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Radar Love- July 2016

Wow, this year is going to fast, can’t believe we are in August already! (and the sky outside today isn’t convincing me either) So time for another update of what I’ve been up to, July was a good month. But first how I did with my goals and intentions for the year..

KNOWLEDGE- since I got the nature finder app during 30 Days wild in June, I’ve been identifying wildlife and flowers regularly, I love it!

HEALTH- not been so good this month, as I started working in Rayleigh in July, I can’t walk to work anymore. I’ve done a few walks but not as much.

MAGIC- nothing specific I can think of

SELF CARE- I’m adapting to full time hours again, so haven’t been always been keeping to plans I’ve made because of tiredness.

To heighten my spiritual work- had one client, and also did some free readings on our business page on the full moon as it’s good practice.

To get to Peru- not there yet!

To honour the seasons and the moon- did usual new moon and full moon things. Lammas is today but I went to a ritual for it on Saturday.

To cook more- still haven’t!

go to Yoga classes- didn’t go to any in July, my work hours at the moment haven’t allowed me to😦

walk more often- got less as mentioned before

not to be affected by other people’s stories- been ok with this I think

have no expectations- mostly ok with this too

manifestation skills- started my promotion a week earlier than planned!

WHAT I GOT UP TO

I had a belated birthday party as a lot of people couldn’t come on my actual birthday and Migs was away that weekend. I had a rainbow/80’s theme, there was only a few of us but it was really fun, we did 80s karaoke!  We were all completely sober too, lol!

I went to a Southend Vegans (a facebook group I’m on) meet up at The Railway Hotel, met some lovely new people but also knew a lot of people there too and everyone was super nice.

Started my job at Rayleigh a week earlier than planned as they were so desperate for staff! So it was all very sudden! I had to move a few plans about, as I now work Saturdays instead of Sundays.

I had a leaving drinks meet up (a week after I left because of all the sudden-ness of it) It was a fun night

I had my circle but as I had to move the day, there was only two of us. It was still nice though as we went to Priory Park and the theme was nature. It was a really warm day too.

I went to a poetry day at a community allotment my friend Fiona is involved with. It was another beautiful day spent with friends and nature.

I went to a Lammas ritual hosted by members of the local pagan moot I occasionally attend.

Busier month and I’m excited about this month too- got a fire ceremony tonight, away at the weekend, wedding anniversary coming up and other fun things too- yay🙂

POEMS

my poems everyday for a year thing isn’t going great, I didn’t write any I was happy with or even bits of poems last month but I think I had a few this month so will put them here..haven’t felt inspired by the prompts lately.

Poem 1- Apology

I’d like to apologise on behalf of the human race

That we’re destroying the planet at an incredible pace

I’m so sorry for all the trees chopped down

All the pollution gives me a frown

I’m so sorry that there is animal abuse

and I’m sorry people’s ethics are so loose

I’d like to apologise on behalf of the human race

before the world disappears without a trace…

Poem 2- Reasons to be happy (unfinished)

Because the sun is shining today

because ultimately it will all be okay

Because worrying is a waste of time

Because I’m making the effort to make this rhyme

Because the birds are singing a beautiful song

Because it’s better than focusing on what’s wrong..

Poem 3 (unfinished)

Why are you alone?

Do you wish to be on your own?

Or are you lonely, staring out to sea?

I’m here contemplating life’s journey

Shall I row on or shall I stop and admire the view?

Poem 4

She fell into a forest
Head first, into the trees
for miles she could see
an everlasting trail
of what could ever be
fragile existence of life
untouched yet disturbed
by humanity’s deep disgrace
a truth we must learn to face
by looking within
only then will we know our deepest sin

 

 

 

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Essex Pig Save

 

I heard about ‘Pig Save’ through a friend who posted about it on social media. Intrigued, I wanted to know more. On the event I found on Facebook, it immediately drew me in. The idea was to go to slaughterhouses, hopefully stop the vans for a few minutes, provide comfort to the pigs either by giving water or/and a little love, but also to document what the reality really looks like by capturing them on film and photos which can then be shared widely to try to spread awareness. I’ve been to protests many times but not any as direct as this one. Part of what made me want to take part was they described it as a ‘love based’ approach. So, instead of getting angry (although of course we are), instead just focusing on the pigs. Comfort and awareness are the main aims as I understand it.

