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Poetry Dowsing Week Three

This follows on from my previous blogs about Week One and Week Two 

Here’s my progress from Week Three.

Week Three was about Uncovering a Sense of Support. By really noticing who in our lives supports us and our art, and those who don’t. This also went into accounts we look at on social media, to stop looking at those that bring us down and look at those that lift us up. This is something I do consciously try to do anyway, but I also need to do a lot of clearing of my social media accounts at the moment. Earlier in the year I had a Facebook friend ‘cull’ and over the past week I have been whittling down my Instagram account as well.

The exercise for the week was to set a small goal towards one of those creative projects we’ve been putting off possibly due to fear/anxiety etc from our Inner Censors. I decided I would look again at the book I haven’t been working on ‘Tales From the Fire’, I didn’t do any work on it, but decided my small gentle goal would be to go back and just see where I got to do with it.

This week my walk was kind of by accident, as there were problems with the train this weekend that I take part of the way to work so I had to take a bus part way which turned out to be a 10 minute walk from my house (rather than 5 to the train station) and then on the way home it turned out that a football match had been on so when I got to Stratford it was rammed and loads of sections were blockaded so I couldn’t go out the right exit for my bus stop, instead having to take a long way round. Unfortunately it wasn’t an enjoyable walk!

I didn’t do an Artist Date on my own but I did do one and it was a proper going out one this time! I took my husband to see School of Rock the Musical for his birthday! It was a lot of fun and really enjoyable.

I only missed one day of the Morning Pages but again didn’t manage to write any poetry sadly.

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Poetry Dowsing Week Two

Following on from my blog about Week One (you can read the full description of what I’m doing in that post)

Here’s my brief post about Week Two of the process.

Week Two was about ‘Uncovering a Sense of Reality’ it did feel a bit like that, as the week fell just as we had moved into a new house, so a lot of the week was spent sorting out our stuff, and also getting used to the area and all those very grounded things.

The task was to think about our ‘Inner Censor’ that voice in your head that stops you from your creative work as it’s not good enough etc, and to turn it into something really silly, by drawing a picture of what it would look like (I’m using it here as not to personify it)! and finding an image in a magazine to represent it. I drew a very unartistic cartoon and find an image of an angry/critical looking woman to represent the Inner Censor. (which I now can’t find so that’s a good thing right)?

As I was still in awkward circumstances (what with having just moved) for my walk I had a walk to see what the local shops were, although having said that we now have a lovely wide open space called Wanstead Flats near by and during that week I went for a short walk there and a longer walk, which was lovely- saw squirrels, parakeets, a robin and a lake filled with geese, swans and moorhens.

I had to do an amended artist date again, so once again I didn’t get to go out to do one, but I spent time learning about the life of P.B Shelley, the writer of some of my favourite poetry and he turned out to have a very interesting life, sadly drowning at the age of 29.

Sadly I didn’t write any poetry last week but I managed to do my morning pages daily as well as all of the above.

 

 

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Poetry Dowsing Week One

Last year I spent a lot of time joining various ‘challenges’ from Instagram, various websites I get emails from, Facebook etc. However I found that I was joining a lot of them, but a lot of the time not actually taking fully part in any of them. So one of my intentions I set for this year that I would stop spreading myself so thin and still join challenges etc that called, but just ONE at a time and fully focus on that one. So in December last year I saw that one of my favourite websites that isn’t social media Mookychick had an article up saying about a course/program for 12 weeks starting in January, that would be focusing on self care and filling our ‘creative well’, it resonated loudly and I knew this would be the first one of the year. As one of my other intentions of the year was to get a bit more back in touch with my creative side as well.

The course is called ‘Poetry Dowsing’ and is based on a book by Julia Cameron called ‘Finding Water’ , I haven’t read this particular book but have read other books by her and loved them. The good thing is Mookychick have made the course as such that it’s helpful if you have the book but you don’t have to have it. I don’t have it although I make a purchase later as I’m interested to read.

