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Poetry Dowsing Week 12 and Conclusion

Wow I can’t believe it’s been 12 weeks and I’ve now completed the poetry dowsing course I’ve been doing! If you aren’t sure what I am talking about, I have been writing about it regularly and you can see from the beginning here

Just a quick summary of week 12 and then I’ll write about my overall experience.

The final week theme was ‘Uncovering a Sense of Perseverance’. So thinking about creative habits we may have formed during the past few months and committing to sticking to them. This was also the exercise for the week.

The final week of this I was mostly in self isolation due to a persistent dry cough, so I went out for walks at Wanstead Flats on a daily basis (in the UK at the moment- we are allowed outside once a day for exercise- we can also go out for essential shopping or work if you are classed as a key worker). As I was self isolating I couldn’t go anywhere else so I was (and still am) very grateful we have an open nature space so close by. For the Artist date I just spent time listening to music. I did my morning pages daily and wrote a few blogs, so inspired, but didn’t write any poetry.

Overall- I’m really pleased I decided to focus on doing this ‘challenge’ the last few months as it has been so helpful for me. I read back on all the morning pages today and I can see how they made me feel clearer as I released emotions in those pages so ready to face the day, but also I can see a clear arc of myself over the period of 3 months, which ended up actually in a subtle way charting the gradual fear/anxiety developing in the world regarding Covid 19. After a long period of not many poems at all (with at least a few months in between) I don’t know how but somehow the small exercises each week must have woke up something in me because over the last 3 months I managed to write 10 poems! That’s almost 1 a week!

So thank you Mookychick

for bringing this course/program to my attention and now I’m looking forward to at some point reading the book they based their posts on ‘Dowsing for Water’ by Julia Cameron.

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Wash Your Aura! (Spiritual Hygiene)

So we know the world is rather surreal at the moment with pretty much everyone in lockdown. I am sure the vast majority of us are doing our best to maintain the advice given of washing our hands regularly, and taking sensible precautions, social distancing etc. Hygiene is more important now than ever. The fact that we’re being asked continually to wash our hands is interesting in a spiritual sense in itself. Why? Because we are bringing a lot of focus to the element of water (which I wrote a bit about in a recent post). The element of cleansing, purification. It seems to be many the world is in a process of a major cleansing. You just have to see the photos of clearer rivers and wild animals appearing in urban settings, to see the Earth is beginning to cleanse itself. I know myself and many others believe there may be a bigger cleanse to come, just knowing what that might look like is not clear yet. But it feels like once this has passed there will be a new beginning, and things won’t be the same again. That this is the storm, and once the storm has passed the skies will feel fresh and clear.

Anyway, what has come up strongly for me in this time, is that we not only need to be maintaining our physical hygiene, but our spiritual hygiene. There is a lot of emotions flying around right now- fear, anxiety, uncertainty and beyond.  Tensions are running high as we all adjust to a new way of living. Especially if you are an empathic healer like myself, then you will be picking up on those emotions, and it can be harder now to detect what emotions are yours, and what are someone else’s. And the emotions are amplified! We need to protect ourselves and take measures to help us to stay in our centres. Yes, we will get knocked down now and again, but the more we practice our spiritual hygiene, the easier it will be to come back to our centre. We can build ourselves up like the phoenix, so that we may rise with every fall, building strength each time.

So many of you may already have ways you use to help you maintain your centre- you don’t need to be a healer to practice spiritual hygiene. Here are my suggestions that may help bring you protection and cleanse yourself – mind and spirit. For all-not just healers! Have a look for ideas, maybe you can think of others, hopefully some will resonate for you if you’re not sure where to start.