I knew it would be quite upsetting to see, but I just knew that I had to do this. The movement originally started in Toronto in 2010. Anita Krajnc, the woman who started it was actually charged for ‘criminal mischief’ for giving water to pigs suffering during a summer heatwave and so the slogan ‘compassion is not a crime’ was created.

The movement started to grow and the first UK based Pig Save was in Manchester. Inspired by this, Essex Pig Save was born.

I didn’t make it to the first event but I was determined I would make it to the 2nd event despite it being a little further afield from me. I liked that on the event they encouraged people that would struggle to get there to post so that lifts could be organised. I posted to say I would need some help getting there and it didn’t take long for a kind soul to offer myself and a few others in a similar area a lift as long as we could get to Rayleigh train station.

On the day I had to get up very early as I needed to be at the station by 7.15am as the vigil started at 8am. (on a Monday morning). I got in the car with 3 other vegan ladies and we made our way to Cheale meats. It didn’t take long to spot the slaughterhouse, as just looking it as we went past it, it looked somewhat creepy and there was a horrible energy about it, and that was before we knew for sure! When we got there we weren’t sure where to park so we tried to park somewhere and a man came out shouting at us until we were told where we could go, just a little more up the road. As where it was, was pretty much near a main road. I had felt okay about it all, but as soon as I had got to Rayleigh I had begun feeling a bit queasy and when we got out of the car I felt really sick and nervous.

It eased my mind a bit when I saw there was quite a few of us (about 20 I think) and a few familiar faces. We stood with placards with an image of a dog and a pig saying ‘why eat one but love the other’. There were two police and the owner just outside of the slaughterhouse. As the events are public on Facebook, they know when we will come. At the first event there were a lot more police but since they saw the group was quite peaceful they obviously realised they didn’t need so many.

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Then it was just a case of waiting for the trucks to arrive. I can’t remember how long it took for the first one to arrive, maybe about an hour. Annoyingly the slats were up so we couldn’t see the pigs. Clearly they had been instructed to do this. There was another one I think after that, again with the slats up. It was pretty frustrating. Then a much smaller van with only a few young pigs rolled in which we could have got to easily. We tried to get it to stop but there was no chance. We had a sign saying ‘Please stop for two minutes. we just want to see the pigs’ which someone would hold so the driver could see and some of us would go round the front to try and get the vans to stop.

With the next one, again the slats were up but a few of us were tall enough to get footage from the upper slat just about this time. I couldn’t see anything and did attempt to film but didn’t get any decent footage. We had been hearing pigs screaming now and again in the distance from the slaughterhouse but with this van just before it went in, we heard a blood curling scream come from the van. It sounded like pure pain. It was horrible. One of my friends I came with started to cry so I gave her a little comfort.

The very last one I saw before we went, finally didn’t have the slats up so I could finally see although I still didn’t manage to catch footage but others did. We only managed to stop it for about 10 seconds as people were stood in front of the truck. It was so brief, but it was just long enough to feel and see the pain. In the moment it all happens so quick so all I could do was shout ‘I’m sorry’ to the pigs as they were driven in to the slaughterhouse.

Our group then had to leave so I didn’t see if there were any more. I didn’t manage to get any footage but lots of others did which show one van where the pigs had so little space they were standing on top of each other and they were dirty, and covered in cuts.

I can’t figure out how to post the videos here but you can see them and the photos on the Facebook Page- https://www.facebook.com/EssexPigSave/

I wrote a poem about my experience:

‘Moment’
Today I heard you scream
I saw the pain in your eyes
I smelt the fear
I tasted blood in the air
I felt your soul
if just for a moment…
it was heartbreaking
but I needed to see
I need to know
I wanted you to see a loving face
if just for a moment…
with no time to think it through
all I could say was “I’m sorry”
I couldn’t stop your fate
but I wanted you to know someone cares
if just for a moment..
maybe one day things will change
but for now all I can give you
is a moment….

