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Witches New Year 2018

Slightly delayed post this year but with good reason, I’ve moved house!

Long term regular readers will know that as I am pagan, October 31st is extra special  to me as it’s the season of Samhain, which is all about honouring the ancestors but is also Witches New Year! So I set my main intentions for the year in October and then usually add a few more on January 1st. It’s been an amazing year with some big ups and some bigs downs. I carried on with my Shamanic medicine wheel training, I have now moved onto the West of the medicine wheel which is about facing your fears and stepping into your power, I did my Moon Mother Level 2 in Glastonbury (at last, I went)!and had some amazing experiences there which really heightened my connection to the Goddess. I had a big spiritual rebirth there which did lead me to having a bit of an emotional breakdown, but once I got through it I felt sooo much better! I went to Red Tent Rayleigh regularly which was brilliant, did ecstatic dance and for a while went to a witchy circle as well. It ended with us moving, as we moved on 1st November, what divine timing! We had intended to move to London for quite some time and it has finally happened. We now live near Canning Town in a houseshare with 4 other people and we are loving it so far.

The goals I had set for last year were:

to be empowered in all areas of my life- did feel quite empowered through doing my medicine wheel training and also when I went to Glastonbury as it was the first time I went away on my own and sorted out my own travel and my own air bnb etc.

to be more visible- as mentioned I went to a few groups etc regularly which made a massive difference, especially Red Tent as through that I made some new friends, had new experiences, started going to ecstatic dance and had sessions with a life coach.

to create new beginnings- yes! Right at end, we moved to a whole other county!

to let go more and allow flow into my life- eventually! after having the breakdown I finally let of writing so many lists and putting so much pressure on myself, and look what’s happened since!

My intentions for this new wheel of the year are

1. To build up my reputation as a healer, so I can head in the direction of being able to be self employed. Hopefully by moving to London this will be much more possible now.#

2. To start a new women’s circle in London

3. To do my Moon Mother Level 3 in Ireland in July.

4. To spend more time with people I love and doing things I love

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Gratitude

The wheel of the year has turned and we are now into the energy of Mabon, the Autumn Equinox. Here in the UK, the weather has turned darker, the leaves are falling, the winds are blowing and the rain is falling.

At this time, we pause to reflect on all we have achieved over the year and be thankful for everything we have in our lives. If you don’t already do one, a great practice to start is a gratitude list, this can be as long or short as you like, I like to write two things down every day that I’m grateful for, others do 3, and if you are feeling extra grateful you might even like to do 10! Remembering what we have is a good way to take the attention away from the things we don’t have, which is something pretty much everyone is guilty of at some point. It can bring even a tiny glimmer of hope on a gloomy day just to remember for a few moments that it’s not all bad.

Most of you reading this, will either have a laptop, a computer, or maybe wifi on a phone, or maybe access to the internet through a library or an internet cafe. Most of us have got a roof over our heads, with access to drinking water, and possibly heating, electric, t.v, food in our fridges/freezers, and that’s a great start! You probably have a bed to sleep in a night and access to a toilet. Maybe also family, maybe friends, maybe a job, maybe a partner.

What I am grateful for right now?

I am grateful for my healing journey that has been accelerated by walking the shamanic medicine wheel path. This year I have really started to accept myself fully instead of thinking I need to be more like others, that I need to fix myself, I’ve started to see what’s great about me and love myself more, not comparing and despairing anymore. I’ve started to see that nearly all of us are thinking we are not “good enough” so actually all of us are going round trying to be like others, when they are probably trying to be more like us! So we might as well just be ourselves.

I am grateful for the amazing connection with the Goddess I have formed this year, it has never been so strong. For the first time without me trying, Goddesses have come to me! I got guided to Ishtar through a journey, Sekmet came to me in a dream, a deck of Isis cards came to me, I finally got to go to Glastonbury, a dream of mine for a long time and while I was there Brigid rebirthed me on the Tor, and I also had an encounter with Mary Magdalen.

I got to complete my level 2 Moon Mother training in Glastonbury, made some wonderful friends. I finally got to do part 2 of my South shamanic training and learnt an incredible healing called the Illumination.

I had a breakdown but it led to massive breakthrough. I reawakened my inner child and have fell in love with myself again.

Thank you Goddess, thank you God, thank you Spirit, thank you to all those in my life.

I love you. Thank you, thank you, Thank you!

 

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New moon musings

I usually record a video but once again I am not well prepared and have got my information on the day of the new moon! And first chance I have to share and it’s late evening now!

New moon energy lasts a few days though so will post anyway.

