and prosperity.

I would like to have more energy/vitality- my health has been slacking, I’ve been eating too many vegan treats, not getting enough exercise, not taking my vitamins and my energy has not been great. I plan to work on my health to keep me feeling more alive again!

I intend to be more abundant. I struggled a lot last year with this, in 2018 I need to get things back on track and be able to do things when I want to do them and treat myself now and again!

I intend to rediscover romance in my relationship. We had a hard 2017 and haven’t been having a lot of fun/happy times. We need this back!

I intend to take my healing work to the next level. I hope to do level 2 moon mother training this year (just need to raise the money and be able to get to Glastonbury) and also do an animal healing course. And continue to develop my skills in Shamanism. And help more people!

 

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How December 2017 was

Slight delay in posting as first week of this year I have not been feeling well! I’m starting to recover now though and start getting ready for a much better year!

But first here is a look back on how the last month of the year went.

focus for 2017 words were: Divine Feminine, Balance and Happiness:

I did a lot of womb healing work for others during December so was a very Divine Feminine month, which also made me feel happy and generally I think I was more balanced. (I started trying to manage my time better without disrupting flow too much)

Overall for the year I think Divine Feminine and finding balance were big the big themes of the year but happiness not so much unfortunately.

Intentions

Cook more- did cook a few times in December. Overall I only did a little more cooking in 2017 and that was towards the end of the year really.

make more time for creativity- nothing specific in December. Overall for the year I didn’t do that well with this either, although I did start going to a witchy circle where we do a lot of crafting activities that have been quite challenging for me.

Be better at birthdays- still not great and another intention I didn’t do great on overall but mainly because of money reasons..

finish the lists- a few odd bits- I learnt that I would never finish the lists as I was always adding more on!!!

live to my cycle and educate others- yes! healings and Red Tent. Overall I was really good at that in 2017.

The intentions I added for the “new year” which I added in October on the witches new years. I have added more on official New Year but I will write a separate post for those as they were not yet active in December 🙂

to be empowered more in all areas of my life- yes more so, a lot more empowered in my healing work especially during December.

to be more visible- yes, because of healing work but also attended a few events and hosted the Red Tent

to create new beginnings- slowly slowly

to let go and allow FLOW more- still slowly letting things go…and finding sometimes life is forcing me to flow sometimes not in a way that’s nice!

What I got up to in the final calender month of 2017!

I had 4 clients!

I hosted the Red Tent and this time did it as part of the Worldwide Womb Blessing as the December one fell on a Sunday so perfect timing! This time Daren had made the event and out it on his Meet Up page so a much better turn out, with about 5 women showing up 🙂

I went along to Migs new shamanic group for one of the sessions and ending up teaching about pendulums! (the session was about shamanic tools)

We had our work xmas meal at ASK who now have a vegan menu and it was delish!

I had a healing session for myself with Gareth which was a general clearing and a soul retrieval. I really needed it!

I went for a lunch out with Vicky, Carina and Lauren at a cafe in Rayleigh, another place with a vegan menu and finally tried Pulled Jackfruit- I loved it!

I went to Red Tent Rayleigh and this time we tried tribal bellydance. I didn’t enjoy it as much as the chakra dance.

We celebrated Winter Solstice with our yearly roast

Went to my grandad’s for Boxing Day

January so far I have a few clients booked in and another Red Tent session booked in for the end of the month.

 

 

 

 

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Look Back on 2017

Music of 2017

Music wasn’t very important to me again this year, I didn’t go to any gigs and I only really listened to Spotify. I did sometimes listen to new albums this way but I guess the only one that was of note for me was Kasabian’s new album “For Crying Out Loud”, the first single is rather catchy:

Books

I’ve hardly read anything this year 😦 I set myself the challenge of reading 47 books this year and I’ve only managed 16…I’ve not been given many books or bought many..and I’m starting to run the library dry now…

The best ones I read were Love Your Lady Landscape by Lisa Lister, Goddess Wisdom (which I won my copy of) by Taniska, and very weird but intriguing fiction The Vegetarian by Han Kang. I got Witch by Lisa Lister for Winter Solstice which I have just started but I’m very excited to read it and hopefully it’s as good as everyone says.

Films and TV

I saw one film at the cinema as I took my mum to see the new live version of Beauty and the Beast for Mother’s Day and it was very good.

Other things I enjoyed were the new Russell Howard series, and the series based on Phillip K Dick Stories “Electric Dreams”

Moments/Things I did in 2017

Did a lot more Moon Mother work, I actually had a few paying clients this year for both healings and blessings!