 

I’ll be attending again as soon as I can. I don’t know who wouldn’t be affected even just hearing the screams. Please consider cutting meat from your diets. Ideally I’d love you all to go vegan but I know that won’t happen over night so at least take positive steps towards it, make yourself at least aware of what happens to begin with. Think about where your food comes from and how it’s been treated.

 

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Feeling so Bohemian Like You..June 2016

Time for my regular monthly update!

FOCUS AND INTENTIONS UPDATE

KNOWLEDGE (focus on nature)- 30 Days Wild! Look at my previous posts to see what I got up to with this.

HEALTH- been walking every day.

MAGIC- still haven’t done much focus on this

SELF CARE-nothing in addition to what I’ve been doing so far.

To heighten my spiritual work-I saw 2 clients in June and booked one for this month.

To get to Peru- still a long way off (for now)

To honour the seasons and moon-did things on new moon and full moon, but didn’t do anything for Summer Solstice other than change my altar.

To cook more- still nope

go to Yoga classes-went to two during June.

walk more often- been walking every day at least half hour

not to be affected by other people’s stories- not been too bad with this

have no expectations-getting better.

manifestation skills- still lots of meditation, affirmations, prayer etc. Maybe it’s working as I’m changing jobs soon. Staying with Holland and Barrett but moving to the Rayleigh store to be the supervisor🙂 Migs is getting more work in too.

WHAT I GOT UP TO

A friend of mine is doing a Holistic massage course and I got to be a case study for a full body massage!

I went to a ‘Southend Vegans’ meet up which was a picnic at Chalkwell park. Weather turned out lovely and tasty food!

went to the Southend ‘Essex feminist Collective’ meeting which was about the EU. I wasn’t sure about which way I wanted to vote so this really helped.

Helped a friend out with some cleaning of her flat, and got paid for it too!🙂

I went to the Southend Animal Aid meeting for first time in years!

Went to see my mum

Visited my grandad

went out for an early birthday lunch with Miguel as he was working away on the actual day. We went to the Railway and I had gnocchi which was delicious!

For my actual birthday I went with some friends to help out Tower Hill animal sanctuary. We painted a fence for them and got to see some of the animals too! I really connected with the horses there. It was a really nice day.

I went to Essex Pig Save. I’ll be writing a separate blog on this.

It was my women’s circle last night, I had 3 attendees and it was on Unicorn Magic. It was lovely🙂

so starting to be more busy now, now that summer is here!

So July…having a belated birthday get together tonight, got a sealife centre protest planned to go to, my circle and possibly a few other things.

 

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30 Days Wild-Final Week and What I learnt

Day 23

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On Day 23 I looked into becoming what’s known as a citizen scientist. Citizen scientists help provide vital research and there’s lots of nature based projects to be found. I signed up for ‘Birdtrack’ and ‘Nature’s calendar’ I haven’t quite got it all sussed out yet but one is for bird spotting and the other is to record signs of season change.

Day 24

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On day 24, I walked through Churchill gardens on my way to work and tried to ‘spot a mammal’ and I did! Just about managed to catch this cutie before he scurried away!

Day 25

Day 25 was my birthday! and I had a ‘wild’ day! I spent it with some friends helping out Tower Hill Stables/animal sanctuary. We painted a fence for them and also got to spend a little time with the animals too! I really connected with the horses that day. They are sooo beautiful! Throughout the day in travel time I also saw an egret, wild rabbits, a pheasant and some birds of prey!

Day 26

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I had a bit of a ‘chill’ day after such an active day 25. So I decided to see what wildlife I could spot from our back window. I saw seagulls, collared doves, pigeons, sparrows, blackbirds, a few flies, a black cat, crows and magpies! Considering we live near a main road, we do spot some interesting wildlife sometimes. We have seen jays in our car park before! and yesterday my partner saw a Sparrow hawk on our balcony!

Day 27

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on Day 27, I went to my first ‘Essex Pig Save’ vigil. I will probably be writing a blog all about this at some point, but it was outside a local slaughterhouse. The purpose of the vigil is to ‘bear witness’ to the pigs. We hope to stop some of the vans so that for just a moment, we can provide comfort to the pigs but also document it so people can see the reality behind their meat. It was a sad day but important to do and I’ll be doing it again.

