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How December 2017 was

Slight delay in posting as first week of this year I have not been feeling well! I’m starting to recover now though and start getting ready for a much better year!

But first here is a look back on how the last month of the year went.

focus for 2017 words were: Divine Feminine, Balance and Happiness:

I did a lot of womb healing work for others during December so was a very Divine Feminine month, which also made me feel happy and generally I think I was more balanced. (I started trying to manage my time better without disrupting flow too much)

Overall for the year I think Divine Feminine and finding balance were big the big themes of the year but happiness not so much unfortunately.

Intentions

Cook more- did cook a few times in December. Overall I only did a little more cooking in 2017 and that was towards the end of the year really.

make more time for creativity- nothing specific in December. Overall for the year I didn’t do that well with this either, although I did start going to a witchy circle where we do a lot of crafting activities that have been quite challenging for me.

Be better at birthdays- still not great and another intention I didn’t do great on overall but mainly because of money reasons..

finish the lists- a few odd bits- I learnt that I would never finish the lists as I was always adding more on!!!

live to my cycle and educate others- yes! healings and Red Tent. Overall I was really good at that in 2017.

The intentions I added for the “new year” which I added in October on the witches new years. I have added more on official New Year but I will write a separate post for those as they were not yet active in December 🙂

to be empowered more in all areas of my life- yes more so, a lot more empowered in my healing work especially during December.

to be more visible- yes, because of healing work but also attended a few events and hosted the Red Tent

to create new beginnings- slowly slowly

to let go and allow FLOW more- still slowly letting things go…and finding sometimes life is forcing me to flow sometimes not in a way that’s nice!

What I got up to in the final calender month of 2017!

I had 4 clients!

I hosted the Red Tent and this time did it as part of the Worldwide Womb Blessing as the December one fell on a Sunday so perfect timing! This time Daren had made the event and out it on his Meet Up page so a much better turn out, with about 5 women showing up 🙂

I went along to Migs new shamanic group for one of the sessions and ending up teaching about pendulums! (the session was about shamanic tools)

We had our work xmas meal at ASK who now have a vegan menu and it was delish!

I had a healing session for myself with Gareth which was a general clearing and a soul retrieval. I really needed it!

I went for a lunch out with Vicky, Carina and Lauren at a cafe in Rayleigh, another place with a vegan menu and finally tried Pulled Jackfruit- I loved it!

I went to Red Tent Rayleigh and this time we tried tribal bellydance. I didn’t enjoy it as much as the chakra dance.

We celebrated Winter Solstice with our yearly roast

Went to my grandad’s for Boxing Day

January so far I have a few clients booked in and another Red Tent session booked in for the end of the month.

 

 

 

 

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Look Back on 2017

Music of 2017

Music wasn’t very important to me again this year, I didn’t go to any gigs and I only really listened to Spotify. I did sometimes listen to new albums this way but I guess the only one that was of note for me was Kasabian’s new album “For Crying Out Loud”, the first single is rather catchy:

Books

I’ve hardly read anything this year 😦 I set myself the challenge of reading 47 books this year and I’ve only managed 16…I’ve not been given many books or bought many..and I’m starting to run the library dry now…

The best ones I read were Love Your Lady Landscape by Lisa Lister, Goddess Wisdom (which I won my copy of) by Taniska, and very weird but intriguing fiction The Vegetarian by Han Kang. I got Witch by Lisa Lister for Winter Solstice which I have just started but I’m very excited to read it and hopefully it’s as good as everyone says.

Films and TV

I saw one film at the cinema as I took my mum to see the new live version of Beauty and the Beast for Mother’s Day and it was very good.

Other things I enjoyed were the new Russell Howard series, and the series based on Phillip K Dick Stories “Electric Dreams”

Moments/Things I did in 2017

Did a lot more Moon Mother work, I actually had a few paying clients this year for both healings and blessings!

I ended my Southend based women’s circle and started a Red Tent in Hackney Wick. It’s been a bit slow to start but had a better turn out in December so hoping it will grow properly in 2018!

I took part as a student in Miguel and Gareth’s Shamanic Foundation Course, which took quite a large part of the year (lessons every 2 weeks), it was challenging and empowering. In September I started on the Shamanic medicine wheel proper, so I am now a mesa carrier and am currently on the South.

arranged a surprise fire ceremony for Miguel’s birthday

I started giving Munay Ki and I have taken 3 people so far all the way through the rites. Hopefully I will train them to give it early next year

I went to a women’s retreat weekend in London which was very powerful.