The premise is pretty simple. Each of the 12 weeks has a theme and an associated exercise. In each week you also do creative self care activities that Julia Cameron recommends (also in her book The Artist’s Way, which I have read several times). So everyday you do something called Morning Pages. Each morning you write 3 pages, of just whatever comes out basically. It works as a ‘brain dump’ if you like, kind of a release each morning before you settle into the rhythm of the day. This isn’t perfect writing by all means. It’s not even recommended you read them until the end of the 12 weeks. You also have at least one walk a week, wherever you like, for at least 30 minutes. The other thing is an ‘artist date’ once a week, you take yourself on a date once a week, doesn’t have to necessarily be creative but something that will bring you joy and potentially inspiration. Mookychick have kindly made some adjustments to these practices to be more inclusive, like mindfulness meditation instead of a walk if that’s not possible for you.

The first week was about Optimism. The task was to look for 5 beautiful things around you that week even if they were simple. The first week I was in the middle of moving house so it was quite difficult, but my 5 things were: the full moon, a white rose bouquet being carried on the tube, flowers in Morrisons, a little yellow flower outside a tall building and I saw a heart chalkboard that had been thrown into the rubbish outside a block of flats and found it beautiful somehow:

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That week for my walk I simply walked to the nearby train station and back, and for my ‘date’- I had no time to go out of my own for anything so I made one of the adjustments suggested and simply looked through the Instagram of an artist I enjoy called Jessica Perlstein.

I thought there was something poetic about the heart in the bin, so already I had found some poetry with the ‘dowsing’! Here it is: (I shared this previous post as well but here it is again anyway)!

The heart cannot be thrown away
With all it’s marks and damage
You can try to ignore it
But the heart is solid
And will not simply go away
The heartbeat is always there ❤️
No matter how much your heart is breaking 💔
The heart is keeping you alive
Even when you feel like you’re dying inside
The beat goes on
In an eternal rhythm
Inside your heart
There is always hope
Hope for another day
The heart knows you will find another way
The heart cannot be thrown away
Whatever abuse you’ve suffered
The heart only knows love
And will love you no matter what
So trust the rhythm of your heart
Know that the clouds will pass
Even if it takes some time
Just listen to your heart
Beating no matter what happens
You cannot throw the heart away

I’m pretty proud of it! and looking forward to seeing any other inspiration that comes my way. I’m about midway through week 2 now, I will try to keep a record on here of how I’m getting on each week. If you fancy joining take a look here at the initial post on Mookychick. If you use Twitter they are sharing using hashtag #poetrydowsing I’m not on Twitter so just sharing any work here, Facebook and Instagram.

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The Heart Cannot Be Thrown Away

The heart cannot be thrown away
With all it’s marks and damage
You can try to ignore it
But the heart is solid
And will not simply go away
The heartbeat is always there ❤️
No matter how much your heart is breaking 💔
The heart is keeping you alive
Even when you feel like you’re dying inside
The beat goes on
In an eternal rhythm
Inside your heart
There is always hope
Hope for another day
The heart knows you will find another way
The heart cannot be thrown away
Whatever abuse you’ve suffered
The heart only knows love
And will love you no matter what
So trust the rhythm of your heart
Know that the clouds will pass
Even if it takes some time
Just listen to your heart
Beating no matter what happens
You cannot throw the heart away #poetrydowsing #mookychick #juliacameron #findingwater

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You Don’t Have to Take Your Clothes Off…(but you can, just NOT all the time…)

Self Love. Body Love. Body Acceptance. All those things I personally really believe in and encourage. I feel it’s still a massive issue for many people, especially women. In a world bombarded with images of a certain look, diet culture (especially in January)! it’s really hard to be positive about our less than perfect bodies. It’s part of what I want to help people with.