  1. Daily Smudging- you can use sage, frankincense, copal, ethically sourced palo santo, even an incense stick if that’s all you have/can get. Use the smoke to cleanse yourself from negative energies. You could also use Sweetgrass to bring in positive energy afterwards.
  2. if you have Aqua de Florida- use this regularly to cleanse your auric field, bonus- it contains a high percentage of alcohol so will also help to kill germs!
  3. have a hot bath- for protection you can add bath salts (or even regular salt)! or essential oils with protective properties like clove, cedarwood and black pepper. (just a few drops so not too overpowering)
  4.  every morning use your imagination to imagine putting on a cloak of protection, or you can envision yourself in a protective bubble, or a mirror deflecting the bad energy off
  5. chants- you could make one of your own or you can find many protection ones online. I particularly like this one from the Isis Oracle Deck:  Pillar of light burning bright, earth star below, soul star above, burn away all that is not light, transform all into unconditional love, star of Isis descend, your blessing and peace without end, grace me now with peace and protection, completely embraced by divine perfection
  6. crystals! Carrying them with you or wearing them as necklaces etc- particularly good protective stones include- black tourmaline, obsidian, and I am also finding Carnelian and Amber really helpful too
  7. staying connected even when apart- take part in online circles, zoom chats, community online events. This will help you feel centered, knowing you can still enjoy communication with others, and sometimes learn new things, or meet new friends, who might not even be in the same part of the world as you.
  8. meditation- there are many forms of meditation- you don’t have to be able to empty your mind! You can even just focus on your breath for 5 minutes.
  9.  Prayer- to whoever/whatever you believe in
  10. going into nature- we’re able to do this still, which I am very grateful for! Just being with the new flowers, and the blossoming trees makes me feel better very quickly
  11. resting- rest when you need to, slow down, we’re always going fast fast fast, make time for yourself to rest
  12. light a candle and watch the flame dance, you can add more to this if you want, saying a prayer, some of the other suggestions also could be done the same time
  13. taking essences such as Bach Rescue Remedy if you are able to get- for calming
  14. Herbal teas- Camomile tea, rose tea, valerian for help sleeping
  15. spend time with pets
  16. shake it off!! Have a good shake and imagine everything falling off you
  17.  Connect with oracle cards- Messages from the Sacred Rebels Deck has been particularly helpful for me.
  18. Scream. cry, make space for yourself to release emotions you’re feeling. Let them out and let them go
  19. Smile, laugh, sing, dance- then do something you enjoy- watch a funny film, listen to your favourite music, anything that lifts you
  20. Be gentle on yourself. You don’t have to start a new project or learn something new TODAY. Follow your own personal rhythms.

 

Please comment any other suggestions you have!

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Poetry Dowsing Week Seven

Note: This follows on from a series of blogs I’ve been writing. following my progress of a creative course I am taking part in. If you haven’t been reading my previous blogs and are interested to know what it is I’m doing, please read my first blog about it here

The focus for Week Seven was ‘Uncovering a Sense of Resilience’. So this week when I felt I was failing or not doing so good, I would have to remember dark/hard times I’ve managed to get through in the past. To remember my own strength to overcome fear, stress, pain etc.

For the ‘Dowsing’ Exercise this week, we had to think of those who we turn to for support when we need them. Then think of qualities and traits those people have that you appreciate. Remembering this list when things get tough. I have a lot of friends but not many I have really close friendships with, and no one at this time I would consider a ‘best friend’ (I did have but sadly I recently had to let go of that relationship) but there are people I do feel I can talk to, that’s a good thing of being part of a larger shamanic community. As we’re all going through the same process (in our case of the Peruvian medicine wheel), we tend to support each other when it’s needed. My supportive friends are from this community and the Moon Mother community, also the wider spiritual community. I appreciate friends who listen as well as talk, who are patient, understanding and kind.

The walk this week was in nature briefly with a friend yesterday, I went to visit her in her area to give her some help with job hunting, she knew I was feeling a bit low, so before getting to the work bit, we had a walk in a nearby National Trust site with a lovely flowing river and plenty of trees, and both talked out things that were on our mind.

My artist date was listening to music, and I did the morning pages everyday although I almost didn’t yesterday, but in the end I just did them later in the morning than usual.

I managed to write two poems this week, the first one I’m really pleased with, the second I’m only sharing on this blog for now as it feels very vulnerable and exposing for me.

Dancing with my shadow 💙
I see the side of me that’s been hidden
Hidden in the dark
Out of sight out of mind
Locked up emotions
Not to be acknowledged
It’s not ladylike to be angry
She never says anything
We can walk all over her
But the shadow and I now dance
A dance to embrace it all
A salsa and a tango
With a side of ballroom to go
We dance step by step
The shadow and the light
Acknowledging all that is
Becoming whole
Seeing the truth of who I am
A real and vulnerable soul
Can’t always be good
Can’t always be bad
Just have to to be complete
Forever dancing with my shadow 💙
Dancing for all eternity
Becoming true and free
Dancing with my shadow 💙
Because it’s the best way to be
To navigate this jungle of illusion we call life
No need to fear
Otorongo is on our side
She’s got my back
As I dance with my shadow 💙
Twirling round and round
The journey never ends
The wheel ever turning
Bringing me back to my self