We lost our other cat Mitzi in the summer 😦

For my birthday I went to Belfairs woods for a butterfly walk which was really lovely

I worked at two retreat weekends which were also very powerful healing experiences for myself

I started going to a few other circles, I went to a Goddess circle and started going to Red Tent Rayleigh towards the end of the year.

For our anniversary we went to see the Pink Floyd exhibition at the VMA.

Went to a MBS and a Yoga/Vegan fair in Southend

won lots of competitions- I won the Goddess Wisdom book, a Womb Skype Ceremony, popcorn and a Moon Mama t shirt!

it was in lots of ways, a difficult year, there were a lot of struggles but also a lot of empowerment. Hopefully next year the changes that need to happen will manifest and it will be a happier year! My Plans and other resolutions of the year to come soon!

 

 

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How November 2017 was…

focus for the year: Divine Feminine, Balance and Happiness

Divine Feminine- as usual I did a lot towards this, as well as all my daily work, I went to quite a few women’s groups, I won a Skype Womb Ceremony (well basically we talked about red tents, periods and yonis for an hour lol) and did one womb healing.

Felt I was a bit more balanced as I started to go out a bit more than I have been for most of the year! and because of this I was also doing more things that made me happy 🙂

Intentions

Cook more- did cook a few times

Make more time for creativity- did write a blog, and attempted crafting at one of the circles I went to…

Be better at birthdays- no

Finish the lists- no not really

Live to my cycle and educate others- yep

and my new intentions that I created on Witches New Year..

to be empowered in all areas of my life- in a way yes as I made myself go out more even when I thought we couldn’t really afford it..but also I started to get the influx of bookings for healings! I’ve already had two clients in December and I’ve still got another 3 booked in!

to be more visible- Yep! I went to three events.

to create new beginnings- well I’m slowly tying loose ends to make it easier when the time is right to be able to move…

to learn to let go more and allow FLOW into my life- it’s a slow process as I do love my lists and being organised, but I have been slowly letting go week by week of different lists and different things that stop me from being in the moment. It’s just finding the balance of being in the moment but also making sure things do get done!!

What I got up to during November- I went to the Rayleigh Red Tent, I went a few years ago but hadn’t taken the time for myself to go again even though the venue is literally across the road from where I work! It was quite good, we had a share and then got to try Chakra Dance, which I never done before but it was really good, and we had blindfolds on so it was even more liberating!

I went to the Sisters of the earth Goddess circle I’ve been attending the last few months. We did a guided meditation to the Goddess Freya and made crone dolls. I wasn’t very good so mine is still sitting here unmade 😦

It was transgender day of remembrance on the 20th so I called on others to join and light a candle and send a wave of love at 8pm on that day.

I met up with my friend Lauren and we went to leigh, where I got some crystals and we went had vegan cake at a bookshop that has a coffee shop inside with a vegan menu!

I had a womb healing client and I finished someone else on their Munay Ki Path.

I went to an anti fur protest in Leigh

I went to an evening event which was an hour of gentle yoga and a sound bath, very relaxing!

December so far seems to be all about the healings! (and I did actually pick the card ‘The singer of healing’ as my card for this month on my year reading) I don’t do Xmas but will be going to the work xmas meal which is at ASK this year (I’m looking forward to it as another venue that has a vegan menu now) and we will be celebrating the Winter Solstice. I’m also hoping to go to Red tent Rayleigh again and go out for new year.

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The Importance of Ceremony for Transitions

The other day, shortly after completing giving someone the final Munay Ki rites, I was browsing on the internet and I came across a page about Red Tent End of Life Doulas. I’d never heard of this, so with intrigue I watched a few of their videos. They are people that help people to deal with their end of life upcoming transition of death. In the videos, they speak a lot about how people are scared of death and we tend to avoid it as much as possible and we don’t really honour it.

This got me thinking about the transitions we have in life and how we mark them. When you think about it, there’s not that many that most people will honour with a ceremony or celebration. The ones we have are: marriage, births, birthdays, christenings, graduation….death is not generally honoured until it’s gone, with a funeral, which usually will be quite sad, and a time of grief not celebration….We don’t honour when a girl has her first period, when a woman reaches menopause, when a boy comes of age (in most belief systems), the spiritual side of death…some very important life rites that every single person has. Of course there are some exceptions to the rule but they are not in the mainstream or only in certain religions. We spend so much time when we know someone is going to die, to prepare ourselves to lose this person in our lives but not always so much to help prepare them for this final transition in their lives.