It’s something I’ve struggled with (and sometimes still do), so as such I like to read and learn about such things by following self love/body positivity/self acceptance accounts on social media, and reading books etc. The content of a lot of them I really enjoy and agree wholeheartedly with the messages they put across. But recently I have noticed one issue about most of these accounts (if there’s some people know about I would like, please hit me up in the comments with links)! that the people that host these accounts- they are really beautiful – not plain or ‘normal’ looking(even the ‘larger’ people), mostly seem to be full of selfies, they are usually quite young.

One account particularly recently has been really bothering me. I won’t name her as this isn’t about shaming anyone. I actually really enjoy what she has to say on her account and think she spreads a great message. However what I don’t like is that a LOT of the photos she puts with the messages, she is in her underwear….now don’t get me wrong. I think it’s great for your self esteem and confidence to put daring photos out there… especially when you are really struggling with body confidence/love. But recently she seems to do this with every single post…and some I can’t just see the relevance of not being in many clothes…

Like I said, I haven’t got a problem with what clothes (or not) people choose to wear, BodyPosiPanda has some amazing photos of her really rocking it in her underwear! I just think that for me personally (and I’m sure I’m not the only one) I find it actual has the opposite effect, I see this account posting all these photos in her underwear, and well it doesn’t feel real for me. I want to see realness, yes let’s see your beauty, but let’s also see your shadow, let’s see you in just your everyday wear, let’s see you when you look less than perfect. I’m much more open to the idea of body positivity and self love from someone else, when they aren’t just posting their best photos. (especially when they are slim and seemingly have no ‘flaws’)

So what I hope I can do as I bring the ideas of self love and body positivity into my work, is bring that, I want to spread those messages, but a realistic one. Not just selfies/photos of me but a mix of images/words/messages, and me in all my guises, happy, sad, neutral. Dressed up to the nines or wearing a big t shirt reserved for ‘that time of the month’ and then maybe the odd one in my underwear….;) just not all the time….

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Cacoa Dieta Days 4-8 and Conclusion

For those who have been reading my recent blog posts, you may have read that I have been doing a dieta with the sacred heart opening medicine of Cacao. If you haven’t read the previous posts, you can see them here and here

I completed my 8 day dieta of a cup of ceremonial cacao daily yesterday. Here is a run down of what happened days 4-8 and then I will write my concluding comments about this process.

Day 4

On Day 4, I prepared for ceremony in the same way but I decided to try another method of making the cacao, so instead of in the cup, I made it on a saucepan, by putting some water in the saucepan warmed up but not to boil, then added the cacao to melt in to it then adding cayenne and the stevia to sweeten it up. I think I used 250ml of water so there was more to drink then I had made previously so it took longer to drink but the taste was better and it was actually easier to make this way.

I found an ecstatic dance cacao mix on Youtube as from my previous experiments it seems that the cacao spirit responds well to this sort of music. Again as I listened I felt I wanted to move and dance, I was feet tapping etc but still journeying at the same time. This time the archetype of the medicine wheel I am working with at the moment= Jaguar came and took me inside a cave. Inside the cave I met the Mayan Goddess IxCacao. She was wearing a lot of green which made total sense to me as green is the colour of the heart chakra. She said to me she is here to help me find joy and pleasure again, and that healing can be done in a joyful way (i.e ecstatic dance) even if ‘dark’ /’negative’ emotions do come up as part of this healing process. I was experiencing exactly that in that moment as tears were falling down my face but I was still tapping along and enjoying the music I was listening to. I asked if there was any other reason I came to the Cacao and she confirmed it was for me to hold ceremonies. I said but so many people are doing it but she said I will find my own unique way to hold them.

After the journey I felt like writing.