2nd Poem
I feel like I’m falling falling
into a trap
of my own self creation
putting the blinkers on
Not seeing the truth
Hiding from what’s inside
Falling Falling
Into a rhythm
Of emotional breakdowns
Puncuated by Breakthroughs
I want to be strong
but sometimes I am weak
Knowing what to do
but blocking myself.
I need your help
Can’t you see
I know it’s all about me
But please help me to be free
Help me to find the key
of understanding life’s emotional rollercoaster
sometimes not even knowing
what it’s all about
I need to find my own feet
and sleep so deep
That I can wake up as a new born
Seeing life for the first time
For the first time
for what it truly is
Remembering all there is now
Joy is not found in the past or the future
Time to live in the present
It takes time to be truly alive
Now I know the secret
The falling’s not so hard
and just a part of this beautiful mess called life
Thank you for catching me
Holding me when I’ve needed it the most
A solid foundation is what we have
underneath the occassional tremor
We know what we have is true
No matter what
I will hold space for you
as you hold it for me
Together we watch the wheel turn
even when we’re not facing in the same direction
we’re heading for the same destination
the heart is stronger than the head
Let’s hold each other tight
we’ll soon forget the fight
no need to be afraid
our souls are tied like a braid
I feel like I’m falling falling
this time in deeper love with you.

 

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Poetry Dowsing Week 6

*Please note this follows on from my previous blogs about a creative program I am following. You can read more about the project by reading my blog about Week One

The theme for this week was ‘Uncovering a sense of resolve’, focusing on our creative work. With the suggestion that if we can be so easily distracted by small things taking us off track, then maybe small steps can also put us back on track. With this in mind, I revisited my book, to see how far I have actually got, and remind myself of what I have wrote so far. My book is a collection of short stories based on my own personal spiritual experiences through journeying and other methods. So I’ve been starting to look back through my notebooks, to find ideas for the next stories to write. I haven’t wrote another story for it yet, but at least I have started looking again, and remembering that my book even exists lol

For the exercise this week we needed to look around our neighbourhood and note 5 things that are interesting about it, as if we were going to write a poem based on it. I found this quite easy, as I love to look for things in the world around me and I have been told that I am good and seeing messages from the everyday world. Then if we felt inspired we could write a poem using at least 3 of those details. I managed to write one, which is about a pigeon I see nearby on a daily basis almost, the pigeon is the most brown pigeon I’ve ever seen, she’s so recognizable I’ve named her Henrietta (although I am assuming it’s a she)! I’ll share the poem at the end of this post.

The weather has been awful recently with a lot of storms. So I haven’t really been able to go for a walk in nature, but yesterday we went to Brick Lane to celebrate Valentine’s Day, so we had a walk around there. It was much quieter than usual and the market wasn’t present sadly due to the storm, but I still love walking around that area, soaking it in. I love the quirky vibe and the street art. There also seemed to be something going on for London Fashion Week, so there were some interesting fashion types walking about as well.

For my artist date this week I thought of last week’s exercise which I hadn’t managed to do. I didn’t do a binge watch, but I sat and watched the final episode of a series that really makes me laugh- the IT Crowd. and laugh I did 🙂

I also did my morning pages everyday.

The poem that I wrote:

Every day when I step out of my bright pink door
I walk towards the bridge
And I see my pigeon friends having a feast
From a mysterious stranger I’ve never seen
But one pigeon stands out the most
I’ve named her Henrietta
She’s the brownest pigeon of Forest gate
Henrietta, leader of the gang
Guardians of the arches
Feathered messengers gathering
Under her watchful eye
As they eat their sacred offerings
In exchange for their protection
Keeping the darkened corners safe.

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Poetry Dowsing Week Five

*Note: This follows on from my previous blogs about Week, 1, 2, 3 and 4. To read more about the creative self care program I am taking part in, see my first post here

After a very successful week last week (two poems written, artist date and walk completed), this week wasn’t quite as successful, but I am reminding myself that this program is about self care as well as creativity, so working hard not to beat myself up about not completing everything.