I really feel that we should honour these life transitions more. We might all have different ways of honouring, some more complex than others, but why are natural things that happen to everyone made taboo? The conversation is opening up more about menstruation, but has a long way to go, as does menopause. We spend so much time trying to push it all away, not saying no one should use methods of relief for painful symptoms, but we also need to see the amazing side of what our bodies can do. Maybe if we honour our bodies more, our bodies will be kinder to us? If we had a special celebration say when you got your first period, don’t you think you would have a bit of a different view than what you do now?

I hope this ramble of the thoughts in my head make some sort of sense! It’s something I definitely would like to help people with, I’d love to do menarche ceremonies and more, what an honour that would be to create something so special for someone 🙂

Let’s honour the life cycles more and celebrate them, not just focus on the shadow side of them….

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Look back at October 17 and now Witches New Year!

My usual end of the year combined post!

First to look back at how the Witchy month of October has been for me.

Focus for the year: Divine Feminine/Balance/Happiness- carried on with all the Divine Feminine work I’ve been doing and did a few social things that made me happy 🙂

Goals/Intentions:

cook more- cooking once a week at moment, usually a chilli but also did a casserole recently too

to have new experiences/visit new places- did a Goddess Yoga Kundalini class and also tried Goddess Qi Gong, did my first Munay Ki Part 3 and it was beautiful

Step fully into my role as a healer- Munay Ki giving and one Womb healing (as part of an exchange)

activism- none 😦

better at birthdays- none

finish my lists- a little

update on giving up the pill- last cycle was 31 days so a lot better than the previous one! Think I am starting to recognise when I’m ovulating but still learning as it really helps to know how your body works!

make more time for creativity- not lots, but I did write a blog yesterday which was flowing through me…

to live to my cycle and educate others- just the usual stuff really.

what else I got up to-Went to the Goddess circle and made a Samhain Wreath! (with lots of help),Red Tent, this time held by Sarah, only 1 person turned up again 😦  went to a local MBS fair, I didn’t buy anything but I heard part of a talk about veganism, took part in a kirtan and tried Goddess Qi Gong invented by my friend Stella. Went to see my friend Sherry and her animals..and went to a Vegan and Yoga festival on the Sunday just gone, did Goddess Kundalini Yoga, got a pink salt tealight holder and some vegan baked goods. Saw quite a few friends I hadn’t seen for ages at both events.

So as regular readers will know, I am pagan so today is extra special to me as it is Witches New Year! The last year has been good but challenging. I’ve been really working with shamanic energy with the courses I’ve been attending which has been amazing and powerful, but I’ve also been a lot less social and not seen as many of my “regular” friends. There has been a lot of struggle, and more death, as we lost both our cats over the past year, I also lost two uncles. I did a lot of retreat work! I did do a lot of healing work for others to start with but that has dwindled again but the focus has mostly been on myself. I became a Moon Mother and I also started on the Shamanic Medicine Wheel.

So my new intentions for this new Wheel of the Year (more will come in January as they always do, but for now I will start with these)

  1. To be empowered in all areas of my life
  2. To be more visible (start attending more events, seeing people, but also doing the things I want to do, being louder and being SEEN)
  3. To create new beginnings (a new home and a new job are calling so that’s where I need to start)
  4. To learn to let go more and allow more flow into my life

This month so far, what it looks like right now is: attend Red Tent Rayleigh, go to Goddess circle, go to a social of the South students, a week running the shop, and possibly more events but let’s see where FLOW takes me 😉

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Honouring the Enchantress at Samhain

When it comes to Divine Feminine/Goddess energy, we often talk about the triple Goddess- Maiden, Mother and Crone. But in reality there are four aspects to the Divine Feminine. The aspect that often gets ignored and left out, is the third element (Crone being the fourth) is that of the Enchantress or Wild Woman.

Why is she left out?

Society is scared of her.

The Enchantress is powerful and full of great wisdom. She is the creatrix.

So why are we scared of her? She shows us our shadow. She shows us our triggers and makes us aware of what we need to release. This can be a scary process. We don’t always want to acknowledge our wounds.

The Goddess aspects also occur in a woman’s menstrual cycle. Unsurprisingly, the Enchantress represents the pre menstrual time. A very difficult time for many women as ‘negative’ emotions come up like anger, frustration or even sadness. This is the Enchantress bringing up those emotions so we can recognise our triggers and learn to deal with them, and release them during the crone phase (menstrual cycle) during the Crone phase, we can release those triggers as we can now understand them and accept them.