Day 28

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Day 28 my random act of wildness was to watch the daisies in the garden to see how they change through the day. The top photo was at 11am and the second was at 7pm.

Day 29

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On day 29 I did some cloud watching. I thought it might be interesting to try to identify the type of cloud. I think this was ‘alto-cumulus’ but not sure!

Day 30

As today was the last day I thought I’d try to squeeze in as many ‘wild’ places as possible! I went to Prittle brook, Growing Together Westcliff Garden, Priory Park and Churchill Gardens. I spotted lots of wild life as you can see!

So before I started 30 days wild I did feel very connected to nature anyway but afterwards I feel even more connected! I started to learn more about the wildlife I see, including more names of things and I did some things I wouldn’t have thought to do before like looking underneath a log and watching where a bumblebee goes! I made even more of a point of going for walks and admiring what’s around me. It has reawakened my passion for activism again too!

This was a wonderful challenge that I’d tell everyone to do. It really helps you to see what magic there is around you and almost everything I did was free!

Now I pledge to Stay Wild and be wild 365 days a year😀

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30 Days Wild Week 3

Day 17

On day 17, I tried to identify bird song. I could hear plenty of it but couldn’t see what birds were making it! The only ones I did identify were the easy ones that I could see which were crows and ducks! I put a video on Instagram and a friend managed to identify a blue tit, black bird, collared dove and sparrows.

Day 18

For day 18, I went to the Southend Animal Aid meeting for the first time in years so it was a day of ‘wild’ planning. I’m going to help at an animal sanctuary this weekend and next week going to a vigil for slaughterhouse pigs.

Day 19

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On day 19, I watched a bumblebee. I watched as it flew flower to flower pollinating. I found interesting that it was ignoring all the daisies, but going to all the white clover instead. (another flower I now know the name of- yay)!

Day 20

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Day 20 was a special day as it was the Summer Solstice AND the full moon! So I did some moon watching. Too difficult to get a good photo of though.

Day 21

DSC_0002Yesterday I re-did my altar as I always do for the seasons but this time I turned into a full ‘nature table’ with lots of treasures I have found in the wild- feathers, shells, conkers etc. And one of my nan’s paintings as the backdrop.

Day 22

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Today I was given some seed bombs, so I’ve put one on our balcony so we can see it grow, and I will plant the other along the brook.

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30 Days Wild Week 2 (and a bit)

Week two of 30 days wild is over, here’s the ‘Random Acts of Wildness’ I’ve been up to since my last post. In case you missed it, you can find it here

Day 10

On Day 10, I took a slightly different route to work, by going through my favourite park Churchill gardens on the way🙂

Day 11

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On day 11, I spent time sitting outside on my balcony reading with the cats for company🙂

Day 12

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tried to identify a wild flower. I discovered these pretty white flowers are called Cow Parsley. We have lots of it along the brook.

Day 13

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I thought I had gone a day without doing anything ‘wild’! Then I realised I signed this petition to help get the Peacocks at Chalkwell park freed. Please sign it too by going here

Day 14

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On Day 14 I attempted to watch the sunset from the balcony. Couldn’t quite see it in full as the houses were in the way, but look at the pretty clouds!

Day 15

Day off yesterday so another walk in Churchill Gardens. This time for my ‘random act of wildness’ I lifted up a fallen tree trunk to see the life underneath and there was a lot! Didn’t manage to get a decent photo of the insects but the pictures in the middle are what it looked like underneath, look how amazing the patterns are, isn’t nature wonderful??

We also had a moth come visit us. She was on our compost bin. We moved her to the plants on our balcony and she stayed all day. She was only gone this morning. A visit from the ancestors…?