Cacao Day 5

Day 5 was Christmas Day so I decided to make some for my husband Miguel as well. So I followed the same method and just doubled the amounts of the previous day.  (except the cayenne- just a smidgen more)

Decided not to journey this time so just chatted for a bit, but then I did lay down with music on and I got a clear glimpse of Hummingbird (the next archetype on the medicine wheel path I’m walking). I can’t remember what else happened but I just felt very content and happy. Miguel started playing the steel tongue drum we recently bought and it sounded beautiful.

Cacao Day 6

This time I put an extra teaspoon for cacao in and used half the water than previous so it wouldn’t be such a full drink.

I blew my intent into the drink before drinking, to be about friendship, to honour those who have been, those to come and those who are there.

After drinking, I didn’t journey but decided to have a play on the steel drum playing it for friendship. Then I just laid down with music and did some writing. I discovered a Cacao Spirit song which was really lovely and listened to another spiritual song I love (Mother I feel you under my feet) and really felt like singing and dancing.

It had been coming up for me since the process began about a friendship I possibly needed to let go of and that day the cacao was helping me find the words that I needed to say.

Day 7

Made 7 teaspoons worth again and this time no cayenne- just a little rose water. I was surprised to find this made the drink quite bitter and even adding extra stevia didn’t seem to make a difference. So as I drank I had to take sips of water.

It felt quite strong as I felt it quite quickly (there was less time between eating this time). It was the 3 year anniversary of losing our beloved cat Roxie so I blew in the intent of honouring her and Mitzi (our other cat we lost 6 months later) and the new cat we are hoping to get in the near future, and then all animals.

I got the word ‘Lakota’ pop into my mind. I started by listening to the Cacao Spirit Song then intended to journey but instead sat and enjoyed music just for the pure sake of listening to it although I couldn’t seem to settle on listening to one particular song! I listened to Lakota Music and in the process I also discovered an artist called Liquid Bloom which I really enjoyed. I was just appreciating music.

Day 8 Cacao

Prior to the ceremony, I finally sent the message to the friend I had been thinking about. It was not an easy thing to do and I really hoped it was the right thing to do but I had been thinking about it for a few weeks now and it felt like the cacao was showing me in my heart it was the right thing to do.

I made for the two of us again this time and I had to open the second bag of Cacao I had bought but it was in much bigger clumps in the 2nd pack so harder to measure in teaspoons so I think it was probably very strong!! I had to add extra stevia , no rose this time, just the cayenne.

This time I blew in it would be my concluding ceremony of the dieta to find out my path with Cacao. I was chatting with Miguel for a bit about the Cacao (he was really impressed with it – yay)! but then I did some channeled writing and got more detail of the type of work I will be doing with Cacao.

 

CONCLUSION

I already knew cacao was a beautiful medicine (it’s pure chocolate after all)! but I have never experienced it the way I have since making it myself. It doesn’t get you ‘high’ but does bring a feeling of joy/love. It connects you to your self. It awakens the creative aspects of yourself (for me it was writing). The lessons Cacao brings: healing doesn’t always have to be difficult, appreciation and gratitude of even the very simple things. She opens and heals your heart. She helps you see your truth and your light. She brings the fun back into living again! On the downside I did experience some digestive issues and dehydration during my dieta that may or may not have been because of the cacao- so please remember to hydrate yourself if you are taking part in Cacao Ceremony and start off with small amount not large! It might be raw chocolate but it’s very potent!

I now know I had to do this dieta for my own healing path but also to bring into my healing for others (I have some ideas for this already).

DISCLAIMER: There are medical contradictions with Ceremonial Cacao meaning it’s not suitable for everybody. Also please note I am not ‘trained’ with Cacao this has been my own experimentation so the doses I have done may not be suitable for you. Please do your own research first or seek advice from a practicer)

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Winter Solstice and Earth

If you read regular you may remember I relaunched this blog on Samhain and said I’d be posting about the wheel of the year and the elements which started with fire, that’s what I am working with in my women’s circle also and in my own work to some extent.

I’m a bit late posting this one about the next stage of the cycle has come round on 22nd December Winter Solstice and now we move from Fire onto the element of Earth.