I have found the Enchantress challenging. I found her the most difficult aspect to embrace. I didn’t like that I would be impatient and get angry, anger has always been a difficult emotion for me to accept.

With time I am now starting to fully embrace my Enchantress and know the true magic she holds.

The Enchantress is a creatrix.

The Enchantress is a witch.

She is intuition and divine connection. She holds the keys to healing ourselves.

The Enchantress is daring.

She is challenging but empowering.

The Enchantress knows no boundaries. She only speaks the truth.

The Enchantress dares. She creates. She is a divine yet forgotten part of Shakti.

At this time the veil is growing thin, let us acknowledge the Enchantress in us all, whether female or male, the Enchantress in the Earth.

She is Autumn, both dark yet colourful at the same time.

I will no longer be scared of my inner darkness and allow the Enchantress to speak, to help me to create, to listen to my inner wisdom.

I urge you to do the same.

Vishwa Shakti Avaham…

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An Open Letter to Southend

To Southend

You have been my home for thirty three years but now I feel it is time for us to ‘break up’ and I need to move forward and spread my wings elsewhere.

I am grateful for all that I have achieved and all the people I have met during this time. I am grateful for the places here that have been important to me at various points of my life.

The schools I went to here, college and homes I’ve had. The high street which has been the backdrop of many a memory I’ve made here. I used to spend a lot of times with friends trawling around the highstreet, trying out lipbalms in the Body Shop or spending ages looking at all the candles and crystals when Spellbound existed. Going to the cinema.

Then of course there’s the seafront. Memories of walking up and down, eating strawberry laces and drinking slush puppies. Going to the arcades, winning sweets and printing out astrology compatibility reports from one of the machines. Going to what used to be Peter Pan’s and visiting the Crooked House and riding the Ferris Wheel. Seeing the fairytale creatures of the long gone but not forgotten Never Never Land. When I was a teenager and having my first experience of ‘cruising’ and not really understanding the concept of being in someone’s car and not going anywhere.

My family home. My grandparents. Both houses with many memories.

The events I’ve held here- the charity gigs at The Railway Hotel. The djing opportunties at The Kursaal and at Saks Underground.

The Alex for being the place to go to dance on a Friday or Saturday to grunge and metal. The later a little further in Rayleigh, the Pink Toothbrush, my very first memory of going while I wasn’t old enough and not being allowed in, feeling sorrowful as I could hear the sound of Blink 182 blaring out. Saks Underground, The Royal Hotel and the Railway Hotel not only for the gigs but for the vegan food! The Oaktree Market for a many a lovely meal and celebration.

The beautiful Priory Park, Prittle Brook and my favourite place the “secret” garden Churchill Gardens.

Here has been the foundation of my life. I have met so many people that have had huge influences on my life here and many that will continue to do so.

A piece of my heart will always be here and I will be back regularly.

It is not the time yet but the time is coming that it is time for us to move on. Friendships, connections and new beginnings are forming somewhere else.

I am stating my intent that we are ready to go now. With a heart full of gratitude I let this place go as the place I live although it will always be home.

Thank you for all that you have given me.

Hayley

xx

 

 

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September look back

Happy October! (not sure where Summer went)!

Here’s my look back on my intents and goals for the year and how they went last month:

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- had some aspects of all three.

cook more-  no

to have new experiences and visit new places- gave part 2 of Munay Ki for the first time (wisdomkeeper, daykeeper and earthkeeper rites) and they were amazing! Went to Epping Forest

step fully into my role as a healer- see above, plus one womb healing and blessing, and I stepped onto the Shamanic Medicine Wheel!

activism- none

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- a little

update on giving up the pill- nothing new to say really, am waiting to see how long this cycle is…

make more time for creativity- wrote one or two poems, being drawing a menstrual mandala everyday, mandalas that represent how I feel each day of this cycle

to live to my cycle and educate others- still trying as much as possible.

What else I got up to:

had the last two lessons of the Foundation Shamanism course I’ve been doing the last 9 months. We made a despacho and had an amazing fire ceremony in Epping Forest for the last session. I am going to miss it a lot!

Last weekend I did the first of the Medicine Wheel training weekends, so I am now on the South, working with the energy of Serpent- about releasing the past and what no longer serves us. I am now a mesa carrier 🙂 and I got to walk the Saffron Walden labyrinth again!

This month as it stands: more munay ki, Goddess circle, Red Tent

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August 17 Look Back

a bit late this time (nearly 2 weeks later than I planned to write)! but I am here now!