So today it’s a new moon and solar eclipse in leo. It’s time to shine! This moon is shining a light on your goals. Showing you what you still need to do, what loose ends you need to tie up, pushing you to deal with it.  The moon is calling on you to focus on what you want to achieve. Nagging you to do something but also acknowledging you and rewarding you for the steps you have already taken.

Time to be confident in yourself and roar a mighty roar!

The card I picked for this new moon was the crystal healing card : celestite-connection. Highlighting what connections you have to help you manifest. Who in your life is supporting you? Who do you need to let go of? Who can help you move forward with your goals? Also reminding you of your spiritual connection…utilize this magical portal in the next few days, positive energy is available to you

Aho!

 

 

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Self Love

Self love is a term we often hear bandied about these days, yes we need to love ourselves more, but how exactly do we give ourselves self love, and what is it? Is it through affirmations, yoga, meditation? Or is it through getting massages, face masks, writing positive messages on the mirror to read in the morning before we walk out the door?

Self love can be many things and that is why maybe it is the hardest thing that’s possible to do, even when you read every magazine article and like every self love quote meme going around Facebook and Instagram, and yet still we are not loving ourselves fully.

Most of us live in a cloud of judgement, this judgement is actually created by ourselves. From a young age we take in every belief from everything around us, from the media, teachers/school, family, friends, everything. If we get told we’re useless enough times we’ll soon believe it. Then this manifests into high standards we have created for ourselves to make ourselves “good enough”. The truth is we are enough.

This is why self love is possibly the hardest hurdle for most of us on our healing journey. As it means we have to let go of every negative thing we have ever been told about ourselves, including our own self talk which is probably the worst of them all. It means fully accepting yourself as you are. It means honouring your own choices without anything else taking you away from your personal truth. It means setting boundaries and keeping them.

Self love is almost a contradiction which is why it can’t necessarily be resolved with a few positive affirmations or a once a month pamper session.  As it also means knowing that you will sometimes fall down, that sometimes you will struggle. But also being in a place of acceptance that you are able to feel the emotions and acknowledge them, but not let them rule you.

It means eating healthily and in the right way for your body, but also not denying yourself when you want chocolate/caffeine/sugar! It means moving your body, but also sometimes just laying about doing nothing.  It means getting out there, but also going within. It’s working towards your goals, but also taking downtime.

It’s knowing that no one and nothing is perfect. Loving yourself is loving all of you and that’s a hard thing to do. But we can do it! ❤

 

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May 2018

wow I think this is probably the latest I’ve ever posted a monthly blog! Because I have been so busy! But I will try to think back to how the month of May panned out..

goals and Intentions

Love, Prosperity and Energy- a bit of all these things in various ways 🙂

take my healing work to the next level- helped with a Munay Ki session by giving the 13th rite – the rite of the womb to the women, hosted a really good women’s circle and also started seeing a life coach which has been really beneficial for me.

to be more empowered in more areas of my life- being making a lot of changes thanks to the help of my coach.

to be more visible- attended a few events and held some

create new beginnings- we created a manifestation grid and altar with our new home vision board on it

to let go and allow flow more- really getting there now

what I got up to:

went to the witchy circle I’ve been going to, but started to have the feeling that maybe it’s not for me…

visited my friend Roberta at her lovely new home

went to Munay Ki Part 3 initation

went to Rayleigh Red Tent where my friend Stella taught us about making a special cacao elixir

hosted an amazing full moon women’s circle with a few new people as well, it was really magical!

and ended the month trying out ecstatic dance for the first time and loved it!

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April 2018

Somehow already a week of May has been and gone in the blink of an eye and I haven’t wrote my blog about April yet! so here is my monthly tracker of how I did with my goals and intentions for the year during April.

My words for the year are: Love, Energy and Prosperity. done things towards all of those but nothing new to add here really or anything that stands out that happened.

specific intentions:

take my healing work to the next level- I went along to another South Part 1 medicine wheel training, I’ve already done part 1 so I came to shadow the teaching, I did get to gift the Harmony Rite of the Munay Ki to some of the students as well. I also had a mad experience with a past life journey I did where I felt all the emotions of letting it go..it was really intense and a little scary!

to be more empowered in more areas of my life- not sure anything specific

to be more visible- attended quite a few things

create new beginnings- paid some more of debts that need to be cleared before we can move.

to let go and allow flow more- I’m getting better at it!

and what I got up during April:

went to the south training I mentioned and had a really powerful weekend realising how much I’ve changed and developed over the last 6 months, plus I got to walk the labyrinth for the third time! (and every time is different)

had a visit from my friend Rae which was nice.

went to Miguel’s current shamanic group as they did an activity we didn’t do when I did the course which was a past life journey, it was very strong and epic.

went to a moot where Gareth was doing a talk about shamanism. I won a whole tub of crystals on the raffle so I was really happy, can’t believe someone had been that generous.

went to Red Tent Rayleigh which was run by Tania and Juliette this month and we did a coaching style exercise which was really powerful and felt great afterwards. I look forward to this every month now.