We did our women’s circle about a week early as this time of year is busy for most. We took part in the worldwide womb blessing and worked with flowers to begin our earth ‘season’.

Winter Solstice is the shortest day and longest night of the year. It’s when we begin to celebrate the sun’s return as it slowly begins to come back after this date bringing more and more light back to our days again. A lot of the traditions we see at Christmas actually came from Winter Solstice from instance the Christmas Tree was the Yuletide Tree and the exchange of gifts. It too is a time of gratitude and love for what/who you have in your life.

Earth seems to fit this season until Imbolc in February perfectly to me. We are spending more time around family and friends, wanting to keep warm, and it feels like a season of grounding.

My own personal work right now if you might have seen is with using the Earth’s bounty of the medicine of Cacao and it’s beautiful!

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Cacao Days 2 and 3

This blog continues from my previous blog about the Cacao dieta I am currently taking part in. Here is a brief rundown of how it went for days two and three.

Day Two

Day two I read a lot of conflicting information online about dosage so I started to have a doubt that maybe I had overdosed myself the previous day (although I was fine and journeyed very deep). So this time I cut up five teaspoons of the cacao instead of six and out in even less Cayenne, but a teaspoon of rose water and a bit of stevia.  Again, I cleansed with aqua de florida beforehand, set my intentions and opened space. I made using the same method making it in the cup.

I drank and then journeyed as I did on Day 1 using the same playlist I had found on Youtube. This time I didn’t journey as deep. I felt pain down my right side of my body which stopped me feeling fully comfortable. I did feel healing going on on in my solar plexus like a spiral cleansing, and I was aware it was tied into body shame. But I struggled to stay in the journey. There was no wish to move this time or to write, or anything, I felt a bit despondent after the journey.

 

Day 3

So yesterday I wanted to journey deep like I did on Day 1 so I tried to think of factors that may have had an effect- the dose? when I ate? the amount of cayenne or rose?? There were a few things that might have made a difference.

So I decided to leave it at least an hour after eating and did six teaspoons again as I did on Day 1. I put a little less rose (like half a teaspoon) but the same amount of cayenne so the taste would not be too spicy but just enough to have a nice spice to it to help the cacao to work. I used the same methods again the setting of the intentions and making the cacao the same way. The taste was probably the best one I’ve made so far.

I journeyed again, this time I would say it was deeper than Day 2 bit still not as deep as Day 1. So I still need to work out the variables that made it so good that day and experiment with other ways in the remaining days of the dieta.

I didn’t journey very deep too quickly but I gave myself longer to settle and eventually a deeper journey came. I felt it working on healing on my heart once again and also on my throat, I coughed a lot which I took as a sign of the clearing I was processing.

I think there was a lot more to the journey I don’t remember even when I intially wrote it down as it faded from my conciousness pretty quickly but I saw one of my shamanic teachers who showed me my own personal tree which he said I was ready to see now as I am growing more wise and more powerful and said I am getting closer to creating my own form of medicine. I also felt very in my body.

I’m not sure how I am going to approach today to try to repeat the journey of Day 1 but may be time to start trying some other ways of doing it.

I’m not sure if it’s because of the medicine but a few emotional triggers/ situations have arisen bringing up a lot of emotions for me at the moment.

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Cacao Dieta Day 1

So cacao as a plant medicine is not something I’ve given much thought to before. I have experienced a few ceremonies and while they were pleasant I never really got anything very deep out of them. I had also never thought of working with it myself especially as there seems to be a lot of people doing cacao ceremonies out- so seems like a somewhat saturated market,

However having said all this, a month or so ago, the spirit of cacao came into my consciousness and she was inviting me to work with her. I wasn’t really sure much about what this would involve or how I could learn to work with it. By some divine timing a message popped up on the shamanic What’s App community group chat I’m part of asking if anyone knew if there were courses about holding cacao ceremonies. From this there was a number of replies, some about possible trainings, links to where to buy it and all sorts of advice. A good friend of mine on the group suggested a ‘dieta’ with the cacao to work with the spirit and communicate with the plant itself to get a more personal understanding. This resonated deeply with me. A ‘dieta’ is traditionally done in places such as Peru, where you work with the plant by ingesting it daily over a period of time. From this I started to do my research about how to prepare cacao and plan my dieta.