Day 16

and that brings us up to date to today…

Today I downloaded the Wildlife Trust’s ‘Nature Finder’ App and I love it already. I managed to identify two of these wild flowers using it. The first one is ‘Mallow’ and the second one is ‘ragwort’

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30 Days Wild- Week 1 (and a bit)

Many of my regular readers will know, I am a bit of a project/challenge addict! I nearly always have something on the go, this year it has been all about Instagram photo challenges. I kept thinking “I won’t do one this month” and I’d keep finding one that sounded fun or interesting! Then for this month June, I found something which could still involve taking photos every day (and I have), but also had a bit more behind it. A friend of mine posted on Twitter about a project started by The Wildlife Trusts called “30 Days Wild”

The idea behind it is simple, to help us form a stronger connection to nature. Every day in June you do something ‘wild’, something that involves nature or wildlife in some way, and it can be big or small, and take 5 minutes or a whole day. When you signed up they sent you a kit with ideas of things you could do each day, that range from ‘research facts about your favourite animal’ to ‘see how many species you can spot in an hour’ and more. As a nature lover, this project sounded awesome and fun. I don’t really need more connection to nature, but one of my goals this year was to learn more about nature, as I don’t know many names of trees, flowers, animals etc that I’m always admiring and this seemed like a perfect way of incorporating that! So I’ve been posting a photo about the project every day on Instagram and I thought it would be nice to do a weekly blog on what I’ve been doing, so here’s the first one!

Day One

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On Day One, I was working for most of the day so I wasn’t sure what I was going to do. I looked at my email with the 30 days wild ‘wild cards’ but none of them really inspired me. I then saw this also had an app, with at least 100 ideas on there, so I downloaded that to my phone and had a look for something that could fit in with my day. I picked ‘Watch an insect, see how they move’, thinking on my walk to work I was likely to see something. It was dry when I left so I though I’d be alright, but after walking for 5 minutes, it started to rain, just lightly at first and then full on chucking it down! I had already got my momentum so I thought I might as well just carry on, what a way to start my 30 days wild! I don’t often walk in the rain. I still looked for insects but I didn’t see any. However I did see many, many snails! Later on I decided to look up about snails and learnt that they are not insects but are molluscs, so more closely related to shellfish. I found various reasons cited for why they always come out after rain so I’m not sure which is true, things like to escape from drowning or that they can breathe easier…answers on a postcard please!

Day Two

Day two was a bit of a strange one. I had a day off, and the weather was dryer. So I decided to ‘explore a local park’. I thought I would go to a different one than my usual spots, so I went to Chalkwell park, which although is okay, I don’t enjoy it as much as Priory park or Churchill gardens. On this day I didn’t really enjoy it. Sadly, there are four peacocks in an enclosure in the park, which straight away made me feel sad. They have hardly any space in there and aren’t released into the open at all, never mind the fact they are wild animals not destined to live in a space like this. I could feel the depression from them.

I then walked around the park a bit and there are some beautiful old trees there. Sadly every one I saw had been graffitied on and there was an awful amount of litter around the park, even in the more ‘wild’ spots of the park. I left feeling sad but feeling determined to do something more to make this park a nicer place to visit and see what I could do to help those peacocks.

Day Three

Day three I went for ‘find mini wildness’ so while out and about to look for plants coming through on pavements and such like. I found lots!  It’s nice to see nature really is everywhere🙂

Day Four

On day four I went to the Southend Vegans meet up in Chalkwell park for a picnic! It had been a bit touch and go whether it would go ahead as it had been predicted to rain all the week and still looked dodgy in the morning but it turned out to be perfect in the end. I had some lovely vegan food including Rocky Road! and as well as seeing some of my lovely friends I also met some cool new people. I only took a silly selfie and it was so silly I didn’t keep it on my phone so no photo for Day 4 on here!  I was too preoccupied to take photos!

Day Five

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This photo wasn’t taken on this day but about a week before. On this day I was working all day so I researched facts about one of my favourite animals- the Squirrel! I learnt a few new things- 1. there are over 265 species of squirrel 2. they sometimes put on bogus food burying displays to fool potential thieves 3. They can smell food under a foot of snow 4. their front teeth never stop growing.