Here is how I did with my focus and intents for the year during August

Happiness/Divine Feminine/Balance- did a lot more ‘happy’ things this month, carried on with all the divine feminine work I’ve been doing and generally over the month things were fairly balanced.

cook more- I did cook chilli once or twice lol

to have new experiences and visit new places- went to the Victoria Albert Museum to see a Pink Floyd exhibition and also went to a vegan restaurant hadn’t been before ‘Temple of Seitan’

step fully into my role as a healer- started more people on the Munay Ki path

activism- again none sadly

better at birthdays- no

finish my lists- few bits ticked off again

update on giving up the pill- now 5 months, and it hasn’t settled yet like I thought last month, I had a really long cycle this time of 41 days!! This made me really stressed that probably didn’t help. I’ve now switched to a Red Moon cycle (bleeding with/near the full moon)

make more time for creativity- not really

to live to my cycle and educate others- did still try to live to cycle and I did the Red Tent this month and we talked about cycle tracking

What else happened and what I got up to:

Shamanic group of course! (which is now ending 😦 ) I think the sessions were crystal healing and the other one Sarah and I did a healing ceremony for the group and we worked with oracle cards.

I met up with my friend Sherry for the first time in ages and we had a few drinks in a local pub and had a really good catch up.

I went to a Goddess circle on the full moon with my friends Maria, Carina and Vicky, more friends I hadn’t seen for ages and it was a lovely night. There was a share, we did a ritual outside under the full moon, made clay goddesses and received drumming healing.

I started my shamanic group sisters Martina, Sarah and Tahlee on the Munay Ki path (it got better the more I did it)

It was Miguel and I’s anniversary, 8 years married and 15 years together ❤ so that was the day we went to the Pink floyd exhibition (which was very cool) and the vegan restaurant was more a fast food place really, but all seitan ‘fried chicken’ it was really good!

I did the Red Tent, sadly only one person came but we had a good time and she enjoyed what I taught her about.

 

September we’re already half way, but in a week I’m stepping onto the medicine wheel proper- eeeeeeppp!

 

 

 

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Why I’m not an Angry Vegan…

Recently I have felt inspired to write a blog about this.

I am a vegan and I have been vegan for eleven and a half years now. I am vegan primarily for animal rights reasons, as I truly believe animals are not here for our use, and all beings should be treated equally.

In all my time of being vegan I have met a lot of other vegans, vegetarians, and of course many many meat eaters, some who take pleasure in making sarcastic comments or asking what I would do in hypothetical scenarios which are extremely unlikely to happen. I’ve also met people who are simply curious and ask genuine questions and try to understand the choice I’ve made.

There is a certain type of vegan, some would say ‘militant’  , I would say ‘angry’.

An angry vegan often tends to have a very bitter world view, perhaps despising the human race, quite possibly may have cut all ties with anyone in their life who eats meat. Yells obscenities at anyone who doesn’t agree with them.

Now don’t get me wrong. They have got a right to be angry. The world is cruel. Animals suffer. Badly. and in all sorts of ways, from the meat and dairy industry, to animal “entertainment” to animal testing on cosmetics and medicine, to fur farming, hunting, I could go on and on. and Yes, all those things make me angry too.

I have been on many protests about almost all of those things and more. I haven’t so much recently but not because I don’t want to. I do believe protests and actions can make a huge difference, even if simply a passer by notices and it sparks something in them. To me, that is a small but great step to bringing a bit more compassion in the world. Protests are a great way to express the anger we feel.

I choose to protest but I choose not to be an Angry Vegan as part of my everyday life.

Why? Because for me veganism is about compassion.

Compassion is for ALL. So that means other humans as well as animals. I don’t believe that I will convince anyone else to be vegan by being angry with them. I want to show that you can be happy and healthy as vegan and I want to show that with my actions and my words. Yes I’ll certainly promote veganism where I can and I’ll discuss my points of view on my choices and animal rights issues. But there is no need for me to shout others down for not making the same choice as me. I’d rather show my choices by perhaps sharing food or talking about good organisations, by showing the positive sometimes not always the negative. That doesn’t mean I won’t share a petition or a video once in a while. I just choose to show compassion for ALL. Okay so maybe some of those people don’t show that same compassion. But my hope is that by always showing compassion to others, we can teach others to do the same, even if it does take time. There’s no need for me to fight.

so yes I’m very proud to be a non- angry, happy hippy vegan 🙂

 

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