I decided I would like to start on Winter Solstice weekend- I started yesterday December 21st 2019 and will continue for  days, having one cup a day, doing my own personal ceremony. Another friend of mine sells Ecuadorian Ceremonial Grade Cacao on her website The Shipibo Market so I bought a few bags from her. (for those not in the know for ceremonial use you must get cacao that is ceremonial grade). I also got some rose water as I read it’s quite nice flavour to put in, and Cayenne Pepper as the spice helps the cacao to work and helps it to get into the system quicker.

So yesterday was my first day as a complete beginner of preparing cacao. I put myself in a ceremony/ritual setting first by cleansing myself with some rose aqua de florida water, and then opening space, calling the directions and Peruvian animal archetypes to be with me and provide protection. I then prepared the Cacao. I have noted a few different methods I have found online, which seemed to be the simplest and didn’t involve too much equipment to try and make the process as easy as possible. Yesterday I decided to try a method making the Cacao directly into the cup ready to drink as found on Amor Cacao Facebook page.

First I measured put six teaspoons of the cacao onto a chopping board (please be advised to look into what dose suits you, I am not a professional and you may need a lower dose), luckily the cacao block was already quite a lot broken down into small chunks so it didn’t take too much effort to get a sharp knife and chop down into as fine as bits as possible (you need to get it into as much of a powder form as you can). I carefully poured them into a mug, I probably lost a bit in the process of transfering from board to mug so was a bit less than 6 teaspoons). I put water into the kettle and some cold water in the jug. I boiled the kettle but didn’t fully boil it, just allowing to get the water fairly hot but not boiling. I poured a little into the mug, slowly stirring the cacao, then adding just a little cold water at a time to try to get the right consistency. It seemed quite thin so wasn’t really sure if I had done it correctly so stopped adding any water and added a very small amount of rose water and a small amount of cayenne pepper (maybe like quarter or less of teaspoon) I tasted it to see how it was and it was still very spicy! It was also very bitter so I added Stevia to make the taste sweeter and easier to drink.

I took the Cacao upstairs to our room and began to drink. I couldn’t drink it too quick because of the spice although the taste was actually quite nice the more you drank it!! I had to have a few sips of water as well. I then laid down with headphones to journey and managed to find a cacao ceremony playlist on Youtube which turned out to be perfect. I set my intent to journey with the spirit of Cacao. I was really surprised for the first time ever I experienced Cacao really deeply and I hadn’t even been sure I had made it correctly! Within a few minutes I felt deep healing around my heart, bringing emotions to the surface with tears. There was a block here and Cacao explained to me it was a huge build up of many years of self abuse from words of self hatred and put down’s etc. I could also truly feel the connection between the heart and the womb space. I was told as I do a lot of womb healing for women, it was time now for me to clear my heart more as well as my womb so I can go even deeper with my work.

I felt deep in the journey but also very much in my body. The journey was mostly about feeling. I could feel deep healing in my solar plexus and my throat. I did see the blue light of my throat chakra and also saw myself being cleansed in waters. I had a strong urge to dance but kept it to feet tapping and mild movements as I was laying down. I started having a strong urge to write, so I came out of the journey, wrote two poems and wrote my experience. I made prayers of thanks and ended the ceremony.

If that was Day 1 I am looking forward to the rest of this week!