I ended my Southend based women’s circle and started a Red Tent in Hackney Wick. It’s been a bit slow to start but had a better turn out in December so hoping it will grow properly in 2018!

I took part as a student in Miguel and Gareth’s Shamanic Foundation Course, which took quite a large part of the year (lessons every 2 weeks), it was challenging and empowering. In September I started on the Shamanic medicine wheel proper, so I am now a mesa carrier and am currently on the South.

arranged a surprise fire ceremony for Miguel’s birthday

I started giving Munay Ki and I have taken 3 people so far all the way through the rites. Hopefully I will train them to give it early next year

I went to a women’s retreat weekend in London which was very powerful.

We lost our other cat Mitzi in the summer 😦

For my birthday I went to Belfairs woods for a butterfly walk which was really lovely

I worked at two retreat weekends which were also very powerful healing experiences for myself

I started going to a few other circles, I went to a Goddess circle and started going to Red Tent Rayleigh towards the end of the year.

For our anniversary we went to see the Pink Floyd exhibition at the VMA.

Went to a MBS and a Yoga/Vegan fair in Southend

won lots of competitions- I won the Goddess Wisdom book, a Womb Skype Ceremony, popcorn and a Moon Mama t shirt!

it was in lots of ways, a difficult year, there were a lot of struggles but also a lot of empowerment. Hopefully next year the changes that need to happen will manifest and it will be a happier year! My Plans and other resolutions of the year to come soon!

 

 

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An Open Letter to Southend

To Southend

You have been my home for thirty three years but now I feel it is time for us to ‘break up’ and I need to move forward and spread my wings elsewhere.

I am grateful for all that I have achieved and all the people I have met during this time. I am grateful for the places here that have been important to me at various points of my life.

The schools I went to here, college and homes I’ve had. The high street which has been the backdrop of many a memory I’ve made here. I used to spend a lot of times with friends trawling around the highstreet, trying out lipbalms in the Body Shop or spending ages looking at all the candles and crystals when Spellbound existed. Going to the cinema.

Then of course there’s the seafront. Memories of walking up and down, eating strawberry laces and drinking slush puppies. Going to the arcades, winning sweets and printing out astrology compatibility reports from one of the machines. Going to what used to be Peter Pan’s and visiting the Crooked House and riding the Ferris Wheel. Seeing the fairytale creatures of the long gone but not forgotten Never Never Land. When I was a teenager and having my first experience of ‘cruising’ and not really understanding the concept of being in someone’s car and not going anywhere.

My family home. My grandparents. Both houses with many memories.

The events I’ve held here- the charity gigs at The Railway Hotel. The djing opportunties at The Kursaal and at Saks Underground.

The Alex for being the place to go to dance on a Friday or Saturday to grunge and metal. The later a little further in Rayleigh, the Pink Toothbrush, my very first memory of going while I wasn’t old enough and not being allowed in, feeling sorrowful as I could hear the sound of Blink 182 blaring out. Saks Underground, The Royal Hotel and the Railway Hotel not only for the gigs but for the vegan food! The Oaktree Market for a many a lovely meal and celebration.

The beautiful Priory Park, Prittle Brook and my favourite place the “secret” garden Churchill Gardens.

Here has been the foundation of my life. I have met so many people that have had huge influences on my life here and many that will continue to do so.

A piece of my heart will always be here and I will be back regularly.

It is not the time yet but the time is coming that it is time for us to move on. Friendships, connections and new beginnings are forming somewhere else.

I am stating my intent that we are ready to go now. With a heart full of gratitude I let this place go as the place I live although it will always be home.

Thank you for all that you have given me.

Hayley

xx

 

 

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Late again! (sorry)! January 2017 look back

Sorry it’s so late but here is my January blog (and I still have a backlog of other blogs to write)…

So first how I’m doing so far with my goals and intentions for this year..

Balance/Happiness/Divine Feminine: I’ve been working a lot with balance and divine feminine. I’ve been tracking my cycle and learning what is better for me in each week of my cycle, it’s been a bit out of balance but through regular self womb healing, listening to my body and working with on rotation a 28 day routine that’s in Miranda Gray’s book ‘Female Energy Awakening’ I’ve been slowly bringing back balance again. Also on the divine feminine part, I did two womb blessings for others in January and my circle was about working with your cycle and the archetypes.I also did two womb healings and gave the 13th rite. As for happiness, so far the year has been a bit slow and ‘meh’ but I’m sure things will pick up again soon.