Day Six

Oops another one where I didn’t keep the photo. For day 6, I watched the Springwatch live wildlife cameras for a little while. At first there were lots of sleeping birds but with a little patience there was cute activity. My favourites were the bluetits. Every time the mum would come to feed them they would chirp away in this cute little chorus. A few days later I saw on the program that they were actually Great Tit chicks that a Bluetit was taking caring of! (I didn’t quite catch how that happened)

Day Seven

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For day seven I did a little bit of bird watching on my way to work. I saw blackbirds, seagulls, pigeons, sparrows, wood pigeons and crows including this one seen above. I really enjoying watching the birds as anyone that knows me will attest to!🙂

It’s taken me a while to write this blog so it’s now a little longer than a week !

Day Eight

A day off and a really lovely sunny day, a perfect day to go to Priory park and see how many animals I could spot! Just some of the things I saw (there were some I don’t know names of): Blackbirds, squirrel, wood pigeons, brown and blue butterflies, crows, mallard ducks, blackhead seagulls, coot, flies, midges, small black fish, magpie, bumblebee, other bees, blue dragonflies, ladybird, big fish (it was underwater so couldn’t make it out) and a rat. It was so nice to see a lot of people enjoying the outdoors! There were lots of people with their young children and people taking photos etc. I took some lettuce to feed the ducks but they weren’t at all interested! Too used to being fed bread which is bad for them I guess😦 Really lovely hour of magical nature! (also forgot to mention on my way to the park I saw a goldfinch! I had never seen one before, shame I didn’t manage to get a photo, it was so pretty)

Day Nine (today)

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Another visit to Priory Park, but a shorter one. Took the remaining lettuce and managed to get a few of the ducks and a coot to eat some at last!! My activity for the day was to take a blue photo, so I took the above of some flowers I saw.

Looking forward to what other adventures this will lead to!

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dancing barefoot..May 2016

Time for another month completion post, this year is sure passing by quickly!

FOCUS AND INTENTIONS UPDATE

KNOWLEDGE (focus on nature)- nothing specific really

HEALTH- been overall healthy I think

MAGIC- still haven’t done much focus on this

SELF CARE- resting when I need to still, and also booked and went for my smear test, as last time I kept forgetting to book it.

To heighten my spiritual work- no clients for the month, have been promoting my upcoming Goddess workshop as much as possible.

To get to Peru- still a long way off (for now)

To honour the seasons and moon- In addition to the full moon and new moon, there was Beltane, but I didn’t really do anything special for it sadly

To cook more- still nope

go to Yoga classes-only got to one during May😦 holiday, work etc all got in the way.

walk more often- been walking every day to work still

not to be affected by other people’s stories- thinking I’m starting to get the hang of this more🙂

have no expectations- need to work on this a bit more

manifestation skills- still lots of reading, meditation etc

WHAT I GOT UP TO

Went on Holiday! We went to Holland for four days. It was great, it deserved it’s own blog post, which you can read here

Went to a play (well not really a play but not sure how else to describe it) with my friend Fiona called ‘Three Acres and a Cow‘ it was a history of land activism told through storytelling, poetry and folk music. It was very interesting and I learnt lots.

I had my circle which in May was on the theme of ‘Desire’ it was another small but lovely one🙂

It ended with a night in with my friend Fiona watching a documentary called ‘Girl Rising‘ about girls over the world who overcome great challenges to gain an education. Available on Netflix if you have it

so still working quite a bit but at least I had a holiday! Things calming down a bit work wise and lots of social things coming up so June looks to be a good one🙂

POETRY- here’s any poems/bits of poems I managed for the #shewritespoetry2016 challenge! (writing a poem every day this year using a book of prompts) at some point I’ll make time to work on them further, finish some and give some of the prompts another go.

Poem 1

The daffodil hill

is better than any pill

to make me smile

even when I feel bottom of the pile

the sight of a tulip is my top tip

for a floral lift

when you’ve had a rift

a bluebell

always makes me feel well

a snowdrop

makes me want to hop

(unfinished)

Poem 2

Acceptance is beauty

life is fine

when you’re sea calm

we all have dream variations

some of us will see the snake and some of us will see a bouquet

listen to that jukebox love song

don’t be afraid of a cultural exchange

be open to what’s in front of you

listen with your heart not your head

be who you want to be

and live the life you dreamed.

poem 3

Awake

Believing

Consuming

Dreams

Enveloping

Fascinating

Growing

Holding

In your Mind

Just

Keep

Loving

More

Never be afraid to

Open your heart

Pay attention

Quell those fears

Remember who you are

Swim against the tides

Undo the pain you once felt

Very releasing

When you learn to let go

X Ray your soul

You are beautiful

now it’s time to dream…zzzzz

Poem 4

Fade into light

second sight

delving into night.