The theme for this week was ‘Uncovering a Sense of Autonomy’, to be honest I’d heard the word before but didn’t really know what it meant. It was explained that it’s about making your own decisions, not letting others influence them. In thinking about this subject, I realised that this is actually a really difficult one for me. I’m really bad at making decisions and I often leave them to other people. I’m embarassed to admit that (and it’s the first time I am really admitting it out loud, as I have tried to cover it up for a long time) that I formed an addiction to using a pendulum. And I was using it for some really silly things as well. This year one of my intentions was to stop using it for this purpose and am pleased to say apart from a few days at the beginning of the year, I have kept it a bit out of sight, and have managed not to use it, but the temptation is there often. But not only in this way, in so many ways and I didn’t realise how much of a problem I have with this until I started thinking about this deeply. So this subject was good for me to have those realisations and start making moves to heal this indecisiveness within.

The exercise was a really fun one, to ‘binge watch’ either comedy films, or a series, as long as it was funny. Unfortunely, I didn’t get round to doing this, but I am planning to do this on another occassion, hopefully this week.

My walk was another forced one, as yesterday the trains were having engineering works again, so I had to walk to the bus stop (which is further away than the train station) in the almighty winds and rain as I had to work and then on the way home as well.

My artist date this week was reading again, this time reading in a nice hot bath.

I managed my Morning Pages everyday again even when I left them last minute, I still managed to do them. No poems this week. I guess the main learning from this week/success, was identifying my autonomy issue and now taking the steps to work on this.

 

 

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Imbolc and Air

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Since I have relaunched this blog, I/ my ‘brand’? have worked with the wheel of the year and the elements. So far we had Samhain, when we started working with the element of fire, and then from Winter Solstice we worked with Earth. The work has been through my social media channels, my women’s circle and also within my own life. For the fire season we had a fire ceremony in the women’s circle- and the fire was sparking within y own life, for Earth season we worked with flowers and I have to say the season since Winter Solstice has been very grounding for me- a lot of changes in my life like moving house and moving stores for my job. I also worked with the earth medicine Cacao.

Yesterday the wheel turned again, and we have now fallen into the Imbolc season. Imbolc is the Goddess Brigid’s day. Brigid is the Goddess of all creative endeavours and the keeper of the sacred flame. I have had some very powerful experiences with this Goddess, I experienced a vision of her rebirthing me on the top of the Tor in Glastonbury, and last year I went to several of her sacred sites in Ireland. So she is a special goddess for me.

Imbolc is the halfway point between the Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox. It’s a celebration of spring beginning and all the new life that is starting to emerge.

My chosen element for this season between now and the Spring Equinox is Air. I associate air with creativity, but there’s also something about this time of year that is refreshing, as we start to settle into the year, and the sun is starting to come out a bit more. Air brings clarity and clears our head!

We’re just choosing a date for the next circle at the moment in the next week or so, we are very likely to work with incenses, but I’m still thinking of ideas at the moment!

Thanks very much for the recent likes on my blog they’re all really appreciated! I’d love to read your thoughts on anything I post, so please leave comments and say hi!

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Poetry Dowsing Week Two

Following on from my blog about Week One (you can read the full description of what I’m doing in that post)

Here’s my brief post about Week Two of the process.

Week Two was about ‘Uncovering a Sense of Reality’ it did feel a bit like that, as the week fell just as we had moved into a new house, so a lot of the week was spent sorting out our stuff, and also getting used to the area and all those very grounded things.

The task was to think about our ‘Inner Censor’ that voice in your head that stops you from your creative work as it’s not good enough etc, and to turn it into something really silly, by drawing a picture of what it would look like (I’m using it here as not to personify it)! and finding an image in a magazine to represent it. I drew a very unartistic cartoon and find an image of an angry/critical looking woman to represent the Inner Censor. (which I now can’t find so that’s a good thing right)?

As I was still in awkward circumstances (what with having just moved) for my walk I had a walk to see what the local shops were, although having said that we now have a lovely wide open space called Wanstead Flats near by and during that week I went for a short walk there and a longer walk, which was lovely- saw squirrels, parakeets, a robin and a lake filled with geese, swans and moorhens.

I had to do an amended artist date again, so once again I didn’t get to go out to do one, but I spent time learning about the life of P.B Shelley, the writer of some of my favourite poetry and he turned out to have a very interesting life, sadly drowning at the age of 29.

Sadly I didn’t write any poetry last week but I managed to do my morning pages daily as well as all of the above.