To cook more- not done this yet

to have new experiences and visit new places- nothing as yet

to do more of what makes me happy- not really yet

to step fully into my role as a healer- did two womb blessings, booked two others. all gift or donation but at least it’s a start! I also did two womb healings

to do more activism- nothing yet

be better at birthdays- well it was Miguel’s birthday and I organised him a surprise shamanic fire ceremony with a few select friends, so I think that was good!

finish my lists- haven’t had money to tick off much but ticked off a couple lol

give up the pill- not yet, 2 months to go…

make more time for creativity- not yet

live to my cycle and educate others- yes as I mentioned earlier. I’m a bit obsessed with this stuff at the moment!

What I got up to

Beginning of the year was really hard, as grief was still hitting us quite hard with the loss of our cat Roxie, and that unfortunately went into anger, and extreme arguing..but eventually it died down and some normality started to come back.

I had my first women’s circle of the year which was our planning meeting, but only a small group.

I started attending the shamanic course that Miguel runs with his friend Gareth. I’m helping out with money etc, but also actually taking part. It’s every two weeks on a Tuesday evening. So far there was the introduction to the course, and last time everyone got to receive a shamanic healing, and witness what that looks like. I didn’t need that much healing apparently so that was nice! and I was told that my womb was glowing and clearly on a mission…lol.

celebrated Miguel’s birthday with a surprise fire ceremony…a very nice day

did the final part of my “redoing” of the munay ki, and as part of that I did the 13th rite- the rite of the womb for the women alongside two other women taking part. It went very well!

that’s it for now x

 

 

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30 Day Blogging Challenge Day 26: Comments!

Today for the blogging challenge, was all about leaving comments on people’s blogs. I must admit, with the invention of the ‘like’ button, this isn’t something I often do. However, I am always excited when I get comments on mine, so I am going to make an effort to comment more, and not just ‘like’!

I had a look at the Comment Stats on this blog just for fun, and the average is 7 a month, a total of 60 since this blog started and my most commented blog was the first in this challenge! let’s see if I can get this up 🙂

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September: Dreams can come true!!

Well September was another month that flew by in a blink of an eye, and a lot happened!

Here’s how I did with my goals in September:

New job and healing business: The most exciting one of them all! Well shortly after my last blog I got offered two more job interviews. One of them was for the hospital as admin, but I didn’t end up needing to go to that one, as just before that I got an interview for Part Time Sales Assistant at Holland and Barrett and I got the job!!!! I handed in my notice two weeks ago and I just have 10 working days left now before starting the new job. I am really excited as I am actually really into natural remedies etc, so this job is perfect for me! Of course, it’s part time which finacially is a bit of a risk, but they have already said there is always overtime available, and that you can do extra hours in other stores too. I’ve also already discussed the opportunities to work my way up, and it all sounds excellent. I wil of course be keeping you posted on how it all goes.

As for the healing business, we did a spiritual fair in Hornchurch, we both did healing sessions and both had customers so it went quite well!

write my spiritual book: one of the people who had the book finally sent me some feedback (the last person i sent it too ironically) and she gave me excellent feedback which is encouraging but also some things I can do to make it even better, so I am starting to edit again- hooray!

more photos of family/friends: none

write more: wrote one poem, and also have started writing guided meditations for my crystal healing sessions.

more gigs: none

What I’ve been up to:

It was a very busy month! I had my women’s circle and this time the theme was creativity so we shared our work with each other, wrote a poem together, made art and had a good chat about it.

We had a tarot/shamanic healing party at our flat, Miguel and our friend Gareth were doing the healing and readings, so really I was just the hostess, but some new people were here so it was nice to get to know them and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. We will be doing more in the future, including one we’re doing on New year’s eve which won’t be at our flat this time, but I’ll be doing healing too which wil be nice.

We did the spiritual fair I mentioned which was a good day, I think Miguel did 4 healings and I did 3. I also had a reading while I was there and bought some crystals so it was win all round!

I had my interview at Holland and barrett which I had to go to the Rayleigh store for. The guy interviewing me was really nice, which made me feel at ease and I didn’t struggle to answer any of the questions so I left feeling confident. My confidence proved to be right when I got invited to do a work trial at the Southend store (where I will be based) the following weekend. I just basically had to put stock out, and I found out a week later that I got the job 🙂

My friend Stella has started a ‘Goddess Gathering’ where lots of women meet up and do some spiritual work, we did work about the base chakra, the element of fire, meditation and readings. It will be every month so looking forward to seeing how it pans out.