Poem 5

The willow tree is slowly waving to the rhythm of the wind

Children walk past undoing their school ties

then piling onto buses

the sky is still light but there’s a sense of the day coming to an end

clock watching at work is driving you round the bend

a good time for a cup of tea

look out the window at those going past

and wonder when hometime will arrive at last

(unfinished- I think)!

 

 

 

 

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Spirit Will Always Follow (Holland 2016)

Wherever you are
Spirit will always follow
What ever you do
Spirit will always follow
As you walk
Spirit will walk with you
If you run
Spirit will run alongside you
If you fall
Spirit will pick you up
If you cry
Spirit will wipe your tears
When you smile
Spirit will add that extra sparkle
when you laugh
Spirit will laugh with you
When you pray
whether it’s in a church or a forest
Spirit will listen
Spirit will guide
Spirit will show you the way
You just have to open your heart and allow her in
It’s not always easy
but it’s always possible
if you trust
it’ll all be all right in the end
a rainbow will appear
from the dark clouds
spirit will take care of you
if you also take care of yourself
Spirit will always follow
wherever you are
whatever you do
Spirit will always follow.

This poem is inspired by our recent trip to Holland. Let me explain why..

When you live a spiritual life, your eyes are always open to signs and divinity in everyday life. Before I went away I felt I couldn’t bring any of my spiritual items such as my spiritual journal, oracle cards etc, even though I usually do try to keep up my spiritual routine to some extent. This time I thought perhaps I felt like this because I needed to take a break. It became clear in less than 24 hours after landing that this wouldn’t be the case.

The first night we stayed with my in laws, near Assen, a more country side area of the country. They are highly spiritual people so there was always going to be some element of it while we stayed with them. There was a lot very deep talking and clearing, which was mostly connected with my husband. But also they gave us both some very beautiful gifts, which were spiritually minded items so we ended up having spiritual ‘stuff’ anyway! It was on this day that I suddenly made the connection that I had been getting a lot of signs about unicorns, which had been topped off when they gave me a book about unicorns. I had an unicorn healing attunement quite some time ago now, and although I worked with it a little after that, I didn’t continue to do any more. Before we went away there had been connections with unicorns coming up, and it just kept coming, and it still is! On the day I got the book I read a small bit of the book that talked about unicorn signs, and how it’s a sign for you to work with them, so I have been working quite intensely with them since we got back. We also had a beautiful moment there when we went for a walk to the nearby pond and were delighted with seeing a coot and her babies!  What a divine moment!

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On day two, it was mostly travelling to The Hague where we were staying for the rest of our break and relaxing. We saw another beautiful area- the Palace Gardens.

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Day 3 was the best day! Miguel showed me where he used to live and then we went to Zuiderpark which was absolutely huge and beautiful. But before we even saw much of it there is a city farm there which Miguel used to go to as a child and I fell in love. It wasn’t a regular farm, no meat or dairy produced, but a free educational farm where children can go to learn about nature, taking care of animals and having respect for living beings. You could buy a cup of food to feed the animals so we had lots of fun feeding them, especially the cheeky goats who would practically jump over the gate! We then went into the main enclosure, where I cuddled a beautiful gentle one eyed cow and stroked lots of lambs, sheep, pigs and of course goats! I honestly feel so happy being around animals I had trouble being pulled away and I had tears in my eyes feeling emotional!

Afterwards we had a look at some more of the park, and Miguel showed me a special tree where his granddad used to tell him gnomes lived.