I started a new women’s circle in Southend again while I am still here and happy to say it filled up, I limited to 4 spaces but ended up having 5 people. we are going to be meeting on full moons. For the first one we took part in the Worldwide womb blessing and it was beautiful!

 

 

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March 2018

Another Month gone, so how did I get on with my focus and intentions for the year during March?

Love/Energy/Prosperity- carried on with the energy things I started doing (vitamins, more water etc), prosperity I actually managed to raise enough to do my Advanced Moon Mother training this year through my crowdfunding page but also by my own saving, so not only have I paid a deposit, I’ve also booked a room!

healing work to the next level- see above! So in June I’m going to Glastonbury to do Level 2 of my Moon Mother training! I’m really excited, as not only am I doing the next part of my training, I’ve never been to Glastonbury and I’ve also wanted to go, (I’m going a day early and leaving a day late so hopefully I get a chance to see some of it)! and I’m also going away for the first time on my own so scary and exciting.

to be more empowered in more areas of my life- just goes back to the moon mother thing really for March as I did set an intent and managed to do it!

to be more visible- did a few social things

to create new beginnings- nothing specific yet

to let go and allow flow more- every week it’s getting easier..

what I actually got up to in March:

went to my monthly witchy circle, my favourite yet, as not only did we celebrate spring equinox, we took part in a ceremony called a blessingway for one of the sisters who is pregnant, so a blessing for her basically. We could all paint symbols on her belly, and each got a candle to light when she goes into labour, and a bracelet that we cut when the baby is born to represent the umbllicol cord being cut, and we all wrote positive messages for her, and some of her friends read poems, it was really beautiful and very special.

I held a small circle for women’s day (not on the exact day but that week) with just two women but it was really powerful with some very deep sharing 🙂

did a womb blessing for someone

went to Red Tent Rayleigh, had a great evening doing partner yoga and yoga nidra.

There was a special event at AHO studio where we do a lot of our London work, a well known shaman came to do a blessing on the studio and on London and it was all filmed, and we took part.  you can watch it here- https://www.facebook.com/daren.ellis.1969/videos/10156253147798767/?fref=mentions

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Hormone Helps and Handy Resources

About a year ago now as some of my regular readers will know, I gave up the contraceptive pill, because I wanted to live by my natural cycle rather than an artificial one and felt after over 10 years of being on it that it was time for me to come off! (This is a personal choice for all women, and whilst I would urge you to go other routes if possible, I am also aware for some women this may be helping them a great deal and I hold no judgement for this, every woman is different after all)! So in the last year it has been a great learning curve as I get to know my body and learn how it all works! So I wanted to share for those women who may be thinking of doing the same, or just want some advice for balancing hormones/working with cycles, things I’ve used that I’ve found helpful and books/websites that have been useful for me.

Food/Supplements

Maca Powder- maca is a Peruvian root that has many benefits including hormone balancing, but also helps energy, mood and is rich in antioxidants. I started using this as a lot of the hormone balancing supplements I found to be quite expensive (Evening Primrose Oil etc) and even though Maca can be as well, I found it in The Grapetree to be pretty reasonably priced. It also helped I like the taste of it! I know not everyone does but I love it. I’d say it tastes a bit like digestive biscuit! I mix two teapoons in with my oats in the morning, and occasionally  I put in with my hot cacao (chocolate digestive drink)! or make a Maca drink rather than a coffee. I’ve also used it in capsule form. I’ve personally found that my periods have been much more regular when I’ve been taking it then when I haven’t been taking it. I was very lucky that my first few natural periods were not a lot longer than my 28 day pill cycles. (I’ve had longer cycles too but I wasn’t taking as much Maca in those times). So not sure if a coincidence but it seems to work for me, and I like the taste so I don’t mind!!

Magnesium and B Vitamins- I recommend these to all as there are so many benefits to these two anyway, but they are particularly helpful in this area for stress you may get from PMS and a Magnesium salt bath is really relaxing!

Books

Love Your Lady Landscape by Lisa Lister– really down to earth book about getting to know your lady parts, building a loving relationship with it and working with your cycles.

Red Moon by Miranda Gray– the book that begun my journey! This is more a spiritual book about our connection to our cycles and the female archetypes.

Female Energy Awakening by Miranda Gray– a lot about womb blessings, but also has a really good 28 day activity process which is great for working with your cycle and honouring it how it should be.

Websites

Red School

Nicole Jardim

hope this helps!

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