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Spirituality Through Expression

Although so many more people are awakening these day and are into various forms of spirituality, (we’re all so ‘woke’ you know)! I think there’s still a lot of people that don’t realise that we can have deep meaningful spiritual experiences that don’t come through meditation, sitting alone at a sacred site or having your cards read.

There are many more physical ‘in your body’ experiences that in turn can maybe create out of body experiences… Expression and creativity is a big one. Yes of course, writing and art. But beyond that not even just writing music or being a musician, maybe you don’t need to be a talented musician at all to have a deep spiritual experience through music or be a talented dancer to have one while dancing.. the possiblities are endless…

I mean to be honest you could have a vision come over you as you’re eating your breakfast or walking to work…but for the purpose of this particular blog I’m going to focus on experiences I’ve personally had with drumming and dancing. Things that you could set out to do with the Intention of recieving insights, healing or simply releasing emotions you no longer need.

Let’s make this clear I’m no musician, I can’t play any instruments, I’m not a trained dancer. I’m like most people I guess, I enjoy singing along to songs I enjoy and dancing to them in the comfort of my own home or a night out.

My most recent experience that was new to me was full on self healing with drumming. I went along to a friends workshop about Drumming With the Ancestors just before Samhain. I love the sound of drums and have had sound healings from others quite a few times but this was different. There were drums for us all to play as well as other simple instruments like rattles if we felt called to do so. The intention was set at the start, we would drum for healing our maternal line then do another session for the paternal line. There was no instruction, it was simply to drum how ever our hands felt they had to drum, and if we felt moved to play something else, we could.

I didn’t really know what to expect, I just started to drum and set the intention to drum for my maternal line. I noticed a certain tone to the drumming and also felt moved to use a rattle and a fairy chime instrument (I’m not actually sure what this is really called bit it’s amazing sounds like fairy music). I could feel the wounds of my female ancestors begin to rise to be released. There was a feeling of ‘I’m not being heard’ which was playing out to me in the physical as a manifestion of the wounds the ancestors were carrying, My intuition guided me to realise this wound went far back to a female ancestor who was burnt for being a witch- but not given a fair trial.

Then we worked on the paternal/masculine, I picked a different louder drum and my pace picked up tremondously, it was LOUD. This time the wound came through of not being seen, all I could hear in my mind was ‘Why does no one see me? Why does no one love me?” There was a lot of anger to be released and some sense of some suicidies that had happened.

As if this wasn’t all powerful enough when we were done we were led on a shamanic journey to meet our ancestors, who ever wanted to come through. This bit is the more obvious spiritual part of sitting still etc but it was through the drumming that opened us up to these experiences, For me an older lady came through who gave me the gift of self belief in the form of a purple smoke she put in my heart. In this journey she gave me permission to call myself a Medicine Woman, as it’s truly what I am and time for me to be who I truly am (actually trying not to cry just remembering this)!

The other experiences I’ve had is through what’s called Ecstastic Dancing. When i lived in Essex a friend of mine ran sessions and I fell in love with it. They call it a moving meditation but you’re not really mediating as such. You may start with some breath work and warm up, then the music starts which can be quite a mix but is generally upbeat kind of trance / dance music mixed with slower ones (and sometimes the odd one you might know)! and you are just meant to allow your body to move however it wants to without comparing to others, just focusing on your own journey, in my friend’s sessions we were told to close our eyes and just be conscious of not falling over into people around us! I experienced different things everytime I went- Once I felt like my Inner Child who wanted to play and run around, was fighting with my adult self- who was tired and pre-menstrual!

Today after just over a year living in London I finally went to one here and it was amazing- I had forgotten how much I loved it! It was far bigger (like 40/50 people not like 10/15). As the dance went on I felt tears release, letting go of something that’s now over, and I can move on, and I brought in with joy as I jumped around the space, feeling like I was in a club without the drink or drugs and it was so freeing! I highly recommend it!

Comment below any experiences you’ve had through non orthodox methods, I’d love to hear about them x

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