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We went back to the area near the hotel to have lunch and next door to our hotel was the church where Miguel’s parents got married, so we decided to go inside. I wasn’t sure how I would feel, as a pagan, I can feel a bit uncomfortable but actually when we walked in, it was beautiful and there people inside praying and I only felt calm. We both sat down and made a prayer ourselves. Then we saw a section where you could light a candle offering in front of a choice of saints/important Christian figures. Even though we both didn’t know anything about him, we both felt compelled to make an offering to St.Anthony. Before we left we cleansed our hands with holy water. When we left we looked up St.Anthony who turns out to have a strong connection with Portugal (which is important to Miguel as he is half Portuguese) but also is connected with animals and the vulnerable, which I felt was relevant to me and connected a lot to the prayer I had made!

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We also went into a shop with all Navajo and Hopi tribe items and then in the afternoon decided to go to the coast. The weather had been a mix of rain and sun, it was fine when we left but sadly turned when we got there, it was so windy and wet we didn’t stay as long as we had hoped. I wanted to go near the water and the wind was so bad, it was like we were getting blown away! But I got near a puddle, put my hand in it and felt energy run all through me.

So on that day we were in touch with all the elements- Earth- the park and trees there, fire- candles in church, water- the sea, air- the massive wind at the coast and Spirit- praying in a church.

Sunday was our last day, we went to see some of Miguel’s friends in Haarlem, then had a stop in Amsterdam which was mostly disappointing as was so busy and not much to look at, but we visited the Kuan Yin shrine again, which was still wonderful. We both made prayers there as well, made offerings to Kuan Yin and read a long prayer they had printed to use as well.

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Although short, was my favourite trip to Holland yet. No plans to be spiritual particularly, but Spirit will always follow…

 

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Belated post: April Poems for #shewritespoetry2016

don’t think I wrote much of anything proper for the 4th month of my poem a day challenge but here’s the scraps I can find, that could turn into something better…

Poem 1

Stick me together and repackage me into something new

rearrange my soul

and place it where it’ll never go

hide my flows deep within

so I can only see the light

 

poem 2

It might seem cliché

to be true

but it’s what I know and what I’ve felt

love in all it’s glory

what it feels like when you can’t stop to breathe

but all you can do is breathe in…

Deprivation vs Plentitude

As she opened another can of beans

she dreamed of opening a takeaway instead

as she made a salad

she dreamed of a pizza with all the toppings

as she looked at the holes in her shoes

she dreamed of being able to go to the highstreet

and not think about pricetags

she dreamed of bills being paid in full and on time

she dreamed of nights out dancing and drinking

she dreamed of the days there were no money worries

maybe one day it might happen again

but for now she had to walk in the rain.

Poem 4

Bolt the door shut

Catch my fire

so we can truly connect

as a couple united

let’s not break this bond

and our love shall hold, united.

Poem 5

After the rain it all looked different

she no longer felt insignifcant

now she was no longer

just a shadow

now she no longer felt low

she was reborn into something new

fresh as the morning dew

layers all peeled away

time for a new day.

Poem 6

I have folded my sorrows into the mantle of summer night

it’s time for me to do what’s right

to move forward into my life

not accept anymore strife

take it into my stride

after all life is just a ride

we can choose to be scared or just enjoy.

Death Bed (unfinished)

Today is my last day

what can I say?

at least I did it my way

I laughed and I cried

But at least I tried

to be the best person I could be

there were sights I didn’t get to see

but at least I dreamed big

I got to do an interview at a gig

and had my words published in a book

a lot of people wouldn’t have gave me a second look

but I walked across fire and glass

poem 8

look after yourself better

speak up when you’re spoken to

sit up straight

brush your hair

people will think you don’t care

do your best

pass the tesr

don’t be a disappointment

I’ve given you a good life

so don’t give me any strife…

Poem 9

Just being still

gives me that thrill

with my eyes shut

I can go deep into my gut

see deep inside

open my soul wide

In fact, I can go anywhere

that I dare

There is no limit

I can run, walk or swim it

it’s a kind of magic

when you travel in your mind

you never know what you what you’ll find

all it takes is silence

and a little patience

go within and you can only win.

 

 

 

 

 

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dontbeanostrich

if you bury your head in the sand to avoid the rain youll never see the rainbow when the sun shines again

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