To celebrate getting the Holland and Barrett job, Miguel and I went to see ‘Before I go to sleep’ at the cinema. I really loved the book so I was worried they wouldn’t do it justice, but it was great and Nicole Kidman and Colin Firth were excellent in it. defintley go and see it! (but read the book too if you haven’t already)!

i went to a drumming session with my friend Roberta which was nice way to celebrate the Equinox.

Because we hosted the tartot night, we were entitled for a free reading from Gareth so we had a joint one which was excellent and really gave lots of hope for the future. If you ever need a tarot reading, I would highly recommend Gareth. I can put anyone in touch who reads this and thinks they might want one.

It was my friend Lauren’s birthday and she had a meal at the Oaktree with a few friends which was lovely, I had a lebanese vegan lasagne which was amazing!

I went to the first Southend Writer’s and Artist’s Network gathering with my friend Kelly who has also recently released a book. We both had readings to do there. It was realy nerve racking as there was a lot of people but I also felt very uncomfortable with the crowd, especially as they were being quite critical of some of the previous readers. I was so anxious, I ended up drinking my whole bottle of wine (it was bring your own) so reading was okay in the end, didn’t think it went that well, but someone on facebook after the event told me they thought my work was beautiful and it helped them to do their speech, so that really made my day!

I did a couple of crystal healing sessions, one was a swap I had arranged with someone and the other was a raffle prize winner but she has already asked about booking a paid session- hooray!!!

That’s it for September and I think the October blog is going to be even longer, as it’s not even been a week yet and I’ve already done loads!

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30 years of me!

Yep today is my 30th birthday. How did that happen? I’m not seeing it as a bad thing, I believe in magic and fairies and fairytales..I’m a dreamer..I’ll never be a “grown up”

However, looking back on my life so far, I think I have achieved quite a lot. I thought it would be good to try and list what I’ve done so far, then think about what I want to aim for before I’m 40. So this is my achievements/cool stuff I’ve done now..(in no particular order)

1. I got married

2. I’ve walked on fire

3. I also walked on glass!

4. I’ve done a sweat lodge

5. been to Portugal

6. Been to Holland

7. been to Spain

8. been to Disneyworld, Florida (3 times)!

9. Read at an open mic poetry night

10. went vegetarian

11. went vegan (and still am)

12. done karaoke

13. done A Levels

14. got 9 GCSES

15. learn crystal healing

16. written a book

17. had several blogs

18. presented a radio show

19. organised three music events

20. done the colourthon twice (half marathon walk)

21. taken part in the adidas 5k

22. made money for charities including Refuge, Southend Rape Crisis and Southend Domestic Violence services amongst others.

23. been part of a fire ceremony

24. became a pharmacy dispenser

25. gone to witchfest

26. been to feminism in london

27. gone to FEM11 (another feminist conference)

28. had pets

29. organised a flash mob

30. won competitions (at least 6 times)!

31. been to festivals (reading, V, Hard Rock hell and Offset)

32. been to many, many gigs (including Joan Jett, Patti Smith and Alice Cooper)!

33. been at the front at a gig

34. got a setlist from a gig (about 3 or 4 times I think)

35. been to the Kuan Yin shrine in Amsterdam

36. been to the Cat Museum in Amsterdam!

37. seen the hunnabeds in Holland

38. had 3 major jobs (with a bunch of temporary ones too)

39. seen the Rocky Horror Show live

40. been to protests (including Million Women Rise, Slutwalk and anti animal circus demos)

41. attended several ladyfests (and organised one)

42. caught a guitar pick at a gig

43. seen hair the musical (and joined the stage invasion)

44. shaken Patti Smith’s hand

45. interviewed Robots in Disguise

46. met Laurie Penny

47. met Josie Long

48. Met Paramore

49. been on a press list for a show

50. been mentioned on stage by a band

51. been in the local newspaper

52. written an article for the local newspaper

53. been in a national newspaper

54. had poetry published

55. djed at a public event

56. played an ukulele

57. played a keyboard

58. written for music websites

59. written for The F word

and probably loads more things I’ve missed out! Think I’ve done pretty well so far!

By the time I’m 40 I would like to:

1. have a job I love

2. go to Glastonbury (the place not the festival)

3. see stonehenge

4. see Avesbury

5. go to the 3 wishes faery festival in cornwall

6. published a book

7. see Kathleen Hanna live

8.be doing regular volunteer work

9. visit peru

can’t think of anymore yet but I’m sure there will be!

 

 

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Day Six: Writing 101

One of the most interesting people I’ve met this year was a woman called Tracey. We met on the crystal healing course I went on. She is the mother of an autistic son, and she also is a teacher of laughter yoga.

 

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