 

 

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Poetry Dowsing Week One

Last year I spent a lot of time joining various ‘challenges’ from Instagram, various websites I get emails from, Facebook etc. However I found that I was joining a lot of them, but a lot of the time not actually taking fully part in any of them. So one of my intentions I set for this year that I would stop spreading myself so thin and still join challenges etc that called, but just ONE at a time and fully focus on that one. So in December last year I saw that one of my favourite websites that isn’t social media Mookychick had an article up saying about a course/program for 12 weeks starting in January, that would be focusing on self care and filling our ‘creative well’, it resonated loudly and I knew this would be the first one of the year. As one of my other intentions of the year was to get a bit more back in touch with my creative side as well.

The course is called ‘Poetry Dowsing’ and is based on a book by Julia Cameron called ‘Finding Water’ , I haven’t read this particular book but have read other books by her and loved them. The good thing is Mookychick have made the course as such that it’s helpful if you have the book but you don’t have to have it. I don’t have it although I make a purchase later as I’m interested to read.

The premise is pretty simple. Each of the 12 weeks has a theme and an associated exercise. In each week you also do creative self care activities that Julia Cameron recommends (also in her book The Artist’s Way, which I have read several times). So everyday you do something called Morning Pages. Each morning you write 3 pages, of just whatever comes out basically. It works as a ‘brain dump’ if you like, kind of a release each morning before you settle into the rhythm of the day. This isn’t perfect writing by all means. It’s not even recommended you read them until the end of the 12 weeks. You also have at least one walk a week, wherever you like, for at least 30 minutes. The other thing is an ‘artist date’ once a week, you take yourself on a date once a week, doesn’t have to necessarily be creative but something that will bring you joy and potentially inspiration. Mookychick have kindly made some adjustments to these practices to be more inclusive, like mindfulness meditation instead of a walk if that’s not possible for you.

The first week was about Optimism. The task was to look for 5 beautiful things around you that week even if they were simple. The first week I was in the middle of moving house so it was quite difficult, but my 5 things were: the full moon, a white rose bouquet being carried on the tube, flowers in Morrisons, a little yellow flower outside a tall building and I saw a heart chalkboard that had been thrown into the rubbish outside a block of flats and found it beautiful somehow:

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That week for my walk I simply walked to the nearby train station and back, and for my ‘date’- I had no time to go out of my own for anything so I made one of the adjustments suggested and simply looked through the Instagram of an artist I enjoy called Jessica Perlstein.

I thought there was something poetic about the heart in the bin, so already I had found some poetry with the ‘dowsing’! Here it is: (I shared this previous post as well but here it is again anyway)!

The heart cannot be thrown away
With all it’s marks and damage
You can try to ignore it
But the heart is solid
And will not simply go away
The heartbeat is always there ❤️
No matter how much your heart is breaking 💔
The heart is keeping you alive
Even when you feel like you’re dying inside
The beat goes on
In an eternal rhythm
Inside your heart
There is always hope
Hope for another day
The heart knows you will find another way
The heart cannot be thrown away
Whatever abuse you’ve suffered
The heart only knows love
And will love you no matter what
So trust the rhythm of your heart
Know that the clouds will pass
Even if it takes some time
Just listen to your heart
Beating no matter what happens
You cannot throw the heart away

I’m pretty proud of it! and looking forward to seeing any other inspiration that comes my way. I’m about midway through week 2 now, I will try to keep a record on here of how I’m getting on each week. If you fancy joining take a look here at the initial post on Mookychick. If you use Twitter they are sharing using hashtag #poetrydowsing I’m not on Twitter so just sharing any work here, Facebook and Instagram.

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Full Moon Taurus

Tonight in the UK it’s the Full Moon and astrologically it’s sitting in Taurus, the Earth sign of the Bull. Taurus is grounded, determined, strong and embodied.

This moon is calling for us to be embodied like the bull. While it’s true we are spiritual beings in a human body, it’s not just about being the Spiritual Being. It’s also remembering our human body as well. This body is our vessel, without it we wouldn’t be able to do all the things we do in our day to day life. We need to remember to take care of it as well as our souls. As I write this I am experiencing a cold, my body calling for rest. I have not made much time to rest recently so my body is now experiencing illness so that I will listen to it!

What is your body trying to tell you? What pains are you experiencing? This Full Moon will really highlight this